i still have a headache...and its getting bigger by the second....
I dont do demands...simple as that. You dont tell me what to do, I dont give a fuck who you are. You may offer suggestions, or give advice, but under no circumstances are you to demand shit from me.
I dont like ultimatums...too much like a demand. You dont force me to choose between anything or anyone, cuz if im in the right mood, i will tell you exactly how i feel about you, and walk away from you, the ultimatum, and any other bullshit you may try to pull.
I dont like to be forced to do shit...I dont like to be rushed. Its too structured, and me and structure are not friends. I gotta be able to do what I wanna do, when I wanna do it. I dont like wasting time explainin shit either...u get it the first time, or u wont get it at all.
I am a really nice person. I think bad thoughts most of the time, but I've learned how to hide that shit behind walls and masks. I've learned how to hide a lot of shit behind those same walls and masks, I've put shit in boxes, safes, filing cabinets, and the like.
Im very cold and calculating, for the most part. I kno exactly how to get the response from you I want, and I'm willing to use whatever I have to in order to get it...By any means neccesary, right?
But I also dont like seeing people hurt, especially by something I may have said or done. I want to see everyone happy and smiling..is that such a bad thing?
Im a dreamer...I dont like reality, so I create my own, through stories, books, art, daydreamin, and anything else I can think of. THe world is a cold, lonely ass place, especially for me, so I try to spend as little time as I can interacting with it.
WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT ME TO TELL YOU!!?!?!? (sorry, that was a random thought that made it out before I could stop it)
I like making people happy, I like being inspiration, I like knowing that because of something I did, someone will get some kind of pleasure. I like putting smiles on faces, I like being the secret keeper, I like being needed. I LIke using my talents for good.
I dont kno what to give you tho. You're so...i dunno...complicated. and you aint tellin me shit.
Im thru trying to guess what you need, and what you want. Im not gonna try to figure it out anymore. Im jus gonna do shit, and if you dont like it, then you better speak up.
(sorry, another random thought)
Im usually very good at figuring out how emotions and shit work..I guess Im a logical thinker too...in a way. If you're crying, kiss away your tears. If your sad, hold you. If your upset, eat the anger.
Im used to feeling a lot of emotions at one time..especially from other people. Yes, its stressfull as hell, and yeah, it drains the fuck outta me sometimes, but Im used to it. I can tell who's been broken before, who's been in love, whos been scorned by love, who's angry at their lover, whos pissed with their families...whatever emotion, I can feel it..I may not always have a name for each feeling, but I kno how it makes me feel.
TELL ME SOMETHING DAMMIT...IM SICK OF SITTING IN THE DARK OR GOING OFF STUFF THAT IM BEING TOLD MY OTHER PEOPLE.
it bothers me that i havent been able to connect with you, cuz im used to making connections witout even knowing they were being made. But i do understand what the problem is...
we started off wrong as hell, but in a way, we didnt, because we were friends first, and we talked a lot..lol. but we are trying to force love outta sex, and because feelings have become involved before we realized it, we are afraid of being destroyed by each other, once the walls and other apprehensions come down. (thanks TBM)
It is not my intention to use anything you tell me agains you. It is not my intention to break up any already formed union. I do not want to take the place of anyone else. I want you to need me for your own reasons, I want you to want me because of something I can offer you.
I want to love you, I really do. I want to lay in the bed and hold you, and make you feel girly and pretty. I want you to feel safe and protected. I want you to feel strong and beautiful. I want to hold you when you cry, and make you smile when you're sad, and make you laugh when you need a good laugh. I also want to please you sexually, I want to send electric shocks thru your body. I want you to cum like you've never came before...(and i kno this is prolly impossible)
I kno you dont need me for anything, because you already have more than you could possibly ever want...but I would still like to be able to provide you with something...
I dont like ultimatums...too much like a demand. You dont force me to choose between anything or anyone, cuz if im in the right mood, i will tell you exactly how i feel about you, and walk away from you, the ultimatum, and any other bullshit you may try to pull.
I dont like to be forced to do shit...I dont like to be rushed. Its too structured, and me and structure are not friends. I gotta be able to do what I wanna do, when I wanna do it. I dont like wasting time explainin shit either...u get it the first time, or u wont get it at all.
I am a really nice person. I think bad thoughts most of the time, but I've learned how to hide that shit behind walls and masks. I've learned how to hide a lot of shit behind those same walls and masks, I've put shit in boxes, safes, filing cabinets, and the like.
Im very cold and calculating, for the most part. I kno exactly how to get the response from you I want, and I'm willing to use whatever I have to in order to get it...By any means neccesary, right?
But I also dont like seeing people hurt, especially by something I may have said or done. I want to see everyone happy and smiling..is that such a bad thing?
Im a dreamer...I dont like reality, so I create my own, through stories, books, art, daydreamin, and anything else I can think of. THe world is a cold, lonely ass place, especially for me, so I try to spend as little time as I can interacting with it.
WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT ME TO TELL YOU!!?!?!? (sorry, that was a random thought that made it out before I could stop it)
I like making people happy, I like being inspiration, I like knowing that because of something I did, someone will get some kind of pleasure. I like putting smiles on faces, I like being the secret keeper, I like being needed. I LIke using my talents for good.
I dont kno what to give you tho. You're so...i dunno...complicated. and you aint tellin me shit.
Im thru trying to guess what you need, and what you want. Im not gonna try to figure it out anymore. Im jus gonna do shit, and if you dont like it, then you better speak up.
(sorry, another random thought)
Im usually very good at figuring out how emotions and shit work..I guess Im a logical thinker too...in a way. If you're crying, kiss away your tears. If your sad, hold you. If your upset, eat the anger.
Im used to feeling a lot of emotions at one time..especially from other people. Yes, its stressfull as hell, and yeah, it drains the fuck outta me sometimes, but Im used to it. I can tell who's been broken before, who's been in love, whos been scorned by love, who's angry at their lover, whos pissed with their families...whatever emotion, I can feel it..I may not always have a name for each feeling, but I kno how it makes me feel.
TELL ME SOMETHING DAMMIT...IM SICK OF SITTING IN THE DARK OR GOING OFF STUFF THAT IM BEING TOLD MY OTHER PEOPLE.
it bothers me that i havent been able to connect with you, cuz im used to making connections witout even knowing they were being made. But i do understand what the problem is...
we started off wrong as hell, but in a way, we didnt, because we were friends first, and we talked a lot..lol. but we are trying to force love outta sex, and because feelings have become involved before we realized it, we are afraid of being destroyed by each other, once the walls and other apprehensions come down. (thanks TBM)
It is not my intention to use anything you tell me agains you. It is not my intention to break up any already formed union. I do not want to take the place of anyone else. I want you to need me for your own reasons, I want you to want me because of something I can offer you.
I want to love you, I really do. I want to lay in the bed and hold you, and make you feel girly and pretty. I want you to feel safe and protected. I want you to feel strong and beautiful. I want to hold you when you cry, and make you smile when you're sad, and make you laugh when you need a good laugh. I also want to please you sexually, I want to send electric shocks thru your body. I want you to cum like you've never came before...(and i kno this is prolly impossible)
I kno you dont need me for anything, because you already have more than you could possibly ever want...but I would still like to be able to provide you with something...