Ya kno, I'm me, and thats all I can be....
I had a plan. To get back at every and anyone who's ever pissed me off, lied to me, cheated on me, whatever. I wanted my muthafucin revenge. Guess what? plan worked...almost.
THe guy I was carryin out the plan wit kept bitchin up. Not that I couldnt do it on my own, i just find it more fun to cause mischief and chaos with others.....but he did come around, and carried out his end of the plan. Which I'm very thankful for, by the way.
The plan has ended. ITs over. People are pissed the hell of too!!! THink I care? Hell muthafuckin no. Ya see, I never pick on anyone under me. If I think you're worse off than me, then im not gonna say it. I hate pickin on the underdog. I also dont lie about me or my intentions. Ima do me, regardless of what you think about it, cuz at the end of the day, shit, thats all I kno how to be.
Well, said pissed off people are upset at the guy. He continues to say "well, i didnt wanna do it anyways, now people are gonna be mad at me." OKAY?!?!?? let them be mad, cuz if you was so worried about them bein mad, then honestly, you woulda be strong enough to fend me off when i was convincin ur ass to do it in the first place.
I was havin a coversation with another guy. Ya kno, Im a very beautiful, intelligent, lovable person. Who's also cynical, and diabolical, and cold-hearted, and jus plain mean. Yeah, I say the first thing that comes to mind. I like hurting niggas feelings, I like being mean. I hate fake people,I hate lies, I hate niggas usin others as steppin stones. Ok, true, but still, Im me.
I love chaos, I love trouble. Yes, I am the biggest trouble maker I kno...lol.
But underneath all that cynicalness, I still wanna be loved for me. I still like hugs and kisses, and sweet nothings, and being spoiled. SHit, my biggest fantasy, to date, is to lay in the bed, reading poetry(handwritten of cource) eating strawberries, and cuddling.
Guess what tho? I have 2 kids, by 2 different fathers...think that bothers me. hell no!! kno why? cuz I'm better than that. my kids are my pride and joy. I love them more than life itself. I'll die jus so they can have their hearts desire. and there is a man out there that will love my kids as much as I do, despite the fact that they're not his...biologically. All i hafta do is be patient and he will come.
I was looking in the mirror one morning, and I noticed all my battle scars(stretch marks, for the childless ones..lol) and I jus accepted the fact that no, Im not a size 10, and no, my stomach will never again be flat...at least without the miracle ofa tummy tuck, and no, my boobs are not DD....but hey, I'm still sexy as hell. I have long, wavy hair(well, when i take the time to do it) and a beautiful smile, and bright brown eyes, and a curvy phisyque. When I walk, all eyes are on me. Niggas in cars will stop and stare, and girls will turn up their noses.
I will command the respect that I deserve. No, I am not just a nice piece of ass, No, Im not a porn star. But I am a beautiful woman, who knows what she is worth. So what if I like sex? Shit, it feels great...lol!!! That dont mean thats all Ima give you, jus cuz you SAY you got good dick.
Right now, Im nothing more than a glorified teenager...I'm in school, with no job, still living at home with my mom...But ya kno,Im not gonna stay here. I will achieve more.
And because I kno that one day, I will be more, I am the best thing walking. Does that make me cocky? No, that makes me confident. and in my confidence, I will walk taller, and smile more, and hold my head up higher, and speak up louder, and not allow anyone, no matter how big or small knock me off my game. Cuz hey, how can you love me, if I dont love myself? How can you respect me, unless I command that respect? and if you're not confident enough in yourself to stand by me, and acknowledge my greatness, then theres nothing here for you.
THe guy I was carryin out the plan wit kept bitchin up. Not that I couldnt do it on my own, i just find it more fun to cause mischief and chaos with others.....but he did come around, and carried out his end of the plan. Which I'm very thankful for, by the way.
The plan has ended. ITs over. People are pissed the hell of too!!! THink I care? Hell muthafuckin no. Ya see, I never pick on anyone under me. If I think you're worse off than me, then im not gonna say it. I hate pickin on the underdog. I also dont lie about me or my intentions. Ima do me, regardless of what you think about it, cuz at the end of the day, shit, thats all I kno how to be.
Well, said pissed off people are upset at the guy. He continues to say "well, i didnt wanna do it anyways, now people are gonna be mad at me." OKAY?!?!?? let them be mad, cuz if you was so worried about them bein mad, then honestly, you woulda be strong enough to fend me off when i was convincin ur ass to do it in the first place.
I was havin a coversation with another guy. Ya kno, Im a very beautiful, intelligent, lovable person. Who's also cynical, and diabolical, and cold-hearted, and jus plain mean. Yeah, I say the first thing that comes to mind. I like hurting niggas feelings, I like being mean. I hate fake people,I hate lies, I hate niggas usin others as steppin stones. Ok, true, but still, Im me.
I love chaos, I love trouble. Yes, I am the biggest trouble maker I kno...lol.
But underneath all that cynicalness, I still wanna be loved for me. I still like hugs and kisses, and sweet nothings, and being spoiled. SHit, my biggest fantasy, to date, is to lay in the bed, reading poetry(handwritten of cource) eating strawberries, and cuddling.
Guess what tho? I have 2 kids, by 2 different fathers...think that bothers me. hell no!! kno why? cuz I'm better than that. my kids are my pride and joy. I love them more than life itself. I'll die jus so they can have their hearts desire. and there is a man out there that will love my kids as much as I do, despite the fact that they're not his...biologically. All i hafta do is be patient and he will come.
I was looking in the mirror one morning, and I noticed all my battle scars(stretch marks, for the childless ones..lol) and I jus accepted the fact that no, Im not a size 10, and no, my stomach will never again be flat...at least without the miracle ofa tummy tuck, and no, my boobs are not DD....but hey, I'm still sexy as hell. I have long, wavy hair(well, when i take the time to do it) and a beautiful smile, and bright brown eyes, and a curvy phisyque. When I walk, all eyes are on me. Niggas in cars will stop and stare, and girls will turn up their noses.
I will command the respect that I deserve. No, I am not just a nice piece of ass, No, Im not a porn star. But I am a beautiful woman, who knows what she is worth. So what if I like sex? Shit, it feels great...lol!!! That dont mean thats all Ima give you, jus cuz you SAY you got good dick.
Right now, Im nothing more than a glorified teenager...I'm in school, with no job, still living at home with my mom...But ya kno,Im not gonna stay here. I will achieve more.
And because I kno that one day, I will be more, I am the best thing walking. Does that make me cocky? No, that makes me confident. and in my confidence, I will walk taller, and smile more, and hold my head up higher, and speak up louder, and not allow anyone, no matter how big or small knock me off my game. Cuz hey, how can you love me, if I dont love myself? How can you respect me, unless I command that respect? and if you're not confident enough in yourself to stand by me, and acknowledge my greatness, then theres nothing here for you.