Feb 28, 2004 11:40
i’ve been thinking lately about relationships-not the deeply-rooted ones that are as constant as the pull of tides but those that are ephemeral and apt to fade like poor cell phone reception. the main difference with people i’ve fallen out of touch with is that my recollection of their lives end with when i last saw them; the events since then are patched together with guesswork and gossip.
most often, these people remain frozen in time.
my favorite high school teacher’s wife recently suffered a heart attack. i am suddenly 15-years old again now with the burden of omniscience, a spectator trapped in a scene that i can foretell but not prevent. i see his pictures and note how beautiful and athletic she is, the way he adores her. the future will bring them two daughters.
i morph into a caped crusader to battle the inescapable course of fate. time travel gives me a voice, a body; instead of watching, i can now relive. yet what good is a warning that only clouds the period before tragedy?
so i do nothing...and today stains the years between then and now with sorrow.