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i am just now learning how many people expect me to be perfect.
these past weeks ahve put a TON of pressure on me. and i've realized that under pressure, i either thrive or crash and burn.
i've also learned that i am subconsciously cocky and i hate myslef for that.
but even if i have had 4-5 nervous breakdowns in the past 2 weeks, i feel better knowing that people do think highly of me. that feeling beats all the yelling, let downs, failures, and rejections i've dealt with.
and for once i'm smiling.
these past weeks ahve put a TON of pressure on me. and i've realized that under pressure, i either thrive or crash and burn.
i've also learned that i am subconsciously cocky and i hate myslef for that.
but even if i have had 4-5 nervous breakdowns in the past 2 weeks, i feel better knowing that people do think highly of me. that feeling beats all the yelling, let downs, failures, and rejections i've dealt with.
and for once i'm smiling.