in your eyes I see a darkness that torments you and in your head where it dwells
You know how you mean to write for days but don't because every time you actually get around to it, you can't remember what you wanted to say, or you don't feel like collecting your thoughts anymore, or you are soo tired and it doesn't seem important anymore?
That has been me for the last... age.
And right in this moment I am so incredibly tired, and I have to get up at a decent hour of the morning, but my iPod needs charging and sometimes best thoughts come out when you're kind of out of it and are just saying things - things you really mean and such.
I got a job.
I like the job pretty well, and it pays way better than I ever expected in a first real part time job... but I do so hate working already and I've only been at it two days. I guess I just don't look forward to going somewhere where I'm out of place and I don't know what I'm doing and don't really fit.
But at the same time the people are really nice and it pays well and the scheduling seems perfect for what I wanted and needed. And more or less the job pretty much seemed to fall right into my lap so I'm not complaining. I needed a job and it feels good to say that I have actually been doing something of consequence.
I think I need to rearrange my classes though.
I signed up for the english I would probably be in, but I think my AP and SAT scores... maybe even ACT I don't know should test me right through it. Oh and then, I might not need to take the Western Civ. history class I had signed up for if my U.S. History AP score will cover that requirement for history.
The thing I don't like about college is I really don't know what I'm doing.
And in college you need vision.
But I work in Student Services at the college now so I am right in on getting help in figuring that all out, which is another great thing about my new job.
I wish I could wear whatever I wanted.
You know, lying on your stomach is really uncomfortable. Or at least it gets that way after about two minutes.
Today I watched two movies that I have been borrowing from some friends for about a month. I still have two yet to watch from them... I will do that tomorrow and Tuesday night.
This is what I hate about my friends being gone. I had no weekend plans whatsoever except for Hawk Nelson and AudioA more or less with my family.
I don't know, it's not that I don't like my family, we tend to get along. I mean, they can annoy the crap out of me, but that's life. It just seems like I like being with my friends better. Like, when I'm with my family, I am a little myself, but I am more who they make me out to be. And when I am with other people I am whoever I choose to be. And I really like that.
Anyway, I watched the special features on two movies tonight and it took like two hours! On A Series of Unfortunate Events in special features they have a ton of video of Jim Carrey improving. It's actually pretty cool. I like what he came up with. A lot of it was in the movie. I really don't like him in general, in most of the other roles I've seen him in, so that was pretty cool.
We are reading The Purpose Driven Life for my Bible study. We haven't gotten very far, but I really like what I've read.
I have a lot of borrowed books to read.
Huh. Read borrowed books and watch borrowed movies. But movies first!
And then on to the books. :)
That has been me for the last... age.
And right in this moment I am so incredibly tired, and I have to get up at a decent hour of the morning, but my iPod needs charging and sometimes best thoughts come out when you're kind of out of it and are just saying things - things you really mean and such.
I got a job.
I like the job pretty well, and it pays way better than I ever expected in a first real part time job... but I do so hate working already and I've only been at it two days. I guess I just don't look forward to going somewhere where I'm out of place and I don't know what I'm doing and don't really fit.
But at the same time the people are really nice and it pays well and the scheduling seems perfect for what I wanted and needed. And more or less the job pretty much seemed to fall right into my lap so I'm not complaining. I needed a job and it feels good to say that I have actually been doing something of consequence.
I think I need to rearrange my classes though.
I signed up for the english I would probably be in, but I think my AP and SAT scores... maybe even ACT I don't know should test me right through it. Oh and then, I might not need to take the Western Civ. history class I had signed up for if my U.S. History AP score will cover that requirement for history.
The thing I don't like about college is I really don't know what I'm doing.
And in college you need vision.
But I work in Student Services at the college now so I am right in on getting help in figuring that all out, which is another great thing about my new job.
I wish I could wear whatever I wanted.
You know, lying on your stomach is really uncomfortable. Or at least it gets that way after about two minutes.
Today I watched two movies that I have been borrowing from some friends for about a month. I still have two yet to watch from them... I will do that tomorrow and Tuesday night.
This is what I hate about my friends being gone. I had no weekend plans whatsoever except for Hawk Nelson and AudioA more or less with my family.
I don't know, it's not that I don't like my family, we tend to get along. I mean, they can annoy the crap out of me, but that's life. It just seems like I like being with my friends better. Like, when I'm with my family, I am a little myself, but I am more who they make me out to be. And when I am with other people I am whoever I choose to be. And I really like that.
Anyway, I watched the special features on two movies tonight and it took like two hours! On A Series of Unfortunate Events in special features they have a ton of video of Jim Carrey improving. It's actually pretty cool. I like what he came up with. A lot of it was in the movie. I really don't like him in general, in most of the other roles I've seen him in, so that was pretty cool.
We are reading The Purpose Driven Life for my Bible study. We haven't gotten very far, but I really like what I've read.
I have a lot of borrowed books to read.
Huh. Read borrowed books and watch borrowed movies. But movies first!
And then on to the books. :)