this is where my heart it longs to be
I actually intended to post this last night, but the internet died while I was doing homework. Fortunately I was able to save my post.
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Something I've been thinking about a lot lately, well, I read this book called The Joy Luck Club, which is basically about cultural and generational gaps. Great book. I really really liked it. I had no idea it was a movie so if you've seen that, then cool. But anyway, in one small part of this book it mentioned that a mother/daughter pair was traveling and they were both silent 'thinking their own thoughts.' I have not been able to stop thinking about it. Seriously, people walk around so wrapped up in themselves they don't even notice what's going on around them. I know this is true because I do it, and even when I'm thinking about that I do it.
At the same time, whenever I used to be sitting in silence I always used to think about how a lot of people find it uncomfortable when no one is talking but I have always felt that you make it uncomfortable by choosing to make it so. And then I've been thinking about how silence is a sign of solitude and just looking at things in my own life, how I separate myself from people and choose not to initiate any activities because I know that just by waiting for them to come to me I will have a full weekend as it is. But my solitude is also a sign of my responsibility because I haven't taken it to pity myself, I've taken it to get the things done that I need to get done.
In other news, tonight at Youth we talked about things we want God to do in our lives, and things we want to do for God.
And I want to see God, like, that my actions won't be reflective of the good/not good day I'm having and will always be a reflection of Christ and who He is and who I am in Him. Like if I'm having a bad day I don't want to be a jerk or rude or snappy or short to people I know but just love on them. Which brings me to what I want to do for God. I just want to show them Gods love by loving on them. I mean seriously, I don't hate anyone, but I don't think I do a very good job of showing it. So here's a shoutout to anyone reading this: I love you! <3
Something I was just thinking as I wrote this - besides the fact that I had to use my something as my buffer word - I can go through life thinking about the things that are influencing me and being conscious of why I said something and what it means to me and what it does or doesn't mean to someone else.
But yeah. (Another buffer phrase). I have been getting like five hours of sleep all week and I'm exhausted now as I speak and my internet actually went out so I won't be posting this until tomorrow or Friday, but I need me some sleep. That's one reason I'm cranky.
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Something I've been thinking about a lot lately, well, I read this book called The Joy Luck Club, which is basically about cultural and generational gaps. Great book. I really really liked it. I had no idea it was a movie so if you've seen that, then cool. But anyway, in one small part of this book it mentioned that a mother/daughter pair was traveling and they were both silent 'thinking their own thoughts.' I have not been able to stop thinking about it. Seriously, people walk around so wrapped up in themselves they don't even notice what's going on around them. I know this is true because I do it, and even when I'm thinking about that I do it.
At the same time, whenever I used to be sitting in silence I always used to think about how a lot of people find it uncomfortable when no one is talking but I have always felt that you make it uncomfortable by choosing to make it so. And then I've been thinking about how silence is a sign of solitude and just looking at things in my own life, how I separate myself from people and choose not to initiate any activities because I know that just by waiting for them to come to me I will have a full weekend as it is. But my solitude is also a sign of my responsibility because I haven't taken it to pity myself, I've taken it to get the things done that I need to get done.
In other news, tonight at Youth we talked about things we want God to do in our lives, and things we want to do for God.
And I want to see God, like, that my actions won't be reflective of the good/not good day I'm having and will always be a reflection of Christ and who He is and who I am in Him. Like if I'm having a bad day I don't want to be a jerk or rude or snappy or short to people I know but just love on them. Which brings me to what I want to do for God. I just want to show them Gods love by loving on them. I mean seriously, I don't hate anyone, but I don't think I do a very good job of showing it. So here's a shoutout to anyone reading this: I love you! <3
Something I was just thinking as I wrote this - besides the fact that I had to use my something as my buffer word - I can go through life thinking about the things that are influencing me and being conscious of why I said something and what it means to me and what it does or doesn't mean to someone else.
But yeah. (Another buffer phrase). I have been getting like five hours of sleep all week and I'm exhausted now as I speak and my internet actually went out so I won't be posting this until tomorrow or Friday, but I need me some sleep. That's one reason I'm cranky.