falling into memories of you, memories of you, and things we used to do

[jcfreak01]

I find that I can't get up in the mornings
even when my alarm is set for an hour before I need to
And I am tired by four in the afternoon
I know it's the weather
but sometimes I wonder if it's just me

I feel like I'm in a rut
and I don't see a way out
so I think I just need to accept it
easier said than done right

I wonder about things
that don't really matter
it's like, you get your hopes up, and down, and up again
for no reason at all

I was supposed to see Narnia tonight
I don't know when I'll get to at all now, unless someone could go with me Thursday night

it's been in the 40's here all week
there used to be this berm in front of where I parked my car at school, about two and a half feet deep that I had to walk through
there's like an inch now, in some places

people are more frustrating than you could imagine at times
but at the same time
I wish I could sometimes go back to the way things were before things changed
but it's too hard to pinpoint the exact moment
sometimes I feel like I didn't start growing up until far later than most people
like for ages I just was, a zombie of my mothers wish
and now I have my own will, but it's so hard to enact it