He is in control.. right?
yesterday, I was in Spanish with this girl who I am pretty good friends with, or have been in the past,
and we were talking about college, or rather she asked me, because our other senior Spanish buddy was off on a college trip
"so Kristina, have you decided where you're going to college yet?"
me: *shrug*
"Kristina!? Why doesn't this consume you?!"
me: "uhm, well, I dunno. I'm not really worried about it, I mean, yeah I wonder, but when it's time for me to know, then I'll know."
and I was kinda just thinking, you know, God has got it in control, it will be okay.
But then today, our friend came back from her trip, and we had long discussions about college and the benefits and stuff. And now I'm just more confused. I have this scholarship to any Alaska University, but it's not reaaally that much, and I don't really want to stay in Alaska. It just seems like such a personal let down. There is a college in Pennsylvania that I think I like, and it's really cheap, but I don't have a scholarship there (at this point).
But I could maybe use my UA thing to do foreign exchange, which I've always wanted to do in college, or maybe I could transfer from UA somewhere. But there are really only three I would ever consider and Mat-Su is like 10 minutes from my house so I could never go there for college and there is no way I want to live in Fairbanks, and now really, the only thing that I would have had, Jade, isn't even going to be at UAA anyway. So it would be like, what's the point?
I really want to know what my friends from youth group are going to do this next year although all of them are already graduated and a year older than me, I just think we're getting to that point together. But I never really talk to any of them except youth group which is only once a week, and like I've always said, a lot happens in a week.
But now our power is flucuating so I will post this before it dies, even if there might be more around there waiting to surface.
and we were talking about college, or rather she asked me, because our other senior Spanish buddy was off on a college trip
"so Kristina, have you decided where you're going to college yet?"
me: *shrug*
"Kristina!? Why doesn't this consume you?!"
me: "uhm, well, I dunno. I'm not really worried about it, I mean, yeah I wonder, but when it's time for me to know, then I'll know."
and I was kinda just thinking, you know, God has got it in control, it will be okay.
But then today, our friend came back from her trip, and we had long discussions about college and the benefits and stuff. And now I'm just more confused. I have this scholarship to any Alaska University, but it's not reaaally that much, and I don't really want to stay in Alaska. It just seems like such a personal let down. There is a college in Pennsylvania that I think I like, and it's really cheap, but I don't have a scholarship there (at this point).
But I could maybe use my UA thing to do foreign exchange, which I've always wanted to do in college, or maybe I could transfer from UA somewhere. But there are really only three I would ever consider and Mat-Su is like 10 minutes from my house so I could never go there for college and there is no way I want to live in Fairbanks, and now really, the only thing that I would have had, Jade, isn't even going to be at UAA anyway. So it would be like, what's the point?
I really want to know what my friends from youth group are going to do this next year although all of them are already graduated and a year older than me, I just think we're getting to that point together. But I never really talk to any of them except youth group which is only once a week, and like I've always said, a lot happens in a week.
But now our power is flucuating so I will post this before it dies, even if there might be more around there waiting to surface.