May 04, 2005 16:27
Well at this point, i am very
very very stressed out. Words could not describe it. Turns
out that i failed my math test, but actually i did worse than
failing...i got a 41%...how is that? how could i do that bad? I dunno,
but i also know that even with test corrections (which i had no idea
how to correct them) its still going to be a bad grade...which is going
to drop my grade to either a C+ or a C, i have no idea.
Lets see what else...oh
yeah. Ok so my parents decide to switch insurance companies, and
guess what, thanks to that switch i am not paying 20 more dollars a
month for insurance, add that on to like 30 dollars of gas every week
and a half...im getting like financially stressed. I dont have
enough money to help pay for my mom's mothers day present, or for
gas...and argh...im just going insane. Ill find a way though, there has
got to be a way. Ill see if i can work for my dad for a day or so
and make about 35-40 dollars. That would help.
Some other stuff...i guess i
wish i was popular. I know what popularity is described as and
what makes you popular in our school now. Mostly the people who
are popular are the type of people that screw around for attention and
make fools of themselves or are disrespectful to teachers in front of
the class in order to get some laughs. There are a few exceptions
however. I dunno i just sorta wish i was. I guess i am that
sort of silent popularity. I mean people say hi to me every now
and then, mostly everyone in our class as well as a lot of sophomores
and seniors know me too. I just i dont know...i wish i was
invited to parties and all that good stuff you know? someone who people
will come to for advice or just to like confide in...that would be
great...but yeah i dunno. Senior year is coming around, and if i
dont establish myself...i never will get to in High School again, and
when graduation rolls around, i will find out what i missed, and will
regret it.
I think its time to step out of my comfort zone.
~Keith