Thinking
It's official, Im now about 20lbs over my ideal body weight for my height! Its so discouraging. I have a gut now and I really hate it. I used to work out everyday and run 6 miles. I had a flat stomach and was cute. Now Im chubby and unattractive. Its funny how your lifestyle can change so fast and how it affects what you think about yourself. If I only knew what I had when I had it, I would have used it to my advantage, but instead I never thought I was that cute. I let boys take advantage of me and use me because I thought that I would never be able to get anything better. Hindsight is always 20/20. Now as I get older, I realize that I had my looks when I first started to college and I should have used them then. I have a great personality too, but it seems that looks are what initially attracts the person and its hard to find someone without that initial attraction. Anyway, at least I've got wisdom and experience on my side.