other people's dreams
my three baby teeth came out after i got into the hotel i thought i couldn't get into which had made me cry
in paris where i had been to a boring bar called 'the institute' where i had just an awful time.
i came over on a boat from new york where i'd taken a cab from the hotel in new jersey
where i'd snuck in and upstairs to see the view when i was so upset and crying.
i told the cabby about the late night van service they were running in new jersey
which they're not that's in chicago
because he thought i was a jerk i assumed since i was from the hotel.
this wasn't really jersey city mind you since my kitchen was our kitchen in ireland
where i'd been talking shit about my friends to my cousin who was just back from college
where he'd bought some pot which is probably why i was talking shit with him.
i felt like a hypocrite talking like that and then i realized andrew was sitting right there
smiling vaguely and maliciously at me though he didn't really mind.
i believe i also described granya to zoe by saying she looked like me in that kitchen.
i really wanted to jump out of that hotel i was so sad so it's a good thing they had that taxi stand
complimentary for guests in the hall so that i was compelled to at least keep up appearances.