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I havent wanted to update recently but right now i just need to vent, you probly wont have any interest in reading this but i need to let everything out here..
So it all began on saturday wehn he dumped me. I cried a little, which was weird based on previous events, and then i just had no motivation to do anything it was a shock. Then i turned the radio on and her one song and cried again then i stopped. Went like that for a day or two and finally i was like know what im better with out him, then after an hour of that i realized i missed him not in a bf way but as my friend,as someone to talk too. Its killing me, and i dont think anyone notices/cares and im fine witht hat because honestly i dont want pity and i dont wanna cry about it to anyone, i need to deal with it myself so i have been. Until i saw him today, thats when i had an emotional break down. First time i'd seen him since and he barely even looked at me, i just cant take it. I wanted to run and give him a hug. I miss him more then i've ever missed anyone, well in that way it sucks. He wasnt the best bf no, but a friend he could have been a great one and even tho he says he wants to be, thats not gonna happen it just doesnt.I cant fix it, i cant IM him, i cant sit with him at the farm, i cant see him after school, i cant do so much that i want too. I guess i've learned not to trust too much ever, you just get hurt...
on a happier note proms tomorrow..should be fun :)
So it all began on saturday wehn he dumped me. I cried a little, which was weird based on previous events, and then i just had no motivation to do anything it was a shock. Then i turned the radio on and her one song and cried again then i stopped. Went like that for a day or two and finally i was like know what im better with out him, then after an hour of that i realized i missed him not in a bf way but as my friend,as someone to talk too. Its killing me, and i dont think anyone notices/cares and im fine witht hat because honestly i dont want pity and i dont wanna cry about it to anyone, i need to deal with it myself so i have been. Until i saw him today, thats when i had an emotional break down. First time i'd seen him since and he barely even looked at me, i just cant take it. I wanted to run and give him a hug. I miss him more then i've ever missed anyone, well in that way it sucks. He wasnt the best bf no, but a friend he could have been a great one and even tho he says he wants to be, thats not gonna happen it just doesnt.I cant fix it, i cant IM him, i cant sit with him at the farm, i cant see him after school, i cant do so much that i want too. I guess i've learned not to trust too much ever, you just get hurt...
on a happier note proms tomorrow..should be fun :)