Societal Constructs
The clearest I have ever been is driving with my windows down, with a cigar in my hand, with a coffee in the cup holder, with the warm summer air messing my hair, with the seat just the way I like it, with the traffic moving steadily, with the music blasting away just below where it hurts my ears, with the euphoria of having to be nowhere, of in that moment owning nothing but the space my car takes up on the road, of knowing, that sometimes, if I let things go, if I stop worrying, if i stop obsessing, that things will feel as though they are alright for once. I would live in that moment forever if I didn't know that the feeling would eventually get old. Part of what makes those moments so absolutely fantastic is the infrequency of them. All things loose their value if you abuse them. Even the most powerful drug looses it's kick and forces you to chase after it. What a hell to live in. I couldn't imagine a better torture than that of diminishing returns. FUCK. It doesn't matter if i find love. It is a societal construct. Happiness? A societal construct. Marriage? A societal construct. I don't know for what purpose these ideals were developed and it doesn't matter, they are here to stay. Understanding their origins does not change anything.
Marraige. is what you do when you decide it's time to grow up. It doesn't make you any happier, in fact, it only adds to the chances of unhappiness. I feel we would be better of with out these social constructs, but what do I know on the subject.
Happiness. is what you are feeling when you are not sad. What you think are your truly happy moments are only dopamine hits that are impossible to sustain.
Love. is what everyone strives for, but no one understands.
Tired. I drink three or four cups of coffee a day and I still constantly feel exhausted.
Marraige. is what you do when you decide it's time to grow up. It doesn't make you any happier, in fact, it only adds to the chances of unhappiness. I feel we would be better of with out these social constructs, but what do I know on the subject.
Happiness. is what you are feeling when you are not sad. What you think are your truly happy moments are only dopamine hits that are impossible to sustain.
Love. is what everyone strives for, but no one understands.
Tired. I drink three or four cups of coffee a day and I still constantly feel exhausted.