Vent
Gotta be quick.. I'm going to the midnight showing of 28 weeks later.. I'm a zombie addict.. I can't wait to go dressed up in my most comfortable I-dont-give-a-shit clothes with popcorn, candy and soda.. god do I need it.
This week has been sheer insanity.. job hunting.. running here.. running there.. miami-dade... bcc.. interviews etc.. oh yea and rent is due /-:
After which I'll have almost no money.. I hope I get this job at the hardrock.. 12 bucks a hour would be amazing right now.. So this big decision thats weighing on me now is deciding where I want to go to school?? Full sail is this supposedly amazing school in Orlando, only problem is.. Its 100,000 dollars!! wtf .. where the hell can I get that kind of money?? Yea loans, but I dont want to be paying for school the rest of my life! Its seems like a good choice for me right now, but should I be patient and finish my two years here? .. Staying here any longer disappoints me.. I mean what do I have left here that matters? Friends yea.. but Phillpe the only person I can't stand to leave behind is moving to New york possibly.. so what then? Victor and Dave too.. Man thinking about not being within driving distance of them , causes a empty feeling.. I'm so dependant on everyone in my life in a emotional way.. I'm scared shitless of being alone, when before it was what I preferred. I dont know extactly how or when that changed.. Wish I could go back to being a nerd and writing all day.. but I know that will never happen.. I'm gonna chill out for a bit, I got 3 months to think things through.. maybe more.. I just hope whatever I decided its the right choice..
Someone send me a sign
This week has been sheer insanity.. job hunting.. running here.. running there.. miami-dade... bcc.. interviews etc.. oh yea and rent is due /-:
After which I'll have almost no money.. I hope I get this job at the hardrock.. 12 bucks a hour would be amazing right now.. So this big decision thats weighing on me now is deciding where I want to go to school?? Full sail is this supposedly amazing school in Orlando, only problem is.. Its 100,000 dollars!! wtf .. where the hell can I get that kind of money?? Yea loans, but I dont want to be paying for school the rest of my life! Its seems like a good choice for me right now, but should I be patient and finish my two years here? .. Staying here any longer disappoints me.. I mean what do I have left here that matters? Friends yea.. but Phillpe the only person I can't stand to leave behind is moving to New york possibly.. so what then? Victor and Dave too.. Man thinking about not being within driving distance of them , causes a empty feeling.. I'm so dependant on everyone in my life in a emotional way.. I'm scared shitless of being alone, when before it was what I preferred. I dont know extactly how or when that changed.. Wish I could go back to being a nerd and writing all day.. but I know that will never happen.. I'm gonna chill out for a bit, I got 3 months to think things through.. maybe more.. I just hope whatever I decided its the right choice..
Someone send me a sign