Out with the old. In with the new. Or in with the out?
Whoa its been a loong time since I've visited this site, I remember a few years ago.. I was on here more then myspace. I think it would take twenty-something pages to update, so I'll spare the keyboard. Its cool some people still write on here, gives you a good idea how everyone is doing or whats going on in their life, if you havent spoken or seen them in awhile.
I think the last time I updated I was living in sobe?? that whole six months of my life is a blur. I think I needed it though, I still didnt sarcifice my morals for the most part while I was there. I learned alot though about people, about relationships, friends and so on. It just took a while for me to put what I learned into motion, which is what I'm doing now (-:
I'm a little nervous about the future but today I FINALLY got all the shit I needed to get done so I can start college in January! I'm so proud of myself, its such a good feeling.. Now if only I can find a job.. well a job I really want to do. I wish I wasnt so picky!
Its been a odd two weeks so far, I pretty much have chilled with going out, I just keep to myself these days, been feeling kinda anti-social, just been doing my own thing being a selfish bitch for lack of a better term. Its okay though, I needed to distance myself for a bit just so i can figure stuff out, which I did. And now I'm feeling great. I let go of some past resentments which we're still weighing on me heavily, I got a big smack in the face about how I'm not over somethings, about a week ago. I think that had a lot to do with the social freakout. For once though I asked myself why I still felt that way and dealt with it. Now I'm officially resentmentless, and I'm not "south beach" anymore. I'm "Jess" again.
I'm not scared of what I used to be scared of before.
humm what else is there to say..
my boyfriend is amazing. I lucked out for once.
my real friends are amazing, they understand me
and thats why I love them.
and they know who they are
lots and lots of love.
oh and I cut my hair off
looking at pics of my old hair makes me sad!
i want it back!