Can't Sleep

[jc_chasez_rp]

I came to a decision tonight that's probably the hardest one I'll ever make in my life. I don't know how people are going to react to it but I... I just can't do it anymore. I can't keep going around in circles, dealing with the same heartache and sadness that I've been keeping bottled up while pretending that everything's ok when it's really not. I'm finally pointing out the big green monkey sitting in the corner but now that I have what happens next, especially when nobody cares about the monkey or me?

I used to wonder what's beyond love but now I think I know. There's nothing beyond love because it's the greatest single entity in the world. Once you reach the level of love you can only go downhill, back to where I'm falling now. The love's still there and that will never change no matter what... I'm just starting to wonder if love is enough.

I'm sorry...