*sigh*
I normally don't ask for things like this but does anybody have a hug to spare?
Every time I start to get a little bit of happiness in my life I immediately begin to worry because with the track record that I have I know that it's not bound to last for long. Now normally I don't consider myself a negative person but just like with everybody else I have my good and bad moments. Right now things are getting bad again and I wish like hell I could stop that from happening.
I had to do something tonight that I really didn't want to do but in the end I know it had to be done. I can't handle any more negativity in my life and something that's been eating away at me came full circle tonight. I don't want to be mean, I don't want to hurt anybody's feeling, and I don't want to be a "bitch" for lack of a better word but there are times when I just have to say what's on my mind. Some things are just too big to hold in and by holding it in my problem slowly ate away at me until I couldn't stand it anymore.
*sighs deeply*
Again I ask, anybody have a hug to spare? I could really use one right now...
*looks at my darkened YM list and sighs deeply once more before heading off to bed alone*
Every time I start to get a little bit of happiness in my life I immediately begin to worry because with the track record that I have I know that it's not bound to last for long. Now normally I don't consider myself a negative person but just like with everybody else I have my good and bad moments. Right now things are getting bad again and I wish like hell I could stop that from happening.
I had to do something tonight that I really didn't want to do but in the end I know it had to be done. I can't handle any more negativity in my life and something that's been eating away at me came full circle tonight. I don't want to be mean, I don't want to hurt anybody's feeling, and I don't want to be a "bitch" for lack of a better word but there are times when I just have to say what's on my mind. Some things are just too big to hold in and by holding it in my problem slowly ate away at me until I couldn't stand it anymore.
*sighs deeply*
Again I ask, anybody have a hug to spare? I could really use one right now...
*looks at my darkened YM list and sighs deeply once more before heading off to bed alone*