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u kno im going to hate this soon i already hate it i love him and hes just never going to really be mine i kno it. but it kinda is idk a relief to not be waiting for him to call and tell me to come over. i hate feeling that way bc all i want is to see him but me not driving the car keeps me out of jail and trouble. but clearly id risk it like i always do. idk what to feel i really want to drink drink drink but if i do that i wont lose weight and bumb that shit im losing weight im going to look damn good and make him realize what hes lost and i say that in since that he lost me as it is and then at the point ill be a bombshell... lol bc thats my goal and i got untill feb... and i really cant wait to look good... im going to be tatted it like a mofo... wish that i could tell myself if ive toned up or whatever. ahhhh im honestly hoping that he comes around like what has happened before bc i cant do this like for real this cant be happening... fucking karma im telling u. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i dont want to cry but ik i will...