Well Its been an alright day.

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Ive relaxed enjoying the whole day with Renny. I still am a lil bit confused as to why Rennys middle name is JADE? At the hospital Kim actually thought of the name Serenity for our baby and I agreed that it was real REAL good name. I mean it goes with the Serenity Prayer!(her birth and her name alone keeps me sober) Her name also symbolizes Kim her mother and Kims father. S.Taylor/S.Taylor/K.Taylor(SERENITY) the T-goes for T(imoth)Y. I thinks its the best name ever to be and my daughter has it!! But the middle name I thought was alright at the hospital because it to me symbolizes a nickname among others that she using bout a year ago until 1999 or earlier. But early after Renny was born kim was gonna be living at home with her mom and comute as I was back and forth from house to apartment so that maybe to the 2 of us were gonna be able to have are bareings together and become a family like we(or I was wanting it to be). Anyways maybe the third or forth weekend after renny was born Kim was sposta be headed towards me when work was over but that didnt happen. She never told me at all that she was coming I hear monday after all crazy wanting our baby that monday I hear kim she didnt come because she went to a concert w/somebody that kim never really went with. She went with an exboyfriend to the concert name Neel AKA(neel_jadeja) thats his computer/nickname alias....Now Im left to think that theres the possiblity that our daughter is carrying the name from some guy that Kim yoosta be involved with. Where does this level me with her?....Am I that NON-IMPORTANT that she name our daughter(my own flesh and blood) after another guy?....or is he that important by her standards that hes worth to her more than me to name our daughter after him when she isnt even neels blood? Am I her father in Kims eyes?.....I never quiestion wether Im her father(I KNOW IM HER FATHER) but does she think hes better as a father or more loving or what?(WTF IS GOING ON?)

Ill definately SAY PREYERS OVER THIS CHAPTER 2 TONIGHT!!