The lesson is....ya can't make everyone happy. XD
Alright, so I read my first yaoi sometime ago and had been meaning to write an entry for it. Being that I'm in the writing mood after months of being uninspired, I figure, why not?
The verdict is in:
I can't get into it.
LOL, I swear I can't! and it featured one of my favorite characters by one of my most favorite authors...and I STILL COULDN'T GET IT.
I finished reading it and was left totally unsatisfied. D: Yes...
THAT was my expression afterwards ===> D:
I mean, I didn't get the skin crawling feeling either, which would show that I'm totally and utterly disgusted by it, so I kept reading, I guess out of a morbid curiousity or something...and cuz well, all my favorite characters are gorgeous, so I thought, hey, who knows, it could be hot and its written by this author who writes AWESOMELY...and I liked the other times she's done romance...which isn't often...
But naw. Afterwards I was like...*covers face with palm* shit, man...twenty minutes of my life I'm never getting back. WTF?! I'm so disappointed...should I feel this bad for feeling disappointed? Is there something wrong with me? Why do I not like Yaoi? I mean, once I accidently came across a yuri fanfic, (didn't know there'd be yuri at the time) and that DEFINATELY grossed me out, I couldn't finish reading it. D:
Het romance, though...if it features my favorite characters, I'm all for it! Woot, I love that stuff. I finish reading it, and I'm on cloud nine! Woot! that was so hot! Thank you awesome hot writers for writing such hot and sexy stuff and making sure that it is not lame and cheesy! Wish I had the guts to pull off something like that. But I don't, so I'll read more of your hot stuff! ^o^
*weeps* but the yaoi...no! It was all wrong. I don't know if maybe its the character...or hell, even the writing...though the writing seemed solid. My "Cheesy" sense never went off while I read it. But I was like...naw, I don't see it. It feels somewhat out of character. WHich makes no sense, because...again, this author always keeps her characters in character...so I spent the majority of the time reading this thing and thinking...okay, would he really say that? would he really do that? Would that really happen...? This author's never failed me before...so...??????
*yanking hair out* In the end, I'm like...aaaagh, I DUNNO! who's to say, tis not like anime characters are ever seen being romantic...LOL. XD; So I feel bad, am I being judgemental?
But yeah. I didn't buy it.
*sighs* I mean, hey, who's to say about the legitimacy of het romance. There are characters who we will assume are straight and even then, I still can't see them as romantic at all. So in that respect, het romances about them fail too. XD;;
But then...every once in a while I'll find an author who can pull it off successfully.
*weeps* WHICH IS WHY I'M SO DISAPPOINTED! HOW COULD THIS AUTHOR NOT DO IT FOR ME!?! *sniffles* It felt so wrong! waaaaaah!! WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?! *goes off and cries in her little corner*
oy...writing is so tough. D: Glad no one's making a profit from fanfiction. XD Though there are some people out there, ya find yourself wishing you could pay them, just so they'll keep writing to entertain you. XD
*sighs and spends the rest of her time working on HER OWN fanfic and ensuring herself, that she will TRY to make everyone in character...but still...will make no promises to write something that will be to everyone's satisfaction*
Hell, my fanfic's not even about romance at all. LOL, well there will be hints I guess. But its not the focus of it.
Writing a mystery/angst fanfic is such a pain. Cuz I keep thinking...okay, ya gotta have this make sense...and not give away too many clues that'll have the reader KNOWING the answer right away. Make it INTERESTING too, that'll keep the reader coming back to check on it. And not too angsty that the readers will want to smack these characters repeatedly with a 2x4. Better yet, make the situation, not the character's inner feelings, produce the reader's sympathy. I always find myself more moved by that when I read fanfics that do that. Ya can't HELP but feel bad for the character, even if they don't say much or do much.
Then, again, why the hell should I care to move others? lol, I'm not getting paid. I'll write what I fucking want. Can't please everyone. XD
*sighs* Eh, in between writing, I'll go back to drawing my doujinshis. Those are fun. XD And probably what I should stick to. LOL! god knows, what terror my stuff will bring upon readers of fanfiction. XD
The verdict is in:
I can't get into it.
LOL, I swear I can't! and it featured one of my favorite characters by one of my most favorite authors...and I STILL COULDN'T GET IT.
I finished reading it and was left totally unsatisfied. D: Yes...
THAT was my expression afterwards ===> D:
I mean, I didn't get the skin crawling feeling either, which would show that I'm totally and utterly disgusted by it, so I kept reading, I guess out of a morbid curiousity or something...and cuz well, all my favorite characters are gorgeous, so I thought, hey, who knows, it could be hot and its written by this author who writes AWESOMELY...and I liked the other times she's done romance...which isn't often...
But naw. Afterwards I was like...*covers face with palm* shit, man...twenty minutes of my life I'm never getting back. WTF?! I'm so disappointed...should I feel this bad for feeling disappointed? Is there something wrong with me? Why do I not like Yaoi? I mean, once I accidently came across a yuri fanfic, (didn't know there'd be yuri at the time) and that DEFINATELY grossed me out, I couldn't finish reading it. D:
Het romance, though...if it features my favorite characters, I'm all for it! Woot, I love that stuff. I finish reading it, and I'm on cloud nine! Woot! that was so hot! Thank you awesome hot writers for writing such hot and sexy stuff and making sure that it is not lame and cheesy! Wish I had the guts to pull off something like that. But I don't, so I'll read more of your hot stuff! ^o^
*weeps* but the yaoi...no! It was all wrong. I don't know if maybe its the character...or hell, even the writing...though the writing seemed solid. My "Cheesy" sense never went off while I read it. But I was like...naw, I don't see it. It feels somewhat out of character. WHich makes no sense, because...again, this author always keeps her characters in character...so I spent the majority of the time reading this thing and thinking...okay, would he really say that? would he really do that? Would that really happen...? This author's never failed me before...so...??????
*yanking hair out* In the end, I'm like...aaaagh, I DUNNO! who's to say, tis not like anime characters are ever seen being romantic...LOL. XD; So I feel bad, am I being judgemental?
But yeah. I didn't buy it.
*sighs* I mean, hey, who's to say about the legitimacy of het romance. There are characters who we will assume are straight and even then, I still can't see them as romantic at all. So in that respect, het romances about them fail too. XD;;
But then...every once in a while I'll find an author who can pull it off successfully.
*weeps* WHICH IS WHY I'M SO DISAPPOINTED! HOW COULD THIS AUTHOR NOT DO IT FOR ME!?! *sniffles* It felt so wrong! waaaaaah!! WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?! *goes off and cries in her little corner*
oy...writing is so tough. D: Glad no one's making a profit from fanfiction. XD Though there are some people out there, ya find yourself wishing you could pay them, just so they'll keep writing to entertain you. XD
*sighs and spends the rest of her time working on HER OWN fanfic and ensuring herself, that she will TRY to make everyone in character...but still...will make no promises to write something that will be to everyone's satisfaction*
Hell, my fanfic's not even about romance at all. LOL, well there will be hints I guess. But its not the focus of it.
Writing a mystery/angst fanfic is such a pain. Cuz I keep thinking...okay, ya gotta have this make sense...and not give away too many clues that'll have the reader KNOWING the answer right away. Make it INTERESTING too, that'll keep the reader coming back to check on it. And not too angsty that the readers will want to smack these characters repeatedly with a 2x4. Better yet, make the situation, not the character's inner feelings, produce the reader's sympathy. I always find myself more moved by that when I read fanfics that do that. Ya can't HELP but feel bad for the character, even if they don't say much or do much.
Then, again, why the hell should I care to move others? lol, I'm not getting paid. I'll write what I fucking want. Can't please everyone. XD
*sighs* Eh, in between writing, I'll go back to drawing my doujinshis. Those are fun. XD And probably what I should stick to. LOL! god knows, what terror my stuff will bring upon readers of fanfiction. XD