there's no good reason for giving up

[jboaz]

i have decided im just going to forget about everything that bugs me. even though i seriously doubt i'll be able to just forget about it, i am going to do my best to do it. i spend too much time on everything else besides what is important. today is a new day and im going to make the best of it. yet, i still have this weird feeling like something is missing. i've had it for some time now and i can't explain it. i am hoping that getting hired as an EMT will fill that as well as helping people, because i feel useless right now. I think this is really what im looking for, i feel like i don't really make a difference and i want to feel like i do to someone, they might not know me or even thank me but atleast ill feel like i actually did something to help someone. not just helping them feed their face at souplantation. then everyone will be lucky if they see before the weekends if i get the schedule i want.

get your time in now girls and boys.

im going to the DMV today to get a printout of my driving record, then get all of my copies and stuff and go to county EMS to get my county card. After all of that is finished I will proceed to put my application in at rural metro this afternoon. wish me luck. i need to get in this company.

until next time.