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I am having a hard time.
Could have to do with the weather. Gloomy today. That tropical storm's hit (the one that made New Orleans really sink).
Could have to do with the fact that I'm not sleeping well, and really haven't all summer. When I do sleep, it's broken, and I've been waking up too early. Last night, I woke up at 2, got up at 3:30, stayed up until 5, went back to bed and had a really scary nightmare. Like something straight out of a horror movie.
I'm trying to figure a way to turn it into a story... (Random snippet; I have a character named Max who was a total Mary Sue, if Mary Sues can be evil. Anyway, Max got de-powered and put into my first published short story, and he's starring in a novel I may or may not write. Max started out as a Really Bad Nightmare too. In fact, so did most of Generation: Black Air--the first story was 50 pages, and written in one sitting 'cause I couldn't sleep).
I've had this dream at least once before, maybe twice (maybe more), and it's utterly disturbing. I wish I knew why I was having it. :P
Also, I cannot find anything I want to read. OH! except I saw Tange posted her Ric and Shatty story, so I want to read that. But at the same time I don't want to read anything, which is why I'm having a hard time finding something to read...
*sighs* I'm having a meltdown, and I've felt it coming for weeks. I know it's mostly due to stress and tired (and they cause each other), but I can't seem to sleep. Because I'm stressed. :P At least I just feel 'blah' as opposed to depressed. That's good. Maybe I need to et out of the apartment... I've been getting out, but... I dunno. Think I'll call Johnny later. I got cut from work (YAY!) so maybe I'll see if he wants to go see Fantasic Four with me. :)
J
Could have to do with the weather. Gloomy today. That tropical storm's hit (the one that made New Orleans really sink).
Could have to do with the fact that I'm not sleeping well, and really haven't all summer. When I do sleep, it's broken, and I've been waking up too early. Last night, I woke up at 2, got up at 3:30, stayed up until 5, went back to bed and had a really scary nightmare. Like something straight out of a horror movie.
I'm trying to figure a way to turn it into a story... (Random snippet; I have a character named Max who was a total Mary Sue, if Mary Sues can be evil. Anyway, Max got de-powered and put into my first published short story, and he's starring in a novel I may or may not write. Max started out as a Really Bad Nightmare too. In fact, so did most of Generation: Black Air--the first story was 50 pages, and written in one sitting 'cause I couldn't sleep).
I've had this dream at least once before, maybe twice (maybe more), and it's utterly disturbing. I wish I knew why I was having it. :P
Also, I cannot find anything I want to read. OH! except I saw Tange posted her Ric and Shatty story, so I want to read that. But at the same time I don't want to read anything, which is why I'm having a hard time finding something to read...
*sighs* I'm having a meltdown, and I've felt it coming for weeks. I know it's mostly due to stress and tired (and they cause each other), but I can't seem to sleep. Because I'm stressed. :P At least I just feel 'blah' as opposed to depressed. That's good. Maybe I need to et out of the apartment... I've been getting out, but... I dunno. Think I'll call Johnny later. I got cut from work (YAY!) so maybe I'll see if he wants to go see Fantasic Four with me. :)
J