I have been...
so irresponsible lately. I've skipped out on commitments, haven't done things that I said I would, etc. The thing is, I should feel bad about it but I just don't care. I'm a little concerned about this fact. Examples include missing my monthly ladies group meeting to game. We only meet one Tuesday a month and I'm the treasurer so it's important that I'm there if nothing else to collect the money and give the report. I've only been to one meeting in the last six months. That is ridiculous...I accepted the job as treasurer knowing I would have to miss one game a month and that is what I should do.
Yesterday, I skipped a baby shower to do something else that I wanted to do. The girl and I are not close friends, we don't even really hang out, but I was expected to be there and I wasn't. So, now I have to buy a present and give it to her with an excuse as to why I wasn't there.
I was talking to a friend about this last weekend...he's like me, we are people pleasers. We go out of our way to be nice to people and to make people feel good about themselves and to do things for others, even when it's inconvenient for us. The problem is, when you put yourself out there like that, a lot of people take advantage of you. Instead of speaking up and not allowing this to happen, I shy away from conflict and just let the person walk all over me.
I don't want to stop being nice to people and I love doing things for others...I guess I just need a break to concentrate on me. I want to do what I want...not what others want me to do. Which means saying "no" which is something I need to work on.
Saturday, I have to go to Columbus to attend a training class. I have to leave at 6:30 in the morning and will be gone all day. I should have said no...this isn't something I was required to do but I knew it would aggravate the guy in charge if I didn't go. It's been bugging me all week. I can't back out of the class because it's already been paid for. So, I decided to take Friday off and Monday is my off day which will give me a nice long weekend with two days to do nothing but what I want...which will be to play DDO and get my fighter to level five. :)
So, my plans for the week are to catch up on all pending work. Finish this claim I've had forever...catch up on laundry and finish cleaning apartment which is just my room and bathroom. I will attend my ladies meeting this Tuesday and I will have the treasurers report ready...just as soon as I find my book which I discovered was missing this morning. *sigh* I will get organized before this weekend...or drive myself crazy trying...
Yesterday, I skipped a baby shower to do something else that I wanted to do. The girl and I are not close friends, we don't even really hang out, but I was expected to be there and I wasn't. So, now I have to buy a present and give it to her with an excuse as to why I wasn't there.
I was talking to a friend about this last weekend...he's like me, we are people pleasers. We go out of our way to be nice to people and to make people feel good about themselves and to do things for others, even when it's inconvenient for us. The problem is, when you put yourself out there like that, a lot of people take advantage of you. Instead of speaking up and not allowing this to happen, I shy away from conflict and just let the person walk all over me.
I don't want to stop being nice to people and I love doing things for others...I guess I just need a break to concentrate on me. I want to do what I want...not what others want me to do. Which means saying "no" which is something I need to work on.
Saturday, I have to go to Columbus to attend a training class. I have to leave at 6:30 in the morning and will be gone all day. I should have said no...this isn't something I was required to do but I knew it would aggravate the guy in charge if I didn't go. It's been bugging me all week. I can't back out of the class because it's already been paid for. So, I decided to take Friday off and Monday is my off day which will give me a nice long weekend with two days to do nothing but what I want...which will be to play DDO and get my fighter to level five. :)
So, my plans for the week are to catch up on all pending work. Finish this claim I've had forever...catch up on laundry and finish cleaning apartment which is just my room and bathroom. I will attend my ladies meeting this Tuesday and I will have the treasurers report ready...just as soon as I find my book which I discovered was missing this morning. *sigh* I will get organized before this weekend...or drive myself crazy trying...