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I can't sleep. It's not that I'm not tired. I am tired. It's just too many things bouncing around this head of mine. Things I wish I could stop worrying about. I can stop myself from thinking about them with filler like Magic or videogames. It only works for a while, and then it's back to reality. If I were a druggie I would do drugs. If I were a drunk I would drink. But I'm neither of those things so I'm out of luck.
Within the next week I will no longer live in Cincinnati. This is my last week of work until I get back from Europe. I'm going to feel so useless.... Mentally, I'm in no position to go on this trip. Financially I'm worse off than that. I just hate this. Every small stride I make just seems to make things that much worse. I just want to give up and stop fighting. I've been fighting for so long now.
Also, I turn 25 Monday and will attempt to celebrate this tomorrow night and Sunday afternoon. You're all welcome to join in, of course. Just refrain from bringing someone I despise. Call for details. That's all I have.
Within the next week I will no longer live in Cincinnati. This is my last week of work until I get back from Europe. I'm going to feel so useless.... Mentally, I'm in no position to go on this trip. Financially I'm worse off than that. I just hate this. Every small stride I make just seems to make things that much worse. I just want to give up and stop fighting. I've been fighting for so long now.
Also, I turn 25 Monday and will attempt to celebrate this tomorrow night and Sunday afternoon. You're all welcome to join in, of course. Just refrain from bringing someone I despise. Call for details. That's all I have.