3:57am FREAKIN AM AND I CANT SLEEP

[jbarr]

i have a myspace and i cant even write this there so here i go!!!!! so, day i dont know how many of speaking with my ex (one of the D's and a Puerto Rican...2 strikes against him). anyways, the reason y he has been calling me u might ask? oh yeah cuz he is head over heels for this gurl who is like 10 yrs younger then he is, and she doesnt want anything to do with him... she found sum1 else, probably sum1 her age. anyways this is the guy that was like aww baby u know i dont have that much money, so i cant afford an engagement ring, but i can give u a promise ring til i make the money to buy u something better. ok so back to the reason he is calling me, oh yeah i dunno! what idiot calls his ex to sit there and tell them how much they want to be with another person. and when he cant sleep he calls me and talks for hours, for what? then at 2am just as i was going to bed, he text me to see what i was doing. when i responded,he kept texting so i finally called and was like what do u want? he was strugling thru a homework assignment, so rather then be a rude B**** i stayed up til 5am to help him.... so a little while ago he im's me which he did for the first time since we broke up in August to say how he wishes she would give him another chance... so my question is Y THE HECK DO I SIT THERE AND GO THRU THE CRAP. Y CANT I BE AS MEAN 2 HIM AS HE WAS to me when we broke up?
I know i did A LOT of talking to say NOTHING, but i am so frustrated with myself and him.... ugh!