It's not rainy or monday so why am I down?
I have been in the crappiest most depressed moods lately. I hate it! Ok, I'm not trying to make people feel sorry for me or complaining to get attention, I just have to get this off of my chest! Feel free to not read it.
I'm totally sick of being alone. Being single is ok...being single forever, not ok. Anyway, I'm sure everyone who is single feels this way. But lately it's been bothering me a lot more.
Ok so it's been bothering me that I'm single right? How could we make this situation worse? Enter my mother. In the past two days she has said two things to me that have made me feel even worse:
"Well, no wonder you're single" and "I think you're gonna be single for a long time"
Thanks mom. I love you too.
My family always has a way of knowing just what to say at just the right time.
Am I getting my period? Probably. But still, I'm allowed to think this way every once in a while. Hopefully it goes away soon because it's really getting to me and I already hate my life enough, I don't need to add more crap to it.
You know I'm in a bad mood if this can't even make me happy right Julienne?
Anyway I copied the 101 random facts thing from Nikki, who copied it from Tali, who probably copied it from someone else. I was really bored so here we go...
1. I will not eat broccoli under any circumstances
2. I have an obsessive personality
3. I love black and white movies
4. I have only been on two real dates in my life (it’s embarrassing to admit but oh so true)
5. I love buying used books.
6. I love going to thrift stores
7. I would rather stay up really late than get up early
8. I love night so much better than day
9. I love when it rains on Saturday mornings because then it’s still kinda dark and so much easier to sleep in.
10. I am obsessed with the Kennedy’s (especially Bobby) but I’m a republican.
11. I love babies
12. I got my permit, my license, my car, and my cell phone all within two months when I was 19.
13. I am an Apostolic Pentecostal
14. I have a freckle on my bottom lip that literally appeared out of nowhere a few months ago.
15. I have never drank or smoked and have absolutely no desire to.
16. I hate fake tans
17. I love to read but I don’t do it as much as I should
18. I want to be a stay-at-home mom
19. My goal in life is to never have a full time job
20. I often agree to do things I don’t want to do and then complain that I have to do it later.
21. I am the only one in my family with dark hair and dark eyes.
22. My favorite TV show of all time is Three’s Company
23. I’m in love with Jack Tripper (even though he is not real and John Ritter is dead)
24. I’m in love with Jimmy Stewart (even though he’s dead)
25. I’m in love with Bobby Kennedy (even though he’s dead)
26. I’m in love with Marvin Gaye (even though he’s dead)
27. I have a strange attraction to dead people apparently
28. I am fascinated by the Kennedy Assassinations (plural- JFK and RFK)
29. I love hearing people complain; it amuses me
30. I love being alone, but I hate being lonely
31. I think my best features are my hands
32. I love American Idol
33. Constantine Maroulis is my newest obsession
34. Burton Cummings and Freddie Mercury are my two favorite singers
35. The Guess Who is my favorite Band
36. Pray for the Soul of Betty is my favorite CD of the moment
37. I hate it when people ask a million questions (especially stupid pointless ones)
38. My life is ridiculously boring
39. I spent way too much time on the computer
40. I’m a huge dork
41. I hate dogs
42. I listen to music at every possible moment
43. One of my favorite things to do is drive around in my car and sing along with ridiculously loud music (and no, I can’t sing)
44. My car’s name is Jimmie
45. I get in bad moods a lot (probably because of bitterness caused by underlying issues)
46. People think I’m a jerk (and quite frequently I am)
47. I know when I’m being a jerk but I hate it when people point it out to me
48. Sometimes I say exactly what I’m thinking and sometimes I won’t
49. I HATE working
50. I hate fake people
51. I hate pretending to be happy when I’m clearly not
52. I dip my grilled cheese in ketchup
53. I only like peanut butter if accompanied by jelly
54. I especially don’t like peanut butter with chocolate
55. I love eating
56. I would consider myself a reliable person
57. I hate when people nag!!!! (aka mothers)
58. In case you can’t tell I’m in a really bad mood (this is turning into a list of things I hate LOL)
59. I love your mom jokes (they never get old)
60. I love gospel music
61. I’ve never broken a bone
62. I hate when people brag about stupid things
63. I hate being bothered when I’m in a bad mood (like right now)
64. The Emperor’s New Groove is one of the funniest movies ever
65. I could watch It’s a Wonderful Life everyday and never get sick of it
66. I hate the word: dynamic
67. I hate when people use big words to make themselves look smart
68. I hate organic/ overly healthy food
69. I don’t have any piercings or tattoos
70. I hate feet
71. I love hands
72. I waste so much money on fast food
73. I’d rather be cold than hot
74. I’m sick of people asking me what I “want to be when I grow up” Nothing… get over it
75. I’m sick of people telling me I’m too smart to do nothing…get over it
76. I cried while watching Terminator 2
77. I always play with my food when I’m done with it
78. The second I get home I put my pajamas on
79. I hate seeing people I kinda know in public
80. I could never eat a meal alone in public
81. I hate fighting/ arguing
82. I love dimples, they are so cute
83. I hate writing with blue pens
84. I love the Phantom of the Opera
85. I’ll never understand how Constantine got kicked off American Idol
86. I’m still confused about how I took a class about Ancient Greece and Rome, got an A and still know absolutely nothing about either subject. Nothing!!!
87. I’m still confused about why Dr. Caputi is allowed to teach
88. I’m afraid of being single forever
89. Puppets freak me out
90. I’m a huge procrastinator
91. I hate when people are overly proud of their nationality
92. I despise country music
93. Eye patches make me laugh (as well as scurvy…pretty much anything that has to do with pirates)
94. I’ve never seen any of the Godfather movies…deal with it
95. When I was little I wanted to be a hairdresser
96. If I could have one talent I would want to be able to sing really well
97. Two of my closest friends are over 30
98. I don’t like coffee
99. I can’t stand diet drinks, and I can tell the difference very easily
100. I’d rather stay home than go out (most of the time)
101. I’m most comfortable wearing black
I'm totally sick of being alone. Being single is ok...being single forever, not ok. Anyway, I'm sure everyone who is single feels this way. But lately it's been bothering me a lot more.
Ok so it's been bothering me that I'm single right? How could we make this situation worse? Enter my mother. In the past two days she has said two things to me that have made me feel even worse:
"Well, no wonder you're single" and "I think you're gonna be single for a long time"
Thanks mom. I love you too.
My family always has a way of knowing just what to say at just the right time.
Am I getting my period? Probably. But still, I'm allowed to think this way every once in a while. Hopefully it goes away soon because it's really getting to me and I already hate my life enough, I don't need to add more crap to it.
You know I'm in a bad mood if this can't even make me happy right Julienne?
Anyway I copied the 101 random facts thing from Nikki, who copied it from Tali, who probably copied it from someone else. I was really bored so here we go...
1. I will not eat broccoli under any circumstances
2. I have an obsessive personality
3. I love black and white movies
4. I have only been on two real dates in my life (it’s embarrassing to admit but oh so true)
5. I love buying used books.
6. I love going to thrift stores
7. I would rather stay up really late than get up early
8. I love night so much better than day
9. I love when it rains on Saturday mornings because then it’s still kinda dark and so much easier to sleep in.
10. I am obsessed with the Kennedy’s (especially Bobby) but I’m a republican.
11. I love babies
12. I got my permit, my license, my car, and my cell phone all within two months when I was 19.
13. I am an Apostolic Pentecostal
14. I have a freckle on my bottom lip that literally appeared out of nowhere a few months ago.
15. I have never drank or smoked and have absolutely no desire to.
16. I hate fake tans
17. I love to read but I don’t do it as much as I should
18. I want to be a stay-at-home mom
19. My goal in life is to never have a full time job
20. I often agree to do things I don’t want to do and then complain that I have to do it later.
21. I am the only one in my family with dark hair and dark eyes.
22. My favorite TV show of all time is Three’s Company
23. I’m in love with Jack Tripper (even though he is not real and John Ritter is dead)
24. I’m in love with Jimmy Stewart (even though he’s dead)
25. I’m in love with Bobby Kennedy (even though he’s dead)
26. I’m in love with Marvin Gaye (even though he’s dead)
27. I have a strange attraction to dead people apparently
28. I am fascinated by the Kennedy Assassinations (plural- JFK and RFK)
29. I love hearing people complain; it amuses me
30. I love being alone, but I hate being lonely
31. I think my best features are my hands
32. I love American Idol
33. Constantine Maroulis is my newest obsession
34. Burton Cummings and Freddie Mercury are my two favorite singers
35. The Guess Who is my favorite Band
36. Pray for the Soul of Betty is my favorite CD of the moment
37. I hate it when people ask a million questions (especially stupid pointless ones)
38. My life is ridiculously boring
39. I spent way too much time on the computer
40. I’m a huge dork
41. I hate dogs
42. I listen to music at every possible moment
43. One of my favorite things to do is drive around in my car and sing along with ridiculously loud music (and no, I can’t sing)
44. My car’s name is Jimmie
45. I get in bad moods a lot (probably because of bitterness caused by underlying issues)
46. People think I’m a jerk (and quite frequently I am)
47. I know when I’m being a jerk but I hate it when people point it out to me
48. Sometimes I say exactly what I’m thinking and sometimes I won’t
49. I HATE working
50. I hate fake people
51. I hate pretending to be happy when I’m clearly not
52. I dip my grilled cheese in ketchup
53. I only like peanut butter if accompanied by jelly
54. I especially don’t like peanut butter with chocolate
55. I love eating
56. I would consider myself a reliable person
57. I hate when people nag!!!! (aka mothers)
58. In case you can’t tell I’m in a really bad mood (this is turning into a list of things I hate LOL)
59. I love your mom jokes (they never get old)
60. I love gospel music
61. I’ve never broken a bone
62. I hate when people brag about stupid things
63. I hate being bothered when I’m in a bad mood (like right now)
64. The Emperor’s New Groove is one of the funniest movies ever
65. I could watch It’s a Wonderful Life everyday and never get sick of it
66. I hate the word: dynamic
67. I hate when people use big words to make themselves look smart
68. I hate organic/ overly healthy food
69. I don’t have any piercings or tattoos
70. I hate feet
71. I love hands
72. I waste so much money on fast food
73. I’d rather be cold than hot
74. I’m sick of people asking me what I “want to be when I grow up” Nothing… get over it
75. I’m sick of people telling me I’m too smart to do nothing…get over it
76. I cried while watching Terminator 2
77. I always play with my food when I’m done with it
78. The second I get home I put my pajamas on
79. I hate seeing people I kinda know in public
80. I could never eat a meal alone in public
81. I hate fighting/ arguing
82. I love dimples, they are so cute
83. I hate writing with blue pens
84. I love the Phantom of the Opera
85. I’ll never understand how Constantine got kicked off American Idol
86. I’m still confused about how I took a class about Ancient Greece and Rome, got an A and still know absolutely nothing about either subject. Nothing!!!
87. I’m still confused about why Dr. Caputi is allowed to teach
88. I’m afraid of being single forever
89. Puppets freak me out
90. I’m a huge procrastinator
91. I hate when people are overly proud of their nationality
92. I despise country music
93. Eye patches make me laugh (as well as scurvy…pretty much anything that has to do with pirates)
94. I’ve never seen any of the Godfather movies…deal with it
95. When I was little I wanted to be a hairdresser
96. If I could have one talent I would want to be able to sing really well
97. Two of my closest friends are over 30
98. I don’t like coffee
99. I can’t stand diet drinks, and I can tell the difference very easily
100. I’d rather stay home than go out (most of the time)
101. I’m most comfortable wearing black