Sometimes Life is Like a Pink Hibiscus Flower! And Sometimes Life is Like Poop.
Oh goodness!
Today was very...... odd...
I felt so strange today.
First of all, I really wanted to... I guess I'll say take some sort of... risk today. And it was seriously bothering me a whole lot. A lot more than some people might think.
And the scariest part is that it wasn't like me at all. I mean, of course I've thought about it, but today was crazy. I just KNOW that, had the opportunity presented itself, I wouldn't have even given it a second thought, which is another scary thing. And then the way I was thinking about it- it wasn't in the "normal" way it should be thought of. And if you don't know what the hell I'm talking about, I do and it's my journal, and it's probably better you don't anyway, because I'd probably creep you out uber-tons.
So that bothered me literally ALL DAY. It still does right now. I'm just trying to control it.
Then my best friend pretty much became way too overwhelmed with life and broke down at school. I tried to help him to my best ability, and I think I did, or at least, I hope I did. He seemed much better after he got it out. But I saw so much of -me living at my dad's- in him at that moment, I just didn't want to send him back to that house alone. The only difference in the situations is that I got out, but he's still stuck there.
So I went home with him, and he told me his life story. Quite a story, let me tell you. And we hung out and such, and I REALLY enjoyed hanging out with him. I am so happy when it's the Three Amigos, but I love getting some quality M+M time.
But this also made me think even more. I have so many things on my mind at this second. I am trying to figure him out from his life story, because there are so many patterns that I want to organize into something. Plus, we realized how little time is left of this school year, and it's scaring us both to death. Then, I am still thinking about the stuff from the whole day... that risk. Also, I feel like I'm losing some of my friends, and it's all my fault, but I don't know how to stop it. "Rent" is in less than a week. "She Loves Me" is coming. I have so much work. However, I am VERY happy I was accepted to FSU!!!!!
But yes. This was my very very strange day.
Today was very...... odd...
I felt so strange today.
First of all, I really wanted to... I guess I'll say take some sort of... risk today. And it was seriously bothering me a whole lot. A lot more than some people might think.
And the scariest part is that it wasn't like me at all. I mean, of course I've thought about it, but today was crazy. I just KNOW that, had the opportunity presented itself, I wouldn't have even given it a second thought, which is another scary thing. And then the way I was thinking about it- it wasn't in the "normal" way it should be thought of. And if you don't know what the hell I'm talking about, I do and it's my journal, and it's probably better you don't anyway, because I'd probably creep you out uber-tons.
So that bothered me literally ALL DAY. It still does right now. I'm just trying to control it.
Then my best friend pretty much became way too overwhelmed with life and broke down at school. I tried to help him to my best ability, and I think I did, or at least, I hope I did. He seemed much better after he got it out. But I saw so much of -me living at my dad's- in him at that moment, I just didn't want to send him back to that house alone. The only difference in the situations is that I got out, but he's still stuck there.
So I went home with him, and he told me his life story. Quite a story, let me tell you. And we hung out and such, and I REALLY enjoyed hanging out with him. I am so happy when it's the Three Amigos, but I love getting some quality M+M time.
But this also made me think even more. I have so many things on my mind at this second. I am trying to figure him out from his life story, because there are so many patterns that I want to organize into something. Plus, we realized how little time is left of this school year, and it's scaring us both to death. Then, I am still thinking about the stuff from the whole day... that risk. Also, I feel like I'm losing some of my friends, and it's all my fault, but I don't know how to stop it. "Rent" is in less than a week. "She Loves Me" is coming. I have so much work. However, I am VERY happy I was accepted to FSU!!!!!
But yes. This was my very very strange day.