Isn't it Ironic?
I have adopted a wing at childrens for the holidays, so that the families and children in the hospital over christmas can have a smile. When I started this project I never thought that MYSELF and MY FAMILY would be spending christmas in the hospital this year. Ironic?
My grandmother has what is called MDS (Myelodysplastic syndrome) or otherwise known as acute myelogenous leukemia. Yesterday she went to the doctor and she came home and told us all the bad news.
Her Chemo is not working. She is being sent down to Froedtert Hospital today and will be there for a minimum of 3 weeks. They also gave her a month to live....
Yeah, pretty crappy! Yesterday was just a whirl-wind for me. and today.. well I am pretty much in care-taker mode... Thats just how I do things. LIke when my grandfather passed away. I walked in the room just seconds as the news was given to my grandmother and the family. Everyone started crying... duh, but I went into care-taker mode. I started taking care of my grandmother, getting her kleenexs and calling anyone who was not called, and cleaning up the room, I even went out and asked for a vaccum at the reception desk because Alex had spilt his bag of cheetos that I walked down to get him. When we got home, I immediately got on the phone and called the rest of the family down south, as well as family friends.
You know, I am a bit bitter about it. But I think a lot of my bitterness is coming from the fact that her Chemo WAS working.. they told her it was like a few weeks before she went to visit her brother. And now it is not! It makes me wonder if what my cousin was doing in my grandmothers house (huffing) had anything to do with this. I wouldn't doubt that it does. I am going to talk to the doctors about it today and find out. You know, she was doing that in the house!!! In my grandmothers house! Her basement, upstairs. If she wanted to ruin herself, fine, but have enough respect to do it ELSE WHERE! Especially when you know your grandmother is SICK! Outside, the garage, or somewhere! Why in the house, even after she told her NOT too, and after she had been caught several times! Just pisses me off! Trust me, I plan to find out if it could have played a roll in this today when we're at the hospital.
Right now we are waiting for the hospital to move patients around and make room for my grandmother.
I have to say, it is kind of nice knowing the routen of this whole hospital deal. Because I can walk my family through the steps and reassure them that something is just routen and standard... you know? Having spent enough time in the hospital with my son has prepared me well enough to handle this situation. And I know that if need be, I can make do the whole travel back and forth, and live there if need be for the time being. It is just sad.
Positive note.. I'll already be in the hospital Christmas Morning so I can just take the underground path to Childrens and distribute the gifts that way.
Isn't it Ironic?
My grandmother has what is called MDS (Myelodysplastic syndrome) or otherwise known as acute myelogenous leukemia. Yesterday she went to the doctor and she came home and told us all the bad news.
Her Chemo is not working. She is being sent down to Froedtert Hospital today and will be there for a minimum of 3 weeks. They also gave her a month to live....
Yeah, pretty crappy! Yesterday was just a whirl-wind for me. and today.. well I am pretty much in care-taker mode... Thats just how I do things. LIke when my grandfather passed away. I walked in the room just seconds as the news was given to my grandmother and the family. Everyone started crying... duh, but I went into care-taker mode. I started taking care of my grandmother, getting her kleenexs and calling anyone who was not called, and cleaning up the room, I even went out and asked for a vaccum at the reception desk because Alex had spilt his bag of cheetos that I walked down to get him. When we got home, I immediately got on the phone and called the rest of the family down south, as well as family friends.
You know, I am a bit bitter about it. But I think a lot of my bitterness is coming from the fact that her Chemo WAS working.. they told her it was like a few weeks before she went to visit her brother. And now it is not! It makes me wonder if what my cousin was doing in my grandmothers house (huffing) had anything to do with this. I wouldn't doubt that it does. I am going to talk to the doctors about it today and find out. You know, she was doing that in the house!!! In my grandmothers house! Her basement, upstairs. If she wanted to ruin herself, fine, but have enough respect to do it ELSE WHERE! Especially when you know your grandmother is SICK! Outside, the garage, or somewhere! Why in the house, even after she told her NOT too, and after she had been caught several times! Just pisses me off! Trust me, I plan to find out if it could have played a roll in this today when we're at the hospital.
Right now we are waiting for the hospital to move patients around and make room for my grandmother.
I have to say, it is kind of nice knowing the routen of this whole hospital deal. Because I can walk my family through the steps and reassure them that something is just routen and standard... you know? Having spent enough time in the hospital with my son has prepared me well enough to handle this situation. And I know that if need be, I can make do the whole travel back and forth, and live there if need be for the time being. It is just sad.
Positive note.. I'll already be in the hospital Christmas Morning so I can just take the underground path to Childrens and distribute the gifts that way.
Isn't it Ironic?