[FIC]: Teenage Dream (the way you turn me on) (2/2)
Rating: R
Pairing: Sehun/kai
lenght: 10000w, two shots
Summary: Jongin is in love with his bestfriend Sehun and is knee deep in this poop. Zitao is just Zitao.
Genre: Comedy, fluff
Warnings: Mentions of sex, bad language,
"what do you mean we can't stay together?" Sehun looks like something Jongin can't tell. It is not quiet shocked, not really angry, maybe a litte bit sad... Oh yeah, Sehun looks lost.
"Man, i'm sorry but Joonmyun and Kyungsoo are so clear about not moving into Chanyeol's apartment and you know how Baekhyun and Chanyeol are," Jongin doesn't add that it is his fault.
"But i talked to Kyungsoo last week and he said he is okay with kicking Joonmyun out because Joonmyum adds hilarious amount of milk to his cereal and they ran out of milk every two days or something like that," Sehun says with hope in his eyes and this ridiclous situtation hurts Jonging in the inside.
"Well uhm... Looks like Joonmyun doesn't want to leave," Jongin shrugs and he probably shouldn't add that he begged Joonmyun for that.
"I will call Joonmyun. He will listen to me," Sehun says looking for his phone in his pockets.
"Of course, you can try but it won't work," Because Jongin kinda blackmailed Joonmyun with Joonmyun's disgusting green cardigan in his left hand and a cup of cherry ice cream in his right hand. He only gave up when Joonmyun promised to not to let Sehun and Jongin live together. And Joonmyun evens out not being able to keep secrets with sticking to his promises. Unless he makes a promise about keeping a secret. Not that it stops Sehun from giving it a try. He looks very defeated when he shuts the phone an hour later.
"I'm gonna kill him," Sehun says eyes dark. Great. Joonmyun is gonna die and it is Jongin's fault.
"No, you won't. Where is the fun in college life if you are gonna go to jail right?" Jongin's high, nervous laugh sounds disgusting.
"Where is the fun if we are not gonna live together?" Sehun looks like he is about to storm off to Joonmyun's place and god knows those skinny hands are capable of crushing Joonmyun's head with a tight grip. But then he looks at Jongin with hope in his eyes.
"Let's rent an apartment together!" Sehun says grabbing Jongin's shoulders with enough force to crush Jongin. Yeah, they can do that. They can rent an apartment together if Jongin begs his parents enough. The only problem is idea of living together with only Sehun is worse than living with Baekyeol, a dog in heat-Jongin will never forget Monggu's heat- and his biology teacher combined.
"No man. Sorry, i don't think my parents can afford that," Jongin says. Yes, the apartments in the heart of Seoul is pretty expensive and of course Jongin is gonna use that.
"You know, my family can help," Sehun says with the little bit of hope that's left in his eyes.
"No, Sehun. I'm sorry it has to be that way. But don't worry i can live with Chanyeol and Baekhyun. No big deal," Of course it is a big deal but Jongin feels so guilty. Sehun grabs Jongin's shoulder with a 'daddy smile' and shakes his head to sides.
" I know how things get when you are with Chanyeol and Baekhyun," Sehun's voice is so soft and Jongin just wants to die. Jongin will probably hate himself until he is over college.
Jongin stopped staying over at Sehun's house when he was 16 , the same time he started jerking off the thoughts of Sehun. Because Sehun was dangerously clingy at nights and Jongin was hyper sensitive. Not to mention Sehun wandered around in the house half naked when it passed 6 pm. Thanks to god Sehun never agreed to stay over at Jongin's because of Jongin's sisters. Even though Jongin's sisters treated Sehun like a little brother and loved him as a family -including talking about how Sehun is much more better than Jongin infront of both Sehun and Jongin- but Sehun is a gentleman like that.
Of course Jongin is not a teenegare anymore. -well, actually he is. - Jongin is a man and can control his boners. - if Sehun is not half naked because Sehun is so.... Damn...- so Jongin thought he could manage living with Sehun because he really wanted to do so. But then he told his college plans to his sister and discovered something.
"Jongin, you can't!" His sister told him and grabbed his shoulders to shake him up. "You can't live with Sehun, no way!"
"Why...?" Jongin asked, not understanding his sisters panicked behavior.
"Jongin you have been talking in your sleep... Since last month," his sister said looking at the ground and her face was... Red. Jongin was just shocked.
"I-i do?" He said with a laugh. "What do i talk about?" His sister sighed in defeat.
"Mostly about Sehun..." She said patting Jongin. Jongin freezed. "All about Sehun."
"Wait, what do i talk about Sehun?" Jongin grabbed his sister so hard it was hard for her to breathe.
"How you love him... Sometimes about how you want to kiss him... And some other stuff..." Jongin wanted to die back then. He wanted the ground to open and swallow him whole. Thanks to god, his sister didn't say anything to anyone. Not even his other sister and was very kind about Jongin being that way. She even did some research to do that "embarrassing talk" to him and went far enough to get Jongin a watermelon flavored lube. -Jongin found it kinky at first but then tasted it and damn it was delicious- Above all the embarrassment, Jongin felt lucky that his roommate was his younger sister because the older sister would probably go tell Jongin's parents and Sehun about that "some other stuff"
"I prefered Sehun, you know?" Kyungsoo says while opening the curtains and the windows all together "You make the room sting like the loser you are."
"Why am i so lucky to have your attention today?" Jongin says while pulling the sheets over his head to block the sunlight.
"Because you talked about Sehun's ass the whole night and your boyfriend called you like six times, every hour, starting from 4 a.m." Kyungsoo's voice just got louder with every word he spoke. Since Jongin had this talking in his sleep problem, he kicked Joonmyun to the other room and became roommates with Kyungsoo. Thank god Kyungsoo can keep secrets. Not that he cares to keep them. He just doesn't care enough to tell anybody.
"I am sorry i am trying to handle it. I promise i will get rid of it. And Tao was probably drunk again. My phone was in silent mode though..." getting up never felt that embarrassing before to Jongin.
"Silent mode my ass. Your phone vibrates enough to make an earth quake," Kyungsoo says and waow. He looks scarrier with the circles he has under his eyes.
"Does your boyfriend knows how you talk about your 'bestfriend' at night?" Kyungsoo adds then scrunches his nose. "Oh wait, the real question is, does Sehun know that you are dating with Tao?" and then laughs at how Jongin's eyes gets wider.
Jongin should have told Sehun about that... Or die with a gunshot to between his eyes. Same thing.
"Let me tell you something Jonginnie," Kyungsoo says while leaning down so close that Jongin's eyes can't focus anymore and sees one big eye instead of two eyes. "Do something about your shitty sleeping problem or i will tell Joonmyun about your boyfriend Tao and we will see how long it will take for Sehun to track you down and kill Zitao infront of your eyes before he kills you too. Got it?" Kyungsoo was never so strong. He just knew where to hit.
Jongin's phone rings just at the right time and it is a text from Sehun. How ironic.
- Wanna watch the new Transformers movie today?
Jongin had refused Sehun a lot since the college began and it made cold air flow between the two of them but it is just... Jongin just needs to sort things out. Now that Sehun is dating Jinri who is more beautiful than ever and Jongin is trying to take the frustration and jealousy out of Zitao, Jongin can't bring himself to be like the old times for now.
- Sorry, i have to practise with my classmates today. Probably will take the whole day tbh since we are getting ready to the show case.Sorry.
when Sehun sends a reply immediatly Jongin scratches his head so hard his skin is gonna peel of.
- Don't be. I was expecting your bullshit anyways.
"You sent your message without checking. It got auto corrected you know," Kyungsoo says and Jongin checks the text.
"It looks normal?" Jongin says with a confused look.
"No. It was supposed to say 'I am just gonna go fuck with Zitao while avoiding you.' right?" Kyungsoo actually insulted with a long sentence and this means that the shit that Jongin is dealing with is actually serious. Kyungsoo walks to get out of the room because basically he doesn't have any attention left to give Jongin but he suddenly gasps when he opens the door.
"What?" Jongin says and raises his head to see what actually made Kyungsoo gasp but his mouth drops when he sees Joonmyun wide eyed, standing in the door frame.
"You are dating with Tao?" Joonmyun says with his mouth wide open. Kyungsoo face palms and Jongin is... Dead. Jongin can literally feel the death massaging his shoulders just to ease this tension a little because Jongin is knee deep in such a shit that he earns death's pity.
Jongin is on the couch watching the Spongebob on a calm and peaceful Sunday evening when his phone rings. He looks at the screen and sets it to aside when he sees that it is Sehun. He can't deal with the stress now he is already so tired but fifteen minutes later his phone rings again and this time it is an unknown number so Jongin picks it up without thinking.
"Hey Jongin. it is been a while," Jongin almost drops the phone when he hears Sehun's scary, husky tone.
"S-sehun? Hey, how are you?" Jongin wants to run. Run away as fast as he can. "This is not your number right? Are you calling from someone else's phone?"
Jongin shudders when Sehun let's out a low laugh.
"I want to eat dinner with you. Let's go to this sushi bar. I will text the adress to you," Sehun says slowly. Jongin thinks his goosebumps are not here to stay temporary.
"Uhm... You know the show case...." but Sehun cuts Jongin off with an another low laugh.
"It is so funny because, i called your classmates and they told me there is no show case," Sehun's voice is disturbingly sweet and calm. Jongin wonders how much time is left before his head decorates Sehun's room.
"M-my classmates?" Jongin gulps.
"Yes. Yixing, Taemin..." and Sehun literally lines the names of every single classmate from his shared dance classes. "... and Hyoyeon. Tell me if i missed one. I will call them too." and Sehun's evil smile is clear from his tone. Jongin remains silent and thinks about how Sehun needs a serious appointment with a doctor. As soon as possible.
"I will text you the adress. Be there in half an hour before i do something i will regret. Okay?" Sehun says in a cheerful voice. Jongin just mumbles an okay and the phone is shutted to his face. Jongin should probably call his family to say goodbye. Actually jongin just wants to call his mommy to be honest.
"Hey," Sehun says with a smile while Jongin is sitting down opposite of him. "I see you found the place."
Not that Jongin would be dead if he couldn't.
By the way, how gorgeous does Sehun look? Sehun looks like a model with his hair pushed backwards carefully and his white shirt with his black long cardigan that has a slim fit on his arms and skinny jeans being tight on the right places. Not the mention his make up. Wait? Sehun is wearing make up? He would tease the fuck out of Jongin whenever Jongin wore make up and would try every way for Jongin to not go out with just a little bit of eyeliner. But Sehun here is wearing thick eyeliner making his eyes even more intense and Jongin is salivating... Just a little bit.
"I didn't know you liked sushi," Jongin says and cleares his thorat. Sehun rest his head on his palm and gives an evil smile in a beautiful way and Jongin doesn't know how he does it.
"Sushi is not my favorite but it is okay. I choose this place because i heard your boyfriend likes sushi," Sehun says. Jongin swallows loudly. The door opens just in the right time.
"Oh, there he is. Hey Tao!" Sehun rises his hand and Zitao looks shocked. Jongin knows he is living his last minutes.
"Sehun? Jongin, what is going on here?" Zitao says with a confused look in his face as he walks towards to the table.
"It is so funny because i don't have any idea what is going on here," Jongin says while giving Zitao the 'are you crazy? what the fuck are you doing here?' look.
"Aw come on now. It is not the time to be like this. Let's talk and have fun," Sehun smiles prettily and this whole thing creeps both Jongin and Zitao out seriously. Zitao looks at Jongin with a scared face but Jongin gestures the seat next to him.
"Sit down." Jongin says. 'Before he breaks your neck,' part remains silent.
"What the fuck is going on here?" Zitao wishpers to Jongin's ear.
"Are you crazy? Why did you come here? You know Sehun hates you," Jongin whispers back and smiles at Sehun. And Sehun smiles back with fire in his eyes.
"Luhan called me, i didn't knew you two were in this," Zitao says. Jongin is about to reply but Sehun cuts them off with a cough.
"So tell me," Sehun says smiling with his piercing eyes. "How long have you been dating?"
"Does he know?" Zitao directs his gaze to Jongin. "What the fuck Jongin?"
"I didn't tell him!," Jongin says voice louder than usual.
"Exactly," Sehun says and then stops smiling. Jongin is dead. Jongin is so dead. "You didn't tell me."
"Sehun, i-" Jongin starts but he is quikly cutted of by Sehun.
"My best friend ignores me for three months. Barely talks to me or even answers my calls and then i learn he has a boyfriend from Joonmyun. I wonder how much i missed during those days since my bestfriend started being a mean douche-bag," Sehun says and he is gripping the end of the table hard and he looks like he can jump on the table any moment and attack Jongin like a wild animal.
Zitao's phone rings and it is still Katy Perry's Teenage Dream and Sehun gives Jongin a 'are you fucking with me?' look while Jongin wants the ground the swallow him whole. Thanks to god, Zitao shuts it off quickly.
"So what? Oh my god are you Jongin's girlfriend or something?" Zitao says and Jongin immediately puts his hand to cover Zitao's mouth. Zitao rolls his eyes and gives Jongin a betrayed look.
"This is between me and Jongin, Gucci-ass. Dont butt in," Sehun says while still looking at Jongin. Zitao violently pushes Jongin's hand and gets up pushing the chairs.
"Okay that's it. I am done with this bastard," Zitao says while Jongin grabs his arm. "Jongin let go!" Zitao says.
"For fuck's sake Tao we are in a restourant and i am not paying the damage you will cause, sit down!" Jongin says while trying to stop Zitao from rushing over to Sehun's side.
"I am tired of this shit! He has been butting in our relationship since forever and it is not his problem if we are fucking or not!" Zitao shouts out.
"You fucking," Sehun slams the table and stands up. Reaching out to grab Tao's neck but Jongin gets in between. Everybody is looking and Sehun is right there looking mad and disgusted, Jongin thinks he would reather die with a gunshot to between his eyes.
"Tao, please go, we will talk later," Jongin says pushing Zitao away but Zitao keeps pushing and shouting.
"Tao, fucking go now or no blowjobs! Never ever again!" Jongin whispers quite loudy but it makes Zitao stop.
"Oh my fucking god!" Sehun swears grabbing his hair with his both hands which means he heard it very well and Jongin feels disgusting.
"I am gonna get you," Zitao says pointing his finger at Sehun while Jongin manages to push him out of the suhsi bar. Sehun looks all red and crazy that Jongin knows he is not gonna get out of here alive. Well Sehun was never comfortable with gay stuff. Of course he was supportive at first. He would read embarrassing stuff like yaoi and ask Jongin about gay sex, the top or bottom stuff but he was doing it to be supportive. Just like his sister. It didn't mean he was okay with the real stuff because after he saw Zitao and Jongin last year at the prom, he mentioned Zitao being a gaylord and disgusting and kissing Zitao must be disgusting and some other stuff that can make him count as a homophobic. Not to mention he knows that Zitao and Jongin are dating, fucking and Jongin giving Zitao blowjobs. There are really hardcore things they do at bed -Zitao is a little kinky- but Jongin probably shouldn't say it out loud. Also Jongin thinks about Sehun whatever they do at bed but that part should remain silent as well.
"You better start talking. Now!" Sehun says and Jongin is mad at himself because Sehun looks really bad and Sehun is always put together. Jongin is a horrible person.
"Can we get out please? Everybody is looking," Jongin says looking at the ground. Sehun takes a deep breath . He grabs Jongin's wrist and pulls him out of the Sushi bar. It is funny how his grip is gentle even though he is angry and Sehun is like that. Sehun is amazing and Jongin is just plain horrible.
"I am listening," Sehun says once they are in a dark corner and out of sight. Jongin takes a deep breathe.
"We have been going out since last year. It began after the prom," Jongin says looking at the ground.
"Since last year? Oh my god Jongin are you fucking kidding me?" Sehun looks more lost than angry.
"I am sorry but i knew you wouldn't approve and you hate Zitao.. So..." Jongin doesn't know what to say, doesn't know how to apologise.
"Jongin i tell you everything," Sehun's voice sounds hurt and it is not even angry anymore. This feels fucked up. All fucked up.
"Look Sehun, the thing between me and Zitao is not something like you think. Zitao asked me out and i accepted because i wanted to exprience. That's all. I didn't tell you because it would upset you, or disgust you. I am sorry," Jongin says.
" When did i tell you that you are disgusting? Did i make you feel that way? I-i didn't meant to," Sehun says with shock in his face. Okay, Jongin is the worse. Seriously the worse.
"No! Of course you didn't Sehun! This is my fault i am sorry," Jongin says taking a step towards Sehun and feels like he took a punch to his face when Sehun takes a step back.
"Were you with him?" Sehun starts looking at the ground. "When you ignored me, telling me you had to practise and the other lies... Joonmyun told me you were always out... With Zitao." Jongin should remember to strangle Joonmyun.
"Sehun i didn't ditch you for Zitao! I would never do that!" Jongin shouts out loud because this idea is just stupid.
"Then explain!" Sehun rises his head and his voice is loud. "I am this close to let everything go between us. You don't know how i felt this whole three months. Thinking if i did something wrong, what is going on and what are you doing only to find out you had a new life going on without me. You owe me an explanition right here, right now."
It is in the tip of Jongin's tongue. He wants to shout out I love you! I have been in love with you since forever. I can't control my feelings so i avoided you so we both wouldn't get hurt. But Jongin is a scaredy cat like that.
"Ask me to do anything. I will do everything... But don't ask me to explain." Jongin can't bring himself to look at Sehun in the eye. "Because i can't, Sehun." Sehun remains silent for a while.
"So throwing everything aways is that easy for you," Sehun's gaze is making Jongin smaller. "Avoiding me for three month was so easy for you. So it should be easy to end it right?"
"Sehun," Jongin grabs Sehun's shoulder but Sehun shrugs him off and starts walking away.
"Sehun!" Jongin shouths behind him but Sehun keeps walking. Jongin wants to run and catch him but he know Sehun will push him away. He would push himself away too, if he was Sehun. So he just stands there untill Sehun dissapears.
Sehun ignores Jongin's calls for two weeks and Jongin makes sure to call him ten times a day and then call Baekhyun to spy on him only to hear that Sehun is with Jinri 'probably having animal sex' with Baekhyun's way of describing it.
It is a sunday again when Sehun calls Jongin and Jongin falls flat on his nose while rushing out to his phone to answer.
"Sehun! Man, how are you?" Jongin's voice sounds weird due to his new nose shape.
"It's me Baekhyun," Baekhyun sounds panicked and Jongin can hear Sehun's voice shouting 'Jongiiin' in the back ground.
"Ookay," Jongin doesn't know how to respond to that.
"Sehun is so fucking drunk and he won't get up. He is crying over you, so come here and get him because if we don't get him out of here the bartender will probably call the police," Baekhyun says and he hears the sound of a glass shattering and a potential bartender shouting. Jongin puts on his jeans and rushes to the bathroom to wash off the acne product that is on his face. -Dermatological- health comes first.
When Jongin enters to the club his heart is thrumming in his chest, his hair roots are full of that acne product and he can't believe his eyes because omg what the fuck happened to Sehun?? Jongin sure did probably mention it before how Sehun is always put together and even though he gets drunk you probably won't realize it but Sehun is climbing on top of the bar trying to hug the bartender who looks like he is gonna sue the fuck out of Sehun's family. Jongin almost trips and gives his nose another shape in his haste to grab Sehun.
When he grabs Sehun's arm and pull him away from the poor bartender just like Baekhyun is trying to do, he is rewarded with an elbow to his stomache.
"Ouch, Sehun, this is totally not cool!" Jongin says while grabbing Sehun again but Sehun suddenly let's go of the bartender and turns to face Jongin.
"Jongin? Is that you?" Sehun says before he looses his ballance and falls on top of poor, little Baekhyun who is probably gonna have a upper body deformation after that.
"Oh god, dude, are you alright?" Jongin grabs Sehun to get him off of Baekhyun but Sehun is faster than Jongin, wrapping himself around Jongin and stumbling them over.
"I'm okay, ouch, just get him out of here for fuck's sake!" Baekhun shouts wildly gesturing towards the door.
"I need to pay first," Jongin is trying to get Sehun off of himself. Not that he woulnd't like it if they were more comfortable and at somewhere else but they should really 'get the fuck out of here'
"I will pay, just fuck off!" Baekhyun says and Jongin manages to get Sehun up.
"Aren't you coming though?" Jongin asks since they share the same apartment.
"Are you fucking kidding me? I am this close to bang Taeyeon. Infact, i would be banging her if your bestfriend here was not acting like a dumbed, thirteen year old girl. Damn i have been waiting for this moment since forever," Baekhyun's eyes are glowing and it is seriously disturbing.
Thanks to god Sehun's apartment was close because Sehun is tall, Sehun is heavy and Sehun was also drooling on Jongin's shirt all the way down to his apartment and Jongin isn't really a fan of giving piggy backs.
Jongin rings the bell and then curses when he realizes that if Baekhyun is at the club then Chanyeol is there too. You know... BaekYeol rules.
"Sehun?" Jongin checks Sehun over his shoulder. Sehun's eyes are still closed as he mumbles.
"Sehun, can you hear me?" Jongin is actually worried because Sehun is really good at drinking. Not to mean he drinks a lot but he just handles the alcohol well and if Sehun is in this state, Jongin can only hope he won't get into a coma.
"Yes, talk more," Sehun says wraping his arms around Jongin's neck thighter and Jongin would blush if he wasn't having problems at breathing.
"Sehun, i need your keys," Jongin is trying to drop Sehun off but Sehun is extreamly clingy tonight.
"You can have it, You can have anything you want just don't go. Jongin, please don't go," Sehun whines and wraps his legs around Jongin harder to not get off of him.
"Sehun, i am not going anywhere just give me your keys please," Jongin says finally dropping Sehun and arching his back with relief.
"Will you stay?" Sehun says with a pout. Jongin is sweating.
"Sure, i will stay," Jongin attempts to grap the keys but Sehun keeps it out of his reach.
"Will you sleep over?" Sehun says with a grin. Jongin has hundred different kinds of scenarios of how he will talk in his sleep and how Sehun will react after hearing those.
"I can't, but i will stay till you sleep okay?" Jongin says.
"No!" Sehun says hiding the keys behind him with a pout.
"Okay, Sehun you are so cute and you are bringing aegyo a whole new different level but this is really creeping me out right now," Jongin doesn't really know how the react when Sehun stumbles over and hugs Jongin like he wants to break him.
"You are cuter!" Sehun snuggles to his neck and okay this has to stop.
"I will stay over Sehun please just stop and give me the keys!" Jongin says pushing Sehun. Jongin will have nightmares about this. Sehun pouts and gives the keys.
Turns out with 'sleeping over' Sehun actually meant sleeping together on Sehun's bed and cuddling the fuck out of it.
"Jongin i am so sorry lets be bestfriends again okay?" Sehun is being the thirteen year old girl that he is and trying to get closer while Jongin is trying to dodge Sehun's leg that is dangerously getting closer to Jongin's boner.
"Of course, sure, just stand still and sleep okay?" Sehun is still so clingy at nights and even more now since he is drunk but Jongin can not stand the way Sehun's leg is constantly trying to get between Jongin's thigh or the way Sehun is breathing warm on his neck. "Because, you know, sleep comes faster when you stand still and not move."
"Jongin," Sehun says and gets up suddenly howering over Jongin and his face is dangerously close. " I missed you."
Jongin is blushing, this night is seriously giving Jongin hopes that he shouldn't have, Jongin is sure he won't survive the night and it is scary how serious and blank Sehun's face looks while being cheesy and drunk.
"I missed you too Sehun," Jongin is trying to smile. Jongin is trying to smile despite his hard on and waow he is proud of himself.
"Don't you dare to ignore me ever again," Sehun looks like the angry, sober Sehun that he normally is and his hands are grabing Jongin's shoulders hard it is gonna leave bruises. "Okay?"
What can Jongin say? Sehun is pretty good at giving a taste of death to people.
"I am sorry, it won't happen again. I promise," Jongin says and Sehun goes back to being a clingy thirteen year old girl with a wide grin on his face and Jongin thinks of scenarios about Sehun killing Zitao in slow motion to keep himself awake till morning just in case of him sleep talking.
Okay maybe Jongin spent a terrible night with a Sehun constantly turning him on and he damaged his mental health to not to sleep but it worthed it when their relationship went back to complately normal. They were just like how they were in the high school. Going to movies together, eating together, being stupid -just Jongin- but being stupid together. -yup, just Jongin- It was totally natural how they started to appear in every minute of each other's life. Jongin never felt happier when Sehun canceled his plans with Jinri to just read manga with Jongin and Sehun doesn't even read manga. -Expect yaoi because Sehun has to embarrass the fuck out of Jongin-
But it is complately not normal in Jongin's book when Sehun calls Jongin to his apartment in a sunday afternoon and opens the door with not wearing anything but a pair of leather pants. That is totally not normal because Sehun is always simple and elegant. Jongin would bet hundred bucks that Sehun would never wear something like that which Zitao would totally wear in the other hand.
"Does it look good on me?" Sehun says after closing the door and he actually turns his back to show his ass and damn dat ass in tight, leather pants.
"Everything usually looks good on you," Jongin says without realizing and he almost covers his mouth with his hand after realizing what he said. Sehun turns to him with a suprised face but then smiles and walks closer.
"Really?" Sehun is totally evil today.
"This is not really your style though," Jongin says. Just to change the subject.
"Guess i am changing my style then. I thought you like that kind of style," Sehun says while walking to his study table and is clearly looking for something. "Can you ring my phone? I can't find it." Sehun says but there is some sort of evil smirk on his face.
Jongin understands why when he calls Sehun's phone and Katy Perry's 'Teenage Dream' fills the room.
"Oh there it is," Sehun grabs his phone and actually waits till Jongin declines the call to listen to the music "This song is awesome isn't it?"
"Are you kidding me? Sehun are you really alright?" But Jongin's question is left without an answer when Sehun pushes Jongin to his bed with himself.
"So tell me, how is Tao?" Sehun asks with a sincere smile.
"He is fine but you are totally not okay," Jongin is seriously gonna sleep talk about this and urge Kyungsoo to commit suicide even more than he already is.
"Is Zitao a good boyfriend really? Isn't he just so stupid? But he is really good at kissing i heard," Sehun is snuggling closer and the room is suddenly way too hot for Jongin. "Is he good at kissing?"
"Sehun is this about me ditching you to go Tao's birthday last friday? Because i asked you to come too but you didn't want it even thought Tao said he was okay- hey Sehun!" Jongin shudders when he feels a leg pushing it's way between Jongin's.
"How does zitao kiss you? Seriously i wanna know," Sehun is dangerously close so Jongin takes a deep breath and gets up as fast as he can.
"Good subject but let's talk about it later, i have to go," Jongin has a boner and a pride to protect.
"Where are you going?" Sehun says dissapointment clear on his face.
"I have a class," Jongin replies without thinking while grabbing his phone.
"Jongin today is sunday," Sehun looks very concerned when he gets up.
"Yeah, i gotta go," Is the last thing Jongin says before he slams the door and almost falls down from the stairs in his haste.
"You are such a married couple it is killing me inside," Kyungsoo says while Jongin is hitting his head to the wall. "Stop doing that by the way. You are already stupid, i don't want you to get even more stupid."
"I want to die. If i keep doing this for the next hour, am i going to die?" Jongin says while he keeps hitting his head. Of course he is doing it lightly because damn it hurts. Kyungsoo grabs Jongin's shoulder harshly to throw him to his bed.
"Your stupidy is a death cause anyways. Now tell me what is wrong because i know that if i don't ask now, you will keep being an attention whore untill i ask," Kyungsoo says pushing a pillow to Jongin's face.
"Sehun is avoiding me," Jongin says, voice muffled because of the pillow.
"And he is fucking with his pretty girlfriend while avoiding you?" Kyungsoo is talking like he is talking about the weather. Jongin pushes the pillow out of his face and gets up quickly.
"How did you know?" Kyungsoo rolls his eyes and gestures wildly for Jongin to continue.
"I don't understand what is wrong or what did i do. Everything was so normal and then he started avoiding me," Jongin says while lying back. "Last time, i knew why. But i don't know it now since he is playing nice, explaining why we can't hang around but i know he is avoiding me." Kyungsoo lies back next to Jongin and grabs a pillow.
"Isn't that what you did last time and got Sehun extreamly drunk?" and suddenly Jongin shivers with a sudden realization.
"Damn, i was so cruel," Jongin says turning to lie flat on his face. "I am such a bad person. Do you think he is taking a revenge?" Kyungsoo throws a light puch to Jongin's shoulder.
"Don't be such a child. Did you do it to hurt Sehun?" Jongin quickly turns to face Kyungsoo.
"Of course not!" Jongin says. He wants to explain but Kyungsoo smiles with his heart shaped lips and know it all face.
"You didn't do it on purpose. It wasn't about Sehun or something that he did to you. You were dealing with yourself and you needed time. I am sure Sehun feels the same now." Jongin wants to punch the walls out of frustration.
"So you think i should back off and give Sehun some time," Jongin turns flat on his face again and growls to his pillow.
Then he feels a warm hand on his back and turns his head to looka at Kyungsoo to check if he is dying.
"I am sure Sehun will come to you and everything will be alright," Kyungsoo is smiling a smile with his heart shaped lips which Jongin can see the potential in it to become a famous star's signature smile. It is just way too pretty Jongin hears some angels singin in the back ground. If this was The Sims 2 -because Jongin got bored before The Sims 3 came out and he is not even sure if a fourth one came out, Jongin is lost and old- friendship shit and a plus sign would appear on top of their heads as he wraps his arms around Kyungsoo's thin frame to hug the life out of him.
"Thank you, i love you," Jongin snuggles closer while Kyungsoo shivers with something that is not aniticipation.
"Get the fuck off! I refuse to satisfy your craving for homo cheese," Kyungsoo's words are not that hateful while he is kicking Jongin's ass to push him further away. "Bitch," he adds.
Jongin was doing so good at giving Sehun some time and space until yet again a sunday afternoon. Jongin should learn to lock himself to his room and spend the day in the bed with things that are soft, safe and not capable of killing because sundays are not Jongin's forte.
He was happy sitting in a coffee shop with Taemin and Hyoyeon and he was talking about how much he wanted to do The Nutcracker and his emotions about the whole thing like the gay that he is and then he remembered that today is sunday when Sehun and Jinri came in.
"They look so cute. Man, Sehun is so dreamy," Hyoyeon says and Jongin is sure she is looking at Sehun's butt.
"Everybody is so jealous of their relationship. It is literally a big deal," Taemin is extra annoying today and Jongin's left eye is twitching. Taemin's smile becomes so big and so awkward Jongin wants to puch stuff. He wants to punch, bam, boom, slam, kick.
"But Oh Sehun is actually so different than his image. Everybody would have an heart attack if they knew. Literally everybody," Taemin adds.
"What do you mean with..." Jongin starts but then he remembers that he is Lee Taemin. "Wait, no. I don't want to know. And your 'everybody's started again."
Taemin's lips forms and 'o' and he covers his mouth with his hand. "Sorry, i'm working on it."
Jongin takes a deep breath and apologises to his future self for what he is about to do.
"Excuse me guys. I am gonna commit suicide," Jongin says getting up and walking towards Sehun and Jinri's table. Jongin shouldn't say hi.
"Hi guys," Jongin's smile is so wide it hurts. "Jinri you look stunning."
"Hi, Jongin," Jinri says with a big smile while Sehun is getting dangerously pale.
"Are you two are here to work on that 'seriously hard' project that Sehun mentioned?" Jongin knows a lie when he hears it and he is not afraid to use it even thought he should because he is probably fucking everything up right now.
"Uhm, what project?" Jinri says while Sehun is sighing with defeat.
"Well my man, Sehun, here," Jongin's smile is seriously gonna plant there for days while he is grabbing Sehun's neck to squeeze it in a 'friendly' way. "Told me that he has this big project that he has to finish and won't be able to get out of the library for a few months."
Jinri looks totally and utterly confused while she is like 'omg Sehun you didn't tell me about any project while we were fucking all the time' and Jongin's hand is grabbing Sehun's neck so hard it is gonna break.
"Jongin look, i really do have this- ouch!" Jongin shuts Sehun up with a pinch to his neck and grins at Jinri and Jongin is sure Jinri is going to have nightmares about Jongin and Jongin feels nothing but pure happiness.
"I gotta go okay? Take care," Is what Jongin says while he grabs his jacket and leaves as fast as he can.
It is funny how the rules are switched and Sehun is the one ringing the fuck out of Jongin's phone instead how Jongin did when Sehun realized he was lying about some showcase. Jongin's life is such a romantic drama it is killing him in the inside.
But he was not expecting his Iphone 5s to hit him square on the nose while watching Spongebob happily.
"Answer the fucking call before i-" Kyungsoo starts and what Jongin hears next is bunch of swearing and bad language until Kyungsoo dissapears and slams his shared room's door. Jongin sighs in defeat and answers the call because, to be honest Jongin was dying to answer since Sehun started calling. Jongin is soft hearted and hopelessly in love. Jongin is not Sehun. Jongin is a kind soul.
That is why he answers the call with a "Stop calling me you fucking cock sucking son of a bitch," and a gap of slience fills the air untill he adds "I am not Kyungsoo i can only swear for this long."
"Jongin what the fuck is wrong with you?" Sehun sounds angry. Why the fuck Sehun sounds angry? He should be talking like a lost little girl and beg for Jongin's fogiveness.
"What the fuck is wrong with you actually? You can't be like this. You are the one at fault remember?" Jongin is not afraid to say what he thinks. That is why Jongin is still platonic. Because Jongin thinks he is hopeless.
"I am sorry. I didn't want things to come to this point but we are even. You did the same to me remember?" Sehun's voice is loud and Jongin is so angry he just wants to kill at this point.
"So this is your way of getting revenge? Making me believe that everything is okay, we are good friends and then start ignoring me to fuck Jinri 7/24?" Jongin's voice gets higher when he is angry and he is shouting like a little girl right now. "Congrats Sehun you are such a petty, immature dumb-ass!"
"No! What the fuck?" Sehun's lisp is getting clearer and it makes Jongin feel more confident because even though Jongin is fucked up, Sehun is fucked up too. "Not everything is about you Jongin. I needed some time and space and i would like to remind you, you fucking acted like we are good friends and then ignored me to fuck Zitao 7/24 first! You did the same Jongin. The same!"
Jongin just feels the frustration of years coming out. "Stop saying that it is the same! It is not the same!" waow it is the first time Jongin screamed that loud in his entire life and Sehun shuts up for a second.
"Then explain Jongin," Sehun doesn't sound angry anymore. He sounds just tired and on the edge. Like he is dying to understand Jongin but he can't and Jongin can't do this to Sehun anymore. Jongin knows their friendship won't be back untill they sort things out. Until Sehun sorts Jongin out.
"Because, i think about you," Jongin takes a deep breath and lets all the frustration go. "I think about you when i am fucking Zitao!" and Jongin shuts the phone to turn it off.
Okay, this was not how Jongin wanted his confession to be. That is why it doesn't stop him from stuffing his pjamas and a few shirts to his backpack and storm out while leaving his phone on his bed because right now he is scared, scared and scared.
"You confessed to Sehun? Oh my fucking god really?" Zitao says with an amused shocked face.
"Leave me alone Tao," Jongin mutters lying flat on his face on Zitao's queen sized bed with some expensive red sheets. -Jongin thinks it is pink but Zitao insists it is red and Jongin wants Zitao to be happy so-
"You came to my house to tell me to leave you alone?" Zitao says with a smirk while sitting on Jongin and Jongin turns to make him fall off of him.
"No, i came here because you are rich so you live alone and Sehun doesn't know where you live . I am safe here," Jongin mutters while Zitao laughs.
"Correction, Sehun doesn't know where i live, yet. It is a matter of time he tracks your smell and kills me," Zitao adds.
"He won't find me. He will probably find a way to move to North Koea so he won't see me again because he is probably so disgusted thinking about all the time we were friends and... ugh," Jongin turns to lie flat on his face again. He feels Zitao placing his hands to eighter sides of Jongin's head and then his warm breath on his neck.
"Or maybe he is so turned on and just wants to make out with you," Jongin can hear the smirk in Zitao's voice. Jongin and Zitao's relationship had it's turn from dating to being fuck buddies without both of them needing to say anything because it was just so clear that Jongin liked -or loved- Sehun and Zitao felt the same way for that Chineese exchange student Wu Yifan. They were both more than okay with that.
"I actually came here planing to have sex but now i am not so sure if i should fuck you or kill you," Jongin mutters.
"I would be happy if you didn't do eighter of them," Zitao says with a smirk. "Since you confessed to Sehun it makes our relationship complicated you know?"
"What? Are you hurt honey boo boo?" Jongin is smiling playfully while wraping his arms around Zitao's neck.
"I am just kindly saying that if you moan out Sehun's name while we are fucking, i will kill you," Zitao grins and Jongin can't help but laugh.
"What? Will you use your Kung Fu skills on me?" Jongin asks knowing that the thing he can't remember is not Kung Fu but he has to annoy Zitao.
"It is Wushu!" Zitao growls and Jongin lies down laughing and huging himself . "You are such a turn off sometimes."
"You are such a turn off generally," Jongin says while trying to catch his breath.
"I can't believe i actually dated you," Zitao mutters while lying next to Jongin.
"Hey, i'm the victim in this relationship. Tao, your ring tone is 'Teenage Dream' and not to mention it somehow manages to ring itself whenever we are having sex."
"It is a cool song!" Zitao says and they look at the ceiling for a moment together.
"You know what? You actually motivate me to confess to Yifan," Zitao says getting up. "How did you confess to Sehun?"
"I said his eyes are the stars that lights up my darkness," Jongin says with shrugging. Zitao's eyes widen.
"Oh man that's cool," Zitao says with a grin.
"I also said that whenever i see something beautiful i smell him, taste him, remember him," Jongin is looking at Zitao to understand if he got the irony or not.
"Wait, let me get a pen. I have got to write those," Zitao is getting up actually to look for a pen before Jongin grabs his collar and pulls him close.
"Are you fucking kidding me? I told him i was thinking about him when i fucked you," Jongin says and he is really concerned about Zitao's mental health. Zitao pushes him away.
"You are disgusting." Zitao says and it is amusing how he looks at Jongin with disapproval. "You don't even top that much and i have to take care of you all the time. You are a twink. But this motivates me more because you fucked up and it is okay if i fuck up too since we will be in sorrow together. Where is my jacket?"
"Oh god, are you actually going?" Jongin asks while watching Zitao wearing his jacket and putting on some eyeliner at the same time because Zitao is a pro like that.
"Yes i am. You can stay here as long as you want. If i get rejected we will have some kinky sex okay?" Zitao says while wearing his shoes.
"Staying here is okay but we should talk about this kinky sex part in detail when you get back," Jongin says while Zitao is wearing his shoes. Jongin has learned to fear Zitao's kinky stuff.
"Take care," Zitao says and grabs the door knob.
Jongin stops feeling like the most miserable guy that ever lived when Zitao opens the door and immediately fells to the ground due to the punch he ate to his face from Sehun who is standing on the door frame and Sehun literally kicks Zitao aside to step in.
At least Jongin didn't eat a punch to his face when he finnaly gathered enough courage to confess his love... Yet?
"Who the fuck do you think you are to shut the phone to my face bitch," Sehun is fixing his clothes like it is the only problem here. "Get your fucking ass here, we have a conversation to finish."
Such an awkard and disturbing cap ride they had to get to Sehun's dorm and Sehun glared deadly when Jongin muttered something like 'zitao warned me about you tracking my smell.' and was pushed harshly to inside he almost bumped his nose to the opposite wall.
Jongin's last hope is Baekhyun or Chanyeol being there to call the police if things got too violent but they are no where to be seen and Jongin thinks he finnaly understands the three seconds phone call Sehun did at the cap. He basically said 'get out' and shutted it off. BaekYeol is smart enough to not to mess with an angry Sehun.
"Uhm...This room...Seems great you know? Did you do some changes. Because i think this couch was not here," Sehun replies with a look and Jongin knows the rules; Sehun looks, Jongin shuts up.
"What was that Jongin? What do you mean you think of me while," Sehun stops and scrunches his face like he is so disgusted that he can't say it. "Fucking Zitao. And seriously Jongin. Zitao? Really?"
"Uhm.. I don't think that i know what should i answer," and Jongin thinks he should have added a 'sir' to the end. Sehun sighs.
"Do you want to get in my pants? Do you see me as a fuck interest now? Was that what you meant?" Sehun is looking at the ground with his fists clenched into balls.
"No! Sehun what the fuck? Of course not," Jongin takes a step forward. Sehun looks at Jongin and he looks suprised. Jongin is already knee deep in this shit. So he should finish what he started.
"I liked you since forever and with forever i mean like, literally forever. I am so fucked up that i don't even know if i am bisexual or gay because i only liked you and i know you are straight and you don't see me in that way that is why i didn't wanted to say anything. I didn't want our friendship to get ruined," Jongin is not gonna cry. Totally not gonna cry. No. Nope.
"I am sorry, Sehun. If i could keep it inside better and wouldn't get things so messed up, everything would be normal and we would be friends and i would try to fall in love with someone else . But i couldn't, because i love you," Jongin knows he is looking at Sehun but he can't see anymore because everything is blurry due to the tears and it doesn't take long for Jongin to start crying with hiccups and all. Just like a baby.
"Jongin," is all he hears before he feels a warm hand on his cheek, rubbing his tears with his thumb and his other hand kindly grabing his shoulder for a support. Jongin is getting himself ready for a supportive 'this is the end of our friendship talk ' or even worse... 'You know we will laugh about this in the future' talk but he was totally not expecting Sehun's both hands to be grabing his collar tightly and being throwed to Sehun's bed before Sehun climbed on top of him to strangle him.
"Don't you dare to make yourself the victim in this relationship you bitch!" Sehun is shaking Jongin so bad Jongin knows he won't survive the night.
"I loved you since i met you, you don't even know how much i suffered! Do you know how i felt the day you came in and said 'Hi, Sehun! Guess what? I think i like boys.' how dare you, you asshole?" Sehun stops shaking Jongin and is getting dangerously close and Jongin is worried about Sehun biting his head off. "I went to Jeju to get my feelings undercontrol after that. I went to my grandparents Jongin. Do you even fucking know what an Adolph Hitler my grandma is?"
Jongin thinks Sehun probably has a lot in common with his grandmother.
"Wait, give me a second," Jongin needs to get things clear and to get them clear he will need Sehun's hands away from his neck, thank you. "You love me back?"
"No, you dumb shit," Sehun is looking away and he is complately red in the face. "You love me back. I probably loved you first," Jongin pushes himself to sit and Sehun immediately backs off becaue other wise, he would be sitting on Jongin's lap and Jongin is kinda sad that Sehun moved.
"I can't believe this is happening," Jongin mutters more to himself.
"I can't believe how you dared to like me without having the mind to understand that i like you too," Sehun is hitting Jongin's head with his finger. Jongin will let Sehun do this because Sehun harmed his giant, ignormous ego today a lot so if it will make him feel less embarrassed Jongin will let him do it.
"But, aren't you the same?" Jongin can't help but to smile at Sehun's wide eyes. "Actually, i gathered my courage to tell you that i was interested in boys and you didn't even get a hint. Not to mention you dated Jinri" and Jongin's eyes are getting wider because of the question that was forming in his head.
"By the way, what about Jinri? Aren't you two are still dating?" Jongin suddenly feels panicked. What if Jongin got Sehun wrong? What if Sehun's feelings were in the past and he loves Jinri now?
Sehun seems to laugh at Jongin's panicked face and his reply is... so...
"Jinri doesn't like boys. She is actually dating Amber," oh snap.
Jongin is speechless. Jongin can't talk anymore. Jongin is sick and tired of being alive. Life is a kinky fuck.
"She wanted to hide it from her parents and friends. I also needed to do the same so we started acting like we were dating to put on a show," Sehun is laughing now and Jongin wants to kill Sehun.
"But you ate her face at the prom!" Jongin is holding Sehun's shoulder blades and Shaking him which seems to amuse Sehun more.
"It was just a show," Sehun is trying to make Jongin stop with gentle hands that is pushing him away. "Jongin, Jinri is a seriously a good friend of mine. Actually she is my bestfriend." and Jongin's eyes are about to pop out of their sockets.
"You son of a bitch! I am your bestfriend!" Jongin feels the jealousy burning him when he is throwing a pillow to Sehun who is laughing with pleasure. Jinri was a rival in love and now she is a rival in friendship. Jongin picked up some stupid martial arts -wu.. shi?- from Ziato and he is not afraid to use it.
"I am not sure if you are supposed to want to kiss your bestfriend though," Sehun says with a playful smile even though the red of his cheeks and Jongin's mind stops working for a minute.
"So... uhm," Why does Jongin feels like the less exprienced homo here? "You are not going to kill me if i kiss you?"
Jongin's reply is being pushed back suddenly to lie flat on his back while Sehun is rolling his eyes.
"I dressed up like Zitao to seduce you bitch," Sehun says before leaning in. "I will kill you if you don't kiss me."
Sehun's lips are better than how he imagined them to be. Sweet and soft but it doesn't take long for his sweet, loving kisses to turn heated.
"Dammit Jongin, " Sehun says and bites Jongin's bottom lip slightly to pull at it. "Is your lips even real?" he mumbles before capturing them again Jongin is so turned on right now that Jongin must be dreaming. He is sure he is dreaming and he will totally wake up with a boner or even worse, with wet sheets. Oh No, Jongin doesn't want to wash his sheets yet. Laundry day was yesterday and Jongin is not emotionally ready to do it again. Not to mention Joonmyun will give him a box of his boxers if he catches Jongin on his way.
Jongin gasps when Sehun grinds down to him and it succesfully takes Jongin away from his thoughts and makes it clear that Jongin isn't dreaming. Sehun stops sucking Jongin's collar bones and sits up to give Jongin a cocky smirk and Jongin's pride is gone since he is finding it really, really sexy and pulling him back for another kiss. Sehun smiles against the kiss and Jongin feels cold fingers going under the waist band of his boxers.
"Wait, Sehun," Jongin breaks the kiss because health comes first. "Are you sure you want to do this? I thinks we should talk about it first. You know... About how gay sex works and..." Jongin is getting ready to give a 'pee pee goes here' talk but fortunately Sehun smacks his thigh.
"Oh shut up," Sehun says then gives a playful smile. "Just like you i also wanted to exprience safely but i didn't made a stupid choice and do it with Zitao." Sehun is scrunching up his face. "Zitao is totally not safe in anyways."
"Wait a second," waow, too many cock blocks in one day. "You dated with someone?" Jongin can understand Sehun because this is totally normal.Jongin is not jealous. Jongin absolutely does not want to track that boy and put him in the same room with a hungry Kyungsoo.
"No," Sehun scrunches up his face. "Just like fuck buddies. He looks just like you it is freaky and he is a dance major too,"
"Who is it?" It is Jongin's time to grab Sehun's collar and Sehun laughs before pinning Jongin down.
"Does it even matter Jongin?" oh no. Jongin is absolutely not touching Sehun's dick before he gets an answer. Sehun rolls his eyes.
"All that matters is you, looking hotter than ever and lying under me?" Sehun tries again. Nope. Not gonna work. Sehun sighs. "What about this. I will tell you if you do good tongiht,"
Jongin thinks Sehun seriously needs to work on his dirty talking skills but again, Jongin also thought that he actually had some pride left but he is proven wrong when Sehun's lips are on his and he is going along with the flow.
"Don't move, i am gonna go get the lube," Sehun says and gets off from the bed and Jongin lets out a whine. As Sehun starts looking at his desks dravers Jongin thinks to himself and lets out a chuckle.
"Lube is not actually watermelon flavored or something right?" Jongin was about to laugh but then he saw Sehun's panicked face.
"It is? Why? We can't use it? It actually tastes really good but i can get a new one if you-"
"Just shut up and come here please,"
"Aren't you overreacting on this? This is actually so stupid," Kyungsoo says with a sigh.
"Shut up i am making a call. Oh hey whats up?" Jongin clears his thorat and goes down a few octaves. "Listen to me Huang Zitao. Grab all of your Kung Fu equipments. We are getting our hands in blood tonight." Kyungsoo rolls his eyes so hard Jongin knows it actually hurted his eye sockets."First we will kidnap Lee Taemin and Oh Sehun then kill Lee Taemin slowly infront of Oh Sehun but watch out for the kidneys because kidneys worth fucking millions on black market we are gonna be so damn rich,"
"I knew you would turn out to be like this if you kept hangin out with Sehun too much," Kyungsoo says.
"It is WUSHU!" Zitao's voice over the phone is loud enough for Kyungsoo to hear.
Pairing: Sehun/kai
lenght: 10000w, two shots
Summary: Jongin is in love with his bestfriend Sehun and is knee deep in this poop. Zitao is just Zitao.
Genre: Comedy, fluff
Warnings: Mentions of sex, bad language,
"what do you mean we can't stay together?" Sehun looks like something Jongin can't tell. It is not quiet shocked, not really angry, maybe a litte bit sad... Oh yeah, Sehun looks lost.
"Man, i'm sorry but Joonmyun and Kyungsoo are so clear about not moving into Chanyeol's apartment and you know how Baekhyun and Chanyeol are," Jongin doesn't add that it is his fault.
"But i talked to Kyungsoo last week and he said he is okay with kicking Joonmyun out because Joonmyum adds hilarious amount of milk to his cereal and they ran out of milk every two days or something like that," Sehun says with hope in his eyes and this ridiclous situtation hurts Jonging in the inside.
"Well uhm... Looks like Joonmyun doesn't want to leave," Jongin shrugs and he probably shouldn't add that he begged Joonmyun for that.
"I will call Joonmyun. He will listen to me," Sehun says looking for his phone in his pockets.
"Of course, you can try but it won't work," Because Jongin kinda blackmailed Joonmyun with Joonmyun's disgusting green cardigan in his left hand and a cup of cherry ice cream in his right hand. He only gave up when Joonmyun promised to not to let Sehun and Jongin live together. And Joonmyun evens out not being able to keep secrets with sticking to his promises. Unless he makes a promise about keeping a secret. Not that it stops Sehun from giving it a try. He looks very defeated when he shuts the phone an hour later.
"I'm gonna kill him," Sehun says eyes dark. Great. Joonmyun is gonna die and it is Jongin's fault.
"No, you won't. Where is the fun in college life if you are gonna go to jail right?" Jongin's high, nervous laugh sounds disgusting.
"Where is the fun if we are not gonna live together?" Sehun looks like he is about to storm off to Joonmyun's place and god knows those skinny hands are capable of crushing Joonmyun's head with a tight grip. But then he looks at Jongin with hope in his eyes.
"Let's rent an apartment together!" Sehun says grabbing Jongin's shoulders with enough force to crush Jongin. Yeah, they can do that. They can rent an apartment together if Jongin begs his parents enough. The only problem is idea of living together with only Sehun is worse than living with Baekyeol, a dog in heat-Jongin will never forget Monggu's heat- and his biology teacher combined.
"No man. Sorry, i don't think my parents can afford that," Jongin says. Yes, the apartments in the heart of Seoul is pretty expensive and of course Jongin is gonna use that.
"You know, my family can help," Sehun says with the little bit of hope that's left in his eyes.
"No, Sehun. I'm sorry it has to be that way. But don't worry i can live with Chanyeol and Baekhyun. No big deal," Of course it is a big deal but Jongin feels so guilty. Sehun grabs Jongin's shoulder with a 'daddy smile' and shakes his head to sides.
" I know how things get when you are with Chanyeol and Baekhyun," Sehun's voice is so soft and Jongin just wants to die. Jongin will probably hate himself until he is over college.
Jongin stopped staying over at Sehun's house when he was 16 , the same time he started jerking off the thoughts of Sehun. Because Sehun was dangerously clingy at nights and Jongin was hyper sensitive. Not to mention Sehun wandered around in the house half naked when it passed 6 pm. Thanks to god Sehun never agreed to stay over at Jongin's because of Jongin's sisters. Even though Jongin's sisters treated Sehun like a little brother and loved him as a family -including talking about how Sehun is much more better than Jongin infront of both Sehun and Jongin- but Sehun is a gentleman like that.
Of course Jongin is not a teenegare anymore. -well, actually he is. - Jongin is a man and can control his boners. - if Sehun is not half naked because Sehun is so.... Damn...- so Jongin thought he could manage living with Sehun because he really wanted to do so. But then he told his college plans to his sister and discovered something.
"Jongin, you can't!" His sister told him and grabbed his shoulders to shake him up. "You can't live with Sehun, no way!"
"Why...?" Jongin asked, not understanding his sisters panicked behavior.
"Jongin you have been talking in your sleep... Since last month," his sister said looking at the ground and her face was... Red. Jongin was just shocked.
"I-i do?" He said with a laugh. "What do i talk about?" His sister sighed in defeat.
"Mostly about Sehun..." She said patting Jongin. Jongin freezed. "All about Sehun."
"Wait, what do i talk about Sehun?" Jongin grabbed his sister so hard it was hard for her to breathe.
"How you love him... Sometimes about how you want to kiss him... And some other stuff..." Jongin wanted to die back then. He wanted the ground to open and swallow him whole. Thanks to god, his sister didn't say anything to anyone. Not even his other sister and was very kind about Jongin being that way. She even did some research to do that "embarrassing talk" to him and went far enough to get Jongin a watermelon flavored lube. -Jongin found it kinky at first but then tasted it and damn it was delicious- Above all the embarrassment, Jongin felt lucky that his roommate was his younger sister because the older sister would probably go tell Jongin's parents and Sehun about that "some other stuff"
"I prefered Sehun, you know?" Kyungsoo says while opening the curtains and the windows all together "You make the room sting like the loser you are."
"Why am i so lucky to have your attention today?" Jongin says while pulling the sheets over his head to block the sunlight.
"Because you talked about Sehun's ass the whole night and your boyfriend called you like six times, every hour, starting from 4 a.m." Kyungsoo's voice just got louder with every word he spoke. Since Jongin had this talking in his sleep problem, he kicked Joonmyun to the other room and became roommates with Kyungsoo. Thank god Kyungsoo can keep secrets. Not that he cares to keep them. He just doesn't care enough to tell anybody.
"I am sorry i am trying to handle it. I promise i will get rid of it. And Tao was probably drunk again. My phone was in silent mode though..." getting up never felt that embarrassing before to Jongin.
"Silent mode my ass. Your phone vibrates enough to make an earth quake," Kyungsoo says and waow. He looks scarrier with the circles he has under his eyes.
"Does your boyfriend knows how you talk about your 'bestfriend' at night?" Kyungsoo adds then scrunches his nose. "Oh wait, the real question is, does Sehun know that you are dating with Tao?" and then laughs at how Jongin's eyes gets wider.
Jongin should have told Sehun about that... Or die with a gunshot to between his eyes. Same thing.
"Let me tell you something Jonginnie," Kyungsoo says while leaning down so close that Jongin's eyes can't focus anymore and sees one big eye instead of two eyes. "Do something about your shitty sleeping problem or i will tell Joonmyun about your boyfriend Tao and we will see how long it will take for Sehun to track you down and kill Zitao infront of your eyes before he kills you too. Got it?" Kyungsoo was never so strong. He just knew where to hit.
Jongin's phone rings just at the right time and it is a text from Sehun. How ironic.
- Wanna watch the new Transformers movie today?
Jongin had refused Sehun a lot since the college began and it made cold air flow between the two of them but it is just... Jongin just needs to sort things out. Now that Sehun is dating Jinri who is more beautiful than ever and Jongin is trying to take the frustration and jealousy out of Zitao, Jongin can't bring himself to be like the old times for now.
- Sorry, i have to practise with my classmates today. Probably will take the whole day tbh since we are getting ready to the show case.Sorry.
when Sehun sends a reply immediatly Jongin scratches his head so hard his skin is gonna peel of.
- Don't be. I was expecting your bullshit anyways.
"You sent your message without checking. It got auto corrected you know," Kyungsoo says and Jongin checks the text.
"It looks normal?" Jongin says with a confused look.
"No. It was supposed to say 'I am just gonna go fuck with Zitao while avoiding you.' right?" Kyungsoo actually insulted with a long sentence and this means that the shit that Jongin is dealing with is actually serious. Kyungsoo walks to get out of the room because basically he doesn't have any attention left to give Jongin but he suddenly gasps when he opens the door.
"What?" Jongin says and raises his head to see what actually made Kyungsoo gasp but his mouth drops when he sees Joonmyun wide eyed, standing in the door frame.
"You are dating with Tao?" Joonmyun says with his mouth wide open. Kyungsoo face palms and Jongin is... Dead. Jongin can literally feel the death massaging his shoulders just to ease this tension a little because Jongin is knee deep in such a shit that he earns death's pity.
Jongin is on the couch watching the Spongebob on a calm and peaceful Sunday evening when his phone rings. He looks at the screen and sets it to aside when he sees that it is Sehun. He can't deal with the stress now he is already so tired but fifteen minutes later his phone rings again and this time it is an unknown number so Jongin picks it up without thinking.
"Hey Jongin. it is been a while," Jongin almost drops the phone when he hears Sehun's scary, husky tone.
"S-sehun? Hey, how are you?" Jongin wants to run. Run away as fast as he can. "This is not your number right? Are you calling from someone else's phone?"
Jongin shudders when Sehun let's out a low laugh.
"I want to eat dinner with you. Let's go to this sushi bar. I will text the adress to you," Sehun says slowly. Jongin thinks his goosebumps are not here to stay temporary.
"Uhm... You know the show case...." but Sehun cuts Jongin off with an another low laugh.
"It is so funny because, i called your classmates and they told me there is no show case," Sehun's voice is disturbingly sweet and calm. Jongin wonders how much time is left before his head decorates Sehun's room.
"M-my classmates?" Jongin gulps.
"Yes. Yixing, Taemin..." and Sehun literally lines the names of every single classmate from his shared dance classes. "... and Hyoyeon. Tell me if i missed one. I will call them too." and Sehun's evil smile is clear from his tone. Jongin remains silent and thinks about how Sehun needs a serious appointment with a doctor. As soon as possible.
"I will text you the adress. Be there in half an hour before i do something i will regret. Okay?" Sehun says in a cheerful voice. Jongin just mumbles an okay and the phone is shutted to his face. Jongin should probably call his family to say goodbye. Actually jongin just wants to call his mommy to be honest.
"Hey," Sehun says with a smile while Jongin is sitting down opposite of him. "I see you found the place."
Not that Jongin would be dead if he couldn't.
By the way, how gorgeous does Sehun look? Sehun looks like a model with his hair pushed backwards carefully and his white shirt with his black long cardigan that has a slim fit on his arms and skinny jeans being tight on the right places. Not the mention his make up. Wait? Sehun is wearing make up? He would tease the fuck out of Jongin whenever Jongin wore make up and would try every way for Jongin to not go out with just a little bit of eyeliner. But Sehun here is wearing thick eyeliner making his eyes even more intense and Jongin is salivating... Just a little bit.
"I didn't know you liked sushi," Jongin says and cleares his thorat. Sehun rest his head on his palm and gives an evil smile in a beautiful way and Jongin doesn't know how he does it.
"Sushi is not my favorite but it is okay. I choose this place because i heard your boyfriend likes sushi," Sehun says. Jongin swallows loudly. The door opens just in the right time.
"Oh, there he is. Hey Tao!" Sehun rises his hand and Zitao looks shocked. Jongin knows he is living his last minutes.
"Sehun? Jongin, what is going on here?" Zitao says with a confused look in his face as he walks towards to the table.
"It is so funny because i don't have any idea what is going on here," Jongin says while giving Zitao the 'are you crazy? what the fuck are you doing here?' look.
"Aw come on now. It is not the time to be like this. Let's talk and have fun," Sehun smiles prettily and this whole thing creeps both Jongin and Zitao out seriously. Zitao looks at Jongin with a scared face but Jongin gestures the seat next to him.
"Sit down." Jongin says. 'Before he breaks your neck,' part remains silent.
"What the fuck is going on here?" Zitao wishpers to Jongin's ear.
"Are you crazy? Why did you come here? You know Sehun hates you," Jongin whispers back and smiles at Sehun. And Sehun smiles back with fire in his eyes.
"Luhan called me, i didn't knew you two were in this," Zitao says. Jongin is about to reply but Sehun cuts them off with a cough.
"So tell me," Sehun says smiling with his piercing eyes. "How long have you been dating?"
"Does he know?" Zitao directs his gaze to Jongin. "What the fuck Jongin?"
"I didn't tell him!," Jongin says voice louder than usual.
"Exactly," Sehun says and then stops smiling. Jongin is dead. Jongin is so dead. "You didn't tell me."
"Sehun, i-" Jongin starts but he is quikly cutted of by Sehun.
"My best friend ignores me for three months. Barely talks to me or even answers my calls and then i learn he has a boyfriend from Joonmyun. I wonder how much i missed during those days since my bestfriend started being a mean douche-bag," Sehun says and he is gripping the end of the table hard and he looks like he can jump on the table any moment and attack Jongin like a wild animal.
Zitao's phone rings and it is still Katy Perry's Teenage Dream and Sehun gives Jongin a 'are you fucking with me?' look while Jongin wants the ground the swallow him whole. Thanks to god, Zitao shuts it off quickly.
"So what? Oh my god are you Jongin's girlfriend or something?" Zitao says and Jongin immediately puts his hand to cover Zitao's mouth. Zitao rolls his eyes and gives Jongin a betrayed look.
"This is between me and Jongin, Gucci-ass. Dont butt in," Sehun says while still looking at Jongin. Zitao violently pushes Jongin's hand and gets up pushing the chairs.
"Okay that's it. I am done with this bastard," Zitao says while Jongin grabs his arm. "Jongin let go!" Zitao says.
"For fuck's sake Tao we are in a restourant and i am not paying the damage you will cause, sit down!" Jongin says while trying to stop Zitao from rushing over to Sehun's side.
"I am tired of this shit! He has been butting in our relationship since forever and it is not his problem if we are fucking or not!" Zitao shouts out.
"You fucking," Sehun slams the table and stands up. Reaching out to grab Tao's neck but Jongin gets in between. Everybody is looking and Sehun is right there looking mad and disgusted, Jongin thinks he would reather die with a gunshot to between his eyes.
"Tao, please go, we will talk later," Jongin says pushing Zitao away but Zitao keeps pushing and shouting.
"Tao, fucking go now or no blowjobs! Never ever again!" Jongin whispers quite loudy but it makes Zitao stop.
"Oh my fucking god!" Sehun swears grabbing his hair with his both hands which means he heard it very well and Jongin feels disgusting.
"I am gonna get you," Zitao says pointing his finger at Sehun while Jongin manages to push him out of the suhsi bar. Sehun looks all red and crazy that Jongin knows he is not gonna get out of here alive. Well Sehun was never comfortable with gay stuff. Of course he was supportive at first. He would read embarrassing stuff like yaoi and ask Jongin about gay sex, the top or bottom stuff but he was doing it to be supportive. Just like his sister. It didn't mean he was okay with the real stuff because after he saw Zitao and Jongin last year at the prom, he mentioned Zitao being a gaylord and disgusting and kissing Zitao must be disgusting and some other stuff that can make him count as a homophobic. Not to mention he knows that Zitao and Jongin are dating, fucking and Jongin giving Zitao blowjobs. There are really hardcore things they do at bed -Zitao is a little kinky- but Jongin probably shouldn't say it out loud. Also Jongin thinks about Sehun whatever they do at bed but that part should remain silent as well.
"You better start talking. Now!" Sehun says and Jongin is mad at himself because Sehun looks really bad and Sehun is always put together. Jongin is a horrible person.
"Can we get out please? Everybody is looking," Jongin says looking at the ground. Sehun takes a deep breath . He grabs Jongin's wrist and pulls him out of the Sushi bar. It is funny how his grip is gentle even though he is angry and Sehun is like that. Sehun is amazing and Jongin is just plain horrible.
"I am listening," Sehun says once they are in a dark corner and out of sight. Jongin takes a deep breathe.
"We have been going out since last year. It began after the prom," Jongin says looking at the ground.
"Since last year? Oh my god Jongin are you fucking kidding me?" Sehun looks more lost than angry.
"I am sorry but i knew you wouldn't approve and you hate Zitao.. So..." Jongin doesn't know what to say, doesn't know how to apologise.
"Jongin i tell you everything," Sehun's voice sounds hurt and it is not even angry anymore. This feels fucked up. All fucked up.
"Look Sehun, the thing between me and Zitao is not something like you think. Zitao asked me out and i accepted because i wanted to exprience. That's all. I didn't tell you because it would upset you, or disgust you. I am sorry," Jongin says.
" When did i tell you that you are disgusting? Did i make you feel that way? I-i didn't meant to," Sehun says with shock in his face. Okay, Jongin is the worse. Seriously the worse.
"No! Of course you didn't Sehun! This is my fault i am sorry," Jongin says taking a step towards Sehun and feels like he took a punch to his face when Sehun takes a step back.
"Were you with him?" Sehun starts looking at the ground. "When you ignored me, telling me you had to practise and the other lies... Joonmyun told me you were always out... With Zitao." Jongin should remember to strangle Joonmyun.
"Sehun i didn't ditch you for Zitao! I would never do that!" Jongin shouts out loud because this idea is just stupid.
"Then explain!" Sehun rises his head and his voice is loud. "I am this close to let everything go between us. You don't know how i felt this whole three months. Thinking if i did something wrong, what is going on and what are you doing only to find out you had a new life going on without me. You owe me an explanition right here, right now."
It is in the tip of Jongin's tongue. He wants to shout out I love you! I have been in love with you since forever. I can't control my feelings so i avoided you so we both wouldn't get hurt. But Jongin is a scaredy cat like that.
"Ask me to do anything. I will do everything... But don't ask me to explain." Jongin can't bring himself to look at Sehun in the eye. "Because i can't, Sehun." Sehun remains silent for a while.
"So throwing everything aways is that easy for you," Sehun's gaze is making Jongin smaller. "Avoiding me for three month was so easy for you. So it should be easy to end it right?"
"Sehun," Jongin grabs Sehun's shoulder but Sehun shrugs him off and starts walking away.
"Sehun!" Jongin shouths behind him but Sehun keeps walking. Jongin wants to run and catch him but he know Sehun will push him away. He would push himself away too, if he was Sehun. So he just stands there untill Sehun dissapears.
Sehun ignores Jongin's calls for two weeks and Jongin makes sure to call him ten times a day and then call Baekhyun to spy on him only to hear that Sehun is with Jinri 'probably having animal sex' with Baekhyun's way of describing it.
It is a sunday again when Sehun calls Jongin and Jongin falls flat on his nose while rushing out to his phone to answer.
"Sehun! Man, how are you?" Jongin's voice sounds weird due to his new nose shape.
"It's me Baekhyun," Baekhyun sounds panicked and Jongin can hear Sehun's voice shouting 'Jongiiin' in the back ground.
"Ookay," Jongin doesn't know how to respond to that.
"Sehun is so fucking drunk and he won't get up. He is crying over you, so come here and get him because if we don't get him out of here the bartender will probably call the police," Baekhyun says and he hears the sound of a glass shattering and a potential bartender shouting. Jongin puts on his jeans and rushes to the bathroom to wash off the acne product that is on his face. -Dermatological- health comes first.
When Jongin enters to the club his heart is thrumming in his chest, his hair roots are full of that acne product and he can't believe his eyes because omg what the fuck happened to Sehun?? Jongin sure did probably mention it before how Sehun is always put together and even though he gets drunk you probably won't realize it but Sehun is climbing on top of the bar trying to hug the bartender who looks like he is gonna sue the fuck out of Sehun's family. Jongin almost trips and gives his nose another shape in his haste to grab Sehun.
When he grabs Sehun's arm and pull him away from the poor bartender just like Baekhyun is trying to do, he is rewarded with an elbow to his stomache.
"Ouch, Sehun, this is totally not cool!" Jongin says while grabbing Sehun again but Sehun suddenly let's go of the bartender and turns to face Jongin.
"Jongin? Is that you?" Sehun says before he looses his ballance and falls on top of poor, little Baekhyun who is probably gonna have a upper body deformation after that.
"Oh god, dude, are you alright?" Jongin grabs Sehun to get him off of Baekhyun but Sehun is faster than Jongin, wrapping himself around Jongin and stumbling them over.
"I'm okay, ouch, just get him out of here for fuck's sake!" Baekhun shouts wildly gesturing towards the door.
"I need to pay first," Jongin is trying to get Sehun off of himself. Not that he woulnd't like it if they were more comfortable and at somewhere else but they should really 'get the fuck out of here'
"I will pay, just fuck off!" Baekhyun says and Jongin manages to get Sehun up.
"Aren't you coming though?" Jongin asks since they share the same apartment.
"Are you fucking kidding me? I am this close to bang Taeyeon. Infact, i would be banging her if your bestfriend here was not acting like a dumbed, thirteen year old girl. Damn i have been waiting for this moment since forever," Baekhyun's eyes are glowing and it is seriously disturbing.
Thanks to god Sehun's apartment was close because Sehun is tall, Sehun is heavy and Sehun was also drooling on Jongin's shirt all the way down to his apartment and Jongin isn't really a fan of giving piggy backs.
Jongin rings the bell and then curses when he realizes that if Baekhyun is at the club then Chanyeol is there too. You know... BaekYeol rules.
"Sehun?" Jongin checks Sehun over his shoulder. Sehun's eyes are still closed as he mumbles.
"Sehun, can you hear me?" Jongin is actually worried because Sehun is really good at drinking. Not to mean he drinks a lot but he just handles the alcohol well and if Sehun is in this state, Jongin can only hope he won't get into a coma.
"Yes, talk more," Sehun says wraping his arms around Jongin's neck thighter and Jongin would blush if he wasn't having problems at breathing.
"Sehun, i need your keys," Jongin is trying to drop Sehun off but Sehun is extreamly clingy tonight.
"You can have it, You can have anything you want just don't go. Jongin, please don't go," Sehun whines and wraps his legs around Jongin harder to not get off of him.
"Sehun, i am not going anywhere just give me your keys please," Jongin says finally dropping Sehun and arching his back with relief.
"Will you stay?" Sehun says with a pout. Jongin is sweating.
"Sure, i will stay," Jongin attempts to grap the keys but Sehun keeps it out of his reach.
"Will you sleep over?" Sehun says with a grin. Jongin has hundred different kinds of scenarios of how he will talk in his sleep and how Sehun will react after hearing those.
"I can't, but i will stay till you sleep okay?" Jongin says.
"No!" Sehun says hiding the keys behind him with a pout.
"Okay, Sehun you are so cute and you are bringing aegyo a whole new different level but this is really creeping me out right now," Jongin doesn't really know how the react when Sehun stumbles over and hugs Jongin like he wants to break him.
"You are cuter!" Sehun snuggles to his neck and okay this has to stop.
"I will stay over Sehun please just stop and give me the keys!" Jongin says pushing Sehun. Jongin will have nightmares about this. Sehun pouts and gives the keys.
Turns out with 'sleeping over' Sehun actually meant sleeping together on Sehun's bed and cuddling the fuck out of it.
"Jongin i am so sorry lets be bestfriends again okay?" Sehun is being the thirteen year old girl that he is and trying to get closer while Jongin is trying to dodge Sehun's leg that is dangerously getting closer to Jongin's boner.
"Of course, sure, just stand still and sleep okay?" Sehun is still so clingy at nights and even more now since he is drunk but Jongin can not stand the way Sehun's leg is constantly trying to get between Jongin's thigh or the way Sehun is breathing warm on his neck. "Because, you know, sleep comes faster when you stand still and not move."
"Jongin," Sehun says and gets up suddenly howering over Jongin and his face is dangerously close. " I missed you."
Jongin is blushing, this night is seriously giving Jongin hopes that he shouldn't have, Jongin is sure he won't survive the night and it is scary how serious and blank Sehun's face looks while being cheesy and drunk.
"I missed you too Sehun," Jongin is trying to smile. Jongin is trying to smile despite his hard on and waow he is proud of himself.
"Don't you dare to ignore me ever again," Sehun looks like the angry, sober Sehun that he normally is and his hands are grabing Jongin's shoulders hard it is gonna leave bruises. "Okay?"
What can Jongin say? Sehun is pretty good at giving a taste of death to people.
"I am sorry, it won't happen again. I promise," Jongin says and Sehun goes back to being a clingy thirteen year old girl with a wide grin on his face and Jongin thinks of scenarios about Sehun killing Zitao in slow motion to keep himself awake till morning just in case of him sleep talking.
Okay maybe Jongin spent a terrible night with a Sehun constantly turning him on and he damaged his mental health to not to sleep but it worthed it when their relationship went back to complately normal. They were just like how they were in the high school. Going to movies together, eating together, being stupid -just Jongin- but being stupid together. -yup, just Jongin- It was totally natural how they started to appear in every minute of each other's life. Jongin never felt happier when Sehun canceled his plans with Jinri to just read manga with Jongin and Sehun doesn't even read manga. -Expect yaoi because Sehun has to embarrass the fuck out of Jongin-
But it is complately not normal in Jongin's book when Sehun calls Jongin to his apartment in a sunday afternoon and opens the door with not wearing anything but a pair of leather pants. That is totally not normal because Sehun is always simple and elegant. Jongin would bet hundred bucks that Sehun would never wear something like that which Zitao would totally wear in the other hand.
"Does it look good on me?" Sehun says after closing the door and he actually turns his back to show his ass and damn dat ass in tight, leather pants.
"Everything usually looks good on you," Jongin says without realizing and he almost covers his mouth with his hand after realizing what he said. Sehun turns to him with a suprised face but then smiles and walks closer.
"Really?" Sehun is totally evil today.
"This is not really your style though," Jongin says. Just to change the subject.
"Guess i am changing my style then. I thought you like that kind of style," Sehun says while walking to his study table and is clearly looking for something. "Can you ring my phone? I can't find it." Sehun says but there is some sort of evil smirk on his face.
Jongin understands why when he calls Sehun's phone and Katy Perry's 'Teenage Dream' fills the room.
"Oh there it is," Sehun grabs his phone and actually waits till Jongin declines the call to listen to the music "This song is awesome isn't it?"
"Are you kidding me? Sehun are you really alright?" But Jongin's question is left without an answer when Sehun pushes Jongin to his bed with himself.
"So tell me, how is Tao?" Sehun asks with a sincere smile.
"He is fine but you are totally not okay," Jongin is seriously gonna sleep talk about this and urge Kyungsoo to commit suicide even more than he already is.
"Is Zitao a good boyfriend really? Isn't he just so stupid? But he is really good at kissing i heard," Sehun is snuggling closer and the room is suddenly way too hot for Jongin. "Is he good at kissing?"
"Sehun is this about me ditching you to go Tao's birthday last friday? Because i asked you to come too but you didn't want it even thought Tao said he was okay- hey Sehun!" Jongin shudders when he feels a leg pushing it's way between Jongin's.
"How does zitao kiss you? Seriously i wanna know," Sehun is dangerously close so Jongin takes a deep breath and gets up as fast as he can.
"Good subject but let's talk about it later, i have to go," Jongin has a boner and a pride to protect.
"Where are you going?" Sehun says dissapointment clear on his face.
"I have a class," Jongin replies without thinking while grabbing his phone.
"Jongin today is sunday," Sehun looks very concerned when he gets up.
"Yeah, i gotta go," Is the last thing Jongin says before he slams the door and almost falls down from the stairs in his haste.
"You are such a married couple it is killing me inside," Kyungsoo says while Jongin is hitting his head to the wall. "Stop doing that by the way. You are already stupid, i don't want you to get even more stupid."
"I want to die. If i keep doing this for the next hour, am i going to die?" Jongin says while he keeps hitting his head. Of course he is doing it lightly because damn it hurts. Kyungsoo grabs Jongin's shoulder harshly to throw him to his bed.
"Your stupidy is a death cause anyways. Now tell me what is wrong because i know that if i don't ask now, you will keep being an attention whore untill i ask," Kyungsoo says pushing a pillow to Jongin's face.
"Sehun is avoiding me," Jongin says, voice muffled because of the pillow.
"And he is fucking with his pretty girlfriend while avoiding you?" Kyungsoo is talking like he is talking about the weather. Jongin pushes the pillow out of his face and gets up quickly.
"How did you know?" Kyungsoo rolls his eyes and gestures wildly for Jongin to continue.
"I don't understand what is wrong or what did i do. Everything was so normal and then he started avoiding me," Jongin says while lying back. "Last time, i knew why. But i don't know it now since he is playing nice, explaining why we can't hang around but i know he is avoiding me." Kyungsoo lies back next to Jongin and grabs a pillow.
"Isn't that what you did last time and got Sehun extreamly drunk?" and suddenly Jongin shivers with a sudden realization.
"Damn, i was so cruel," Jongin says turning to lie flat on his face. "I am such a bad person. Do you think he is taking a revenge?" Kyungsoo throws a light puch to Jongin's shoulder.
"Don't be such a child. Did you do it to hurt Sehun?" Jongin quickly turns to face Kyungsoo.
"Of course not!" Jongin says. He wants to explain but Kyungsoo smiles with his heart shaped lips and know it all face.
"You didn't do it on purpose. It wasn't about Sehun or something that he did to you. You were dealing with yourself and you needed time. I am sure Sehun feels the same now." Jongin wants to punch the walls out of frustration.
"So you think i should back off and give Sehun some time," Jongin turns flat on his face again and growls to his pillow.
Then he feels a warm hand on his back and turns his head to looka at Kyungsoo to check if he is dying.
"I am sure Sehun will come to you and everything will be alright," Kyungsoo is smiling a smile with his heart shaped lips which Jongin can see the potential in it to become a famous star's signature smile. It is just way too pretty Jongin hears some angels singin in the back ground. If this was The Sims 2 -because Jongin got bored before The Sims 3 came out and he is not even sure if a fourth one came out, Jongin is lost and old- friendship shit and a plus sign would appear on top of their heads as he wraps his arms around Kyungsoo's thin frame to hug the life out of him.
"Thank you, i love you," Jongin snuggles closer while Kyungsoo shivers with something that is not aniticipation.
"Get the fuck off! I refuse to satisfy your craving for homo cheese," Kyungsoo's words are not that hateful while he is kicking Jongin's ass to push him further away. "Bitch," he adds.
Jongin was doing so good at giving Sehun some time and space until yet again a sunday afternoon. Jongin should learn to lock himself to his room and spend the day in the bed with things that are soft, safe and not capable of killing because sundays are not Jongin's forte.
He was happy sitting in a coffee shop with Taemin and Hyoyeon and he was talking about how much he wanted to do The Nutcracker and his emotions about the whole thing like the gay that he is and then he remembered that today is sunday when Sehun and Jinri came in.
"They look so cute. Man, Sehun is so dreamy," Hyoyeon says and Jongin is sure she is looking at Sehun's butt.
"Everybody is so jealous of their relationship. It is literally a big deal," Taemin is extra annoying today and Jongin's left eye is twitching. Taemin's smile becomes so big and so awkward Jongin wants to puch stuff. He wants to punch, bam, boom, slam, kick.
"But Oh Sehun is actually so different than his image. Everybody would have an heart attack if they knew. Literally everybody," Taemin adds.
"What do you mean with..." Jongin starts but then he remembers that he is Lee Taemin. "Wait, no. I don't want to know. And your 'everybody's started again."
Taemin's lips forms and 'o' and he covers his mouth with his hand. "Sorry, i'm working on it."
Jongin takes a deep breath and apologises to his future self for what he is about to do.
"Excuse me guys. I am gonna commit suicide," Jongin says getting up and walking towards Sehun and Jinri's table. Jongin shouldn't say hi.
"Hi guys," Jongin's smile is so wide it hurts. "Jinri you look stunning."
"Hi, Jongin," Jinri says with a big smile while Sehun is getting dangerously pale.
"Are you two are here to work on that 'seriously hard' project that Sehun mentioned?" Jongin knows a lie when he hears it and he is not afraid to use it even thought he should because he is probably fucking everything up right now.
"Uhm, what project?" Jinri says while Sehun is sighing with defeat.
"Well my man, Sehun, here," Jongin's smile is seriously gonna plant there for days while he is grabbing Sehun's neck to squeeze it in a 'friendly' way. "Told me that he has this big project that he has to finish and won't be able to get out of the library for a few months."
Jinri looks totally and utterly confused while she is like 'omg Sehun you didn't tell me about any project while we were fucking all the time' and Jongin's hand is grabbing Sehun's neck so hard it is gonna break.
"Jongin look, i really do have this- ouch!" Jongin shuts Sehun up with a pinch to his neck and grins at Jinri and Jongin is sure Jinri is going to have nightmares about Jongin and Jongin feels nothing but pure happiness.
"I gotta go okay? Take care," Is what Jongin says while he grabs his jacket and leaves as fast as he can.
It is funny how the rules are switched and Sehun is the one ringing the fuck out of Jongin's phone instead how Jongin did when Sehun realized he was lying about some showcase. Jongin's life is such a romantic drama it is killing him in the inside.
But he was not expecting his Iphone 5s to hit him square on the nose while watching Spongebob happily.
"Answer the fucking call before i-" Kyungsoo starts and what Jongin hears next is bunch of swearing and bad language until Kyungsoo dissapears and slams his shared room's door. Jongin sighs in defeat and answers the call because, to be honest Jongin was dying to answer since Sehun started calling. Jongin is soft hearted and hopelessly in love. Jongin is not Sehun. Jongin is a kind soul.
That is why he answers the call with a "Stop calling me you fucking cock sucking son of a bitch," and a gap of slience fills the air untill he adds "I am not Kyungsoo i can only swear for this long."
"Jongin what the fuck is wrong with you?" Sehun sounds angry. Why the fuck Sehun sounds angry? He should be talking like a lost little girl and beg for Jongin's fogiveness.
"What the fuck is wrong with you actually? You can't be like this. You are the one at fault remember?" Jongin is not afraid to say what he thinks. That is why Jongin is still platonic. Because Jongin thinks he is hopeless.
"I am sorry. I didn't want things to come to this point but we are even. You did the same to me remember?" Sehun's voice is loud and Jongin is so angry he just wants to kill at this point.
"So this is your way of getting revenge? Making me believe that everything is okay, we are good friends and then start ignoring me to fuck Jinri 7/24?" Jongin's voice gets higher when he is angry and he is shouting like a little girl right now. "Congrats Sehun you are such a petty, immature dumb-ass!"
"No! What the fuck?" Sehun's lisp is getting clearer and it makes Jongin feel more confident because even though Jongin is fucked up, Sehun is fucked up too. "Not everything is about you Jongin. I needed some time and space and i would like to remind you, you fucking acted like we are good friends and then ignored me to fuck Zitao 7/24 first! You did the same Jongin. The same!"
Jongin just feels the frustration of years coming out. "Stop saying that it is the same! It is not the same!" waow it is the first time Jongin screamed that loud in his entire life and Sehun shuts up for a second.
"Then explain Jongin," Sehun doesn't sound angry anymore. He sounds just tired and on the edge. Like he is dying to understand Jongin but he can't and Jongin can't do this to Sehun anymore. Jongin knows their friendship won't be back untill they sort things out. Until Sehun sorts Jongin out.
"Because, i think about you," Jongin takes a deep breath and lets all the frustration go. "I think about you when i am fucking Zitao!" and Jongin shuts the phone to turn it off.
Okay, this was not how Jongin wanted his confession to be. That is why it doesn't stop him from stuffing his pjamas and a few shirts to his backpack and storm out while leaving his phone on his bed because right now he is scared, scared and scared.
"You confessed to Sehun? Oh my fucking god really?" Zitao says with an amused shocked face.
"Leave me alone Tao," Jongin mutters lying flat on his face on Zitao's queen sized bed with some expensive red sheets. -Jongin thinks it is pink but Zitao insists it is red and Jongin wants Zitao to be happy so-
"You came to my house to tell me to leave you alone?" Zitao says with a smirk while sitting on Jongin and Jongin turns to make him fall off of him.
"No, i came here because you are rich so you live alone and Sehun doesn't know where you live . I am safe here," Jongin mutters while Zitao laughs.
"Correction, Sehun doesn't know where i live, yet. It is a matter of time he tracks your smell and kills me," Zitao adds.
"He won't find me. He will probably find a way to move to North Koea so he won't see me again because he is probably so disgusted thinking about all the time we were friends and... ugh," Jongin turns to lie flat on his face again. He feels Zitao placing his hands to eighter sides of Jongin's head and then his warm breath on his neck.
"Or maybe he is so turned on and just wants to make out with you," Jongin can hear the smirk in Zitao's voice. Jongin and Zitao's relationship had it's turn from dating to being fuck buddies without both of them needing to say anything because it was just so clear that Jongin liked -or loved- Sehun and Zitao felt the same way for that Chineese exchange student Wu Yifan. They were both more than okay with that.
"I actually came here planing to have sex but now i am not so sure if i should fuck you or kill you," Jongin mutters.
"I would be happy if you didn't do eighter of them," Zitao says with a smirk. "Since you confessed to Sehun it makes our relationship complicated you know?"
"What? Are you hurt honey boo boo?" Jongin is smiling playfully while wraping his arms around Zitao's neck.
"I am just kindly saying that if you moan out Sehun's name while we are fucking, i will kill you," Zitao grins and Jongin can't help but laugh.
"What? Will you use your Kung Fu skills on me?" Jongin asks knowing that the thing he can't remember is not Kung Fu but he has to annoy Zitao.
"It is Wushu!" Zitao growls and Jongin lies down laughing and huging himself . "You are such a turn off sometimes."
"You are such a turn off generally," Jongin says while trying to catch his breath.
"I can't believe i actually dated you," Zitao mutters while lying next to Jongin.
"Hey, i'm the victim in this relationship. Tao, your ring tone is 'Teenage Dream' and not to mention it somehow manages to ring itself whenever we are having sex."
"It is a cool song!" Zitao says and they look at the ceiling for a moment together.
"You know what? You actually motivate me to confess to Yifan," Zitao says getting up. "How did you confess to Sehun?"
"I said his eyes are the stars that lights up my darkness," Jongin says with shrugging. Zitao's eyes widen.
"Oh man that's cool," Zitao says with a grin.
"I also said that whenever i see something beautiful i smell him, taste him, remember him," Jongin is looking at Zitao to understand if he got the irony or not.
"Wait, let me get a pen. I have got to write those," Zitao is getting up actually to look for a pen before Jongin grabs his collar and pulls him close.
"Are you fucking kidding me? I told him i was thinking about him when i fucked you," Jongin says and he is really concerned about Zitao's mental health. Zitao pushes him away.
"You are disgusting." Zitao says and it is amusing how he looks at Jongin with disapproval. "You don't even top that much and i have to take care of you all the time. You are a twink. But this motivates me more because you fucked up and it is okay if i fuck up too since we will be in sorrow together. Where is my jacket?"
"Oh god, are you actually going?" Jongin asks while watching Zitao wearing his jacket and putting on some eyeliner at the same time because Zitao is a pro like that.
"Yes i am. You can stay here as long as you want. If i get rejected we will have some kinky sex okay?" Zitao says while wearing his shoes.
"Staying here is okay but we should talk about this kinky sex part in detail when you get back," Jongin says while Zitao is wearing his shoes. Jongin has learned to fear Zitao's kinky stuff.
"Take care," Zitao says and grabs the door knob.
Jongin stops feeling like the most miserable guy that ever lived when Zitao opens the door and immediately fells to the ground due to the punch he ate to his face from Sehun who is standing on the door frame and Sehun literally kicks Zitao aside to step in.
At least Jongin didn't eat a punch to his face when he finnaly gathered enough courage to confess his love... Yet?
"Who the fuck do you think you are to shut the phone to my face bitch," Sehun is fixing his clothes like it is the only problem here. "Get your fucking ass here, we have a conversation to finish."
Such an awkard and disturbing cap ride they had to get to Sehun's dorm and Sehun glared deadly when Jongin muttered something like 'zitao warned me about you tracking my smell.' and was pushed harshly to inside he almost bumped his nose to the opposite wall.
Jongin's last hope is Baekhyun or Chanyeol being there to call the police if things got too violent but they are no where to be seen and Jongin thinks he finnaly understands the three seconds phone call Sehun did at the cap. He basically said 'get out' and shutted it off. BaekYeol is smart enough to not to mess with an angry Sehun.
"Uhm...This room...Seems great you know? Did you do some changes. Because i think this couch was not here," Sehun replies with a look and Jongin knows the rules; Sehun looks, Jongin shuts up.
"What was that Jongin? What do you mean you think of me while," Sehun stops and scrunches his face like he is so disgusted that he can't say it. "Fucking Zitao. And seriously Jongin. Zitao? Really?"
"Uhm.. I don't think that i know what should i answer," and Jongin thinks he should have added a 'sir' to the end. Sehun sighs.
"Do you want to get in my pants? Do you see me as a fuck interest now? Was that what you meant?" Sehun is looking at the ground with his fists clenched into balls.
"No! Sehun what the fuck? Of course not," Jongin takes a step forward. Sehun looks at Jongin and he looks suprised. Jongin is already knee deep in this shit. So he should finish what he started.
"I liked you since forever and with forever i mean like, literally forever. I am so fucked up that i don't even know if i am bisexual or gay because i only liked you and i know you are straight and you don't see me in that way that is why i didn't wanted to say anything. I didn't want our friendship to get ruined," Jongin is not gonna cry. Totally not gonna cry. No. Nope.
"I am sorry, Sehun. If i could keep it inside better and wouldn't get things so messed up, everything would be normal and we would be friends and i would try to fall in love with someone else . But i couldn't, because i love you," Jongin knows he is looking at Sehun but he can't see anymore because everything is blurry due to the tears and it doesn't take long for Jongin to start crying with hiccups and all. Just like a baby.
"Jongin," is all he hears before he feels a warm hand on his cheek, rubbing his tears with his thumb and his other hand kindly grabing his shoulder for a support. Jongin is getting himself ready for a supportive 'this is the end of our friendship talk ' or even worse... 'You know we will laugh about this in the future' talk but he was totally not expecting Sehun's both hands to be grabing his collar tightly and being throwed to Sehun's bed before Sehun climbed on top of him to strangle him.
"Don't you dare to make yourself the victim in this relationship you bitch!" Sehun is shaking Jongin so bad Jongin knows he won't survive the night.
"I loved you since i met you, you don't even know how much i suffered! Do you know how i felt the day you came in and said 'Hi, Sehun! Guess what? I think i like boys.' how dare you, you asshole?" Sehun stops shaking Jongin and is getting dangerously close and Jongin is worried about Sehun biting his head off. "I went to Jeju to get my feelings undercontrol after that. I went to my grandparents Jongin. Do you even fucking know what an Adolph Hitler my grandma is?"
Jongin thinks Sehun probably has a lot in common with his grandmother.
"Wait, give me a second," Jongin needs to get things clear and to get them clear he will need Sehun's hands away from his neck, thank you. "You love me back?"
"No, you dumb shit," Sehun is looking away and he is complately red in the face. "You love me back. I probably loved you first," Jongin pushes himself to sit and Sehun immediately backs off becaue other wise, he would be sitting on Jongin's lap and Jongin is kinda sad that Sehun moved.
"I can't believe this is happening," Jongin mutters more to himself.
"I can't believe how you dared to like me without having the mind to understand that i like you too," Sehun is hitting Jongin's head with his finger. Jongin will let Sehun do this because Sehun harmed his giant, ignormous ego today a lot so if it will make him feel less embarrassed Jongin will let him do it.
"But, aren't you the same?" Jongin can't help but to smile at Sehun's wide eyes. "Actually, i gathered my courage to tell you that i was interested in boys and you didn't even get a hint. Not to mention you dated Jinri" and Jongin's eyes are getting wider because of the question that was forming in his head.
"By the way, what about Jinri? Aren't you two are still dating?" Jongin suddenly feels panicked. What if Jongin got Sehun wrong? What if Sehun's feelings were in the past and he loves Jinri now?
Sehun seems to laugh at Jongin's panicked face and his reply is... so...
"Jinri doesn't like boys. She is actually dating Amber," oh snap.
Jongin is speechless. Jongin can't talk anymore. Jongin is sick and tired of being alive. Life is a kinky fuck.
"She wanted to hide it from her parents and friends. I also needed to do the same so we started acting like we were dating to put on a show," Sehun is laughing now and Jongin wants to kill Sehun.
"But you ate her face at the prom!" Jongin is holding Sehun's shoulder blades and Shaking him which seems to amuse Sehun more.
"It was just a show," Sehun is trying to make Jongin stop with gentle hands that is pushing him away. "Jongin, Jinri is a seriously a good friend of mine. Actually she is my bestfriend." and Jongin's eyes are about to pop out of their sockets.
"You son of a bitch! I am your bestfriend!" Jongin feels the jealousy burning him when he is throwing a pillow to Sehun who is laughing with pleasure. Jinri was a rival in love and now she is a rival in friendship. Jongin picked up some stupid martial arts -wu.. shi?- from Ziato and he is not afraid to use it.
"I am not sure if you are supposed to want to kiss your bestfriend though," Sehun says with a playful smile even though the red of his cheeks and Jongin's mind stops working for a minute.
"So... uhm," Why does Jongin feels like the less exprienced homo here? "You are not going to kill me if i kiss you?"
Jongin's reply is being pushed back suddenly to lie flat on his back while Sehun is rolling his eyes.
"I dressed up like Zitao to seduce you bitch," Sehun says before leaning in. "I will kill you if you don't kiss me."
Sehun's lips are better than how he imagined them to be. Sweet and soft but it doesn't take long for his sweet, loving kisses to turn heated.
"Dammit Jongin, " Sehun says and bites Jongin's bottom lip slightly to pull at it. "Is your lips even real?" he mumbles before capturing them again Jongin is so turned on right now that Jongin must be dreaming. He is sure he is dreaming and he will totally wake up with a boner or even worse, with wet sheets. Oh No, Jongin doesn't want to wash his sheets yet. Laundry day was yesterday and Jongin is not emotionally ready to do it again. Not to mention Joonmyun will give him a box of his boxers if he catches Jongin on his way.
Jongin gasps when Sehun grinds down to him and it succesfully takes Jongin away from his thoughts and makes it clear that Jongin isn't dreaming. Sehun stops sucking Jongin's collar bones and sits up to give Jongin a cocky smirk and Jongin's pride is gone since he is finding it really, really sexy and pulling him back for another kiss. Sehun smiles against the kiss and Jongin feels cold fingers going under the waist band of his boxers.
"Wait, Sehun," Jongin breaks the kiss because health comes first. "Are you sure you want to do this? I thinks we should talk about it first. You know... About how gay sex works and..." Jongin is getting ready to give a 'pee pee goes here' talk but fortunately Sehun smacks his thigh.
"Oh shut up," Sehun says then gives a playful smile. "Just like you i also wanted to exprience safely but i didn't made a stupid choice and do it with Zitao." Sehun is scrunching up his face. "Zitao is totally not safe in anyways."
"Wait a second," waow, too many cock blocks in one day. "You dated with someone?" Jongin can understand Sehun because this is totally normal.Jongin is not jealous. Jongin absolutely does not want to track that boy and put him in the same room with a hungry Kyungsoo.
"No," Sehun scrunches up his face. "Just like fuck buddies. He looks just like you it is freaky and he is a dance major too,"
"Who is it?" It is Jongin's time to grab Sehun's collar and Sehun laughs before pinning Jongin down.
"Does it even matter Jongin?" oh no. Jongin is absolutely not touching Sehun's dick before he gets an answer. Sehun rolls his eyes.
"All that matters is you, looking hotter than ever and lying under me?" Sehun tries again. Nope. Not gonna work. Sehun sighs. "What about this. I will tell you if you do good tongiht,"
Jongin thinks Sehun seriously needs to work on his dirty talking skills but again, Jongin also thought that he actually had some pride left but he is proven wrong when Sehun's lips are on his and he is going along with the flow.
"Don't move, i am gonna go get the lube," Sehun says and gets off from the bed and Jongin lets out a whine. As Sehun starts looking at his desks dravers Jongin thinks to himself and lets out a chuckle.
"Lube is not actually watermelon flavored or something right?" Jongin was about to laugh but then he saw Sehun's panicked face.
"It is? Why? We can't use it? It actually tastes really good but i can get a new one if you-"
"Just shut up and come here please,"
"Aren't you overreacting on this? This is actually so stupid," Kyungsoo says with a sigh.
"Shut up i am making a call. Oh hey whats up?" Jongin clears his thorat and goes down a few octaves. "Listen to me Huang Zitao. Grab all of your Kung Fu equipments. We are getting our hands in blood tonight." Kyungsoo rolls his eyes so hard Jongin knows it actually hurted his eye sockets."First we will kidnap Lee Taemin and Oh Sehun then kill Lee Taemin slowly infront of Oh Sehun but watch out for the kidneys because kidneys worth fucking millions on black market we are gonna be so damn rich,"
"I knew you would turn out to be like this if you kept hangin out with Sehun too much," Kyungsoo says.
"It is WUSHU!" Zitao's voice over the phone is loud enough for Kyungsoo to hear.