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Finished all but the endnotes on my term paper on Alexander the Great. Definitely the coolest thing I've ever written. I'm such a nerd.
Which brings me to something else: WARNING: GIRLY BANTER AHEAD My friend said "She's gorgeous and wears dresses, but reads comic books and watches war movies. She collects swords and has no problem being the nerdiest person in the world. .. I can't wait to see what guy is brave enough to date Lauren Elens." I see she meant it as a compliment, but is it? Am I really that strange? I figured out today that although I am secure with myself and my personality, I am not confident in my self. I can't fathom how a guy would like me romantically. When there are so many dainty, sweet, and beautiful girls, why go for the one who talks about Alexander as if he is living today and how his military strategy is still prevalent, while watching X-Men? I automatically conclude that it must be a joke. It usually is. Or as has been the case, some kind of bet. I'm one of those people that may intrigue you because I'm different, but then when you know me, you realize how weird I really am. There's even a facebook group that evolved from this. Maybe it's because I've always been alone that I am so secure with myself, or rather, aware of myself. But now I wonder again how much you should compromise yourself for a relationship. If people should really accept you and all of you. I have discovered that because of my appearance change in college, I have had to figure out things that most girls figured out when they were 15.
One good thing is my new friend Katy. We are very similar in our personalities, which is no normal thing for me. Not to mention we look very similar, which is kind of weird. I have someone to talk to and that is always nice. Not just someone to nod their head at you.
It's 4am. And we didn't have school today, yet I had rehearsal for 4 hours and I worked on a paper for 6 hours. What a vacation, huh?
I'm not even tired. Just confused. Maybe it was those mozzarella sticks from The Rat. Who knows what those have in em.
Which brings me to something else: WARNING: GIRLY BANTER AHEAD My friend said "She's gorgeous and wears dresses, but reads comic books and watches war movies. She collects swords and has no problem being the nerdiest person in the world. .. I can't wait to see what guy is brave enough to date Lauren Elens." I see she meant it as a compliment, but is it? Am I really that strange? I figured out today that although I am secure with myself and my personality, I am not confident in my self. I can't fathom how a guy would like me romantically. When there are so many dainty, sweet, and beautiful girls, why go for the one who talks about Alexander as if he is living today and how his military strategy is still prevalent, while watching X-Men? I automatically conclude that it must be a joke. It usually is. Or as has been the case, some kind of bet. I'm one of those people that may intrigue you because I'm different, but then when you know me, you realize how weird I really am. There's even a facebook group that evolved from this. Maybe it's because I've always been alone that I am so secure with myself, or rather, aware of myself. But now I wonder again how much you should compromise yourself for a relationship. If people should really accept you and all of you. I have discovered that because of my appearance change in college, I have had to figure out things that most girls figured out when they were 15.
One good thing is my new friend Katy. We are very similar in our personalities, which is no normal thing for me. Not to mention we look very similar, which is kind of weird. I have someone to talk to and that is always nice. Not just someone to nod their head at you.
It's 4am. And we didn't have school today, yet I had rehearsal for 4 hours and I worked on a paper for 6 hours. What a vacation, huh?
I'm not even tired. Just confused. Maybe it was those mozzarella sticks from The Rat. Who knows what those have in em.