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Well its been forever and eternity! 'Ello, folks! How's it going? I was so crabby today. Only just now have I settled down and gotten back to the Shelley everyone knows. I hate how this happens a LOT...especially like on Fridays and stuff. Is it because I get tired at the end of the week? I wish it wasn't like that because that's when all the fun occurs, right? OMG...lately I've been so cautious and crap because I've been watching TOO much CSI...awesome show but puts ya on the edge.
Okay...I need ta let something out. You see...I've been really ratting on myself because I can never get close to people. The only one's I'm close to are Jess, Stacey, and my mom...very, VERY sad...Even though I have tons of friends they're really just aquantinces to me...I hate that. I mean, half of them think me their best friend and yet I hardly ever hangout with anybody at all and then at school I don't "have time" which is another thing I hate. Most people at my school don't give a crap if they get caught doing something or get in trouble. But me? I care. I understand that it really is a good thing...but, like the rest of the teens out there, I want to fit in. Which is another thing I hate because I want to be different. Then, I guess, I'm trying too hard. I've actually run out of ideas for my style of clothes. Now a days I wear a pair of jeans and a tee or something...*sigh* And then, I'm thinking how I can't wait for when I get older so I can get money but really, its better ta be a kid because you have more freedom. Actually I hardly have any...but...anyway...it feels like the time I have now I'm wasting which, yes, I hate!
I need help...
Oh! And...I took advantage of my groupies today at the band thing. I forgot a ton of stuff too and my mom thinks its all because I have an attuitude problem.
DAMN. FUCK. SHIT.
Sorry to everyone who cares that I'm cussing!
Oh, another thing...I've been feeling like such a "badass" because I've skipped sunday school like 4 times but it really isn't all THAT bad...c'mon...
I need sleep.
Okay...I need ta let something out. You see...I've been really ratting on myself because I can never get close to people. The only one's I'm close to are Jess, Stacey, and my mom...very, VERY sad...Even though I have tons of friends they're really just aquantinces to me...I hate that. I mean, half of them think me their best friend and yet I hardly ever hangout with anybody at all and then at school I don't "have time" which is another thing I hate. Most people at my school don't give a crap if they get caught doing something or get in trouble. But me? I care. I understand that it really is a good thing...but, like the rest of the teens out there, I want to fit in. Which is another thing I hate because I want to be different. Then, I guess, I'm trying too hard. I've actually run out of ideas for my style of clothes. Now a days I wear a pair of jeans and a tee or something...*sigh* And then, I'm thinking how I can't wait for when I get older so I can get money but really, its better ta be a kid because you have more freedom. Actually I hardly have any...but...anyway...it feels like the time I have now I'm wasting which, yes, I hate!
I need help...
Oh! And...I took advantage of my groupies today at the band thing. I forgot a ton of stuff too and my mom thinks its all because I have an attuitude problem.
DAMN. FUCK. SHIT.
Sorry to everyone who cares that I'm cussing!
Oh, another thing...I've been feeling like such a "badass" because I've skipped sunday school like 4 times but it really isn't all THAT bad...c'mon...
I need sleep.