ARE YOU KIDDING ME!??!?
I should know better than to pick up the telephone at 3 in the afternoon. Noone ever calls me at 3 in the afternoon, except for my boss when i've done something wrong and stupid. So i had to go back into work, to 'fix' things that i had screwed up, that cannot really be fixed, but i have to come in anyway, so they can make an example of me, and so on and so forth. So, yeah, i messed up. Maybe i should have told them in the interview that i am NOT CUT OUT FOR THIS JOB. well, too late now, guess i'll just have to be humilated. As i walked back from work pass the glen, i heard a woman's loud (LOUD) moans from an open window in one of the apartments. It was so emphatic that it drowned out the incoherent mutterings for the other individual, to the point where it almost seemed like there wasnt anyone else there. It was so loud and the day was so quiet, you could hear her voice reverberating across the empty parking lot. As far as i can tell, it was the real thing too. And, as a female who is very well versed in the art of 'faking it,' i should be able to tell. It really pissed me off too, for lots of reasons, mostly because life seems so unfair. Situations are often so unfair. Some random woman gets incredible sex while here i am, just a passerby. She's too tied up in the throws of orgasm to even know or care that i exist, while i can't ignore the sound of her moans. Unwillingly, i become a spectator to her experience, and i couldn't be more pissed off and envious. Not envious necessarily becuase she is getting great sex and im not, but more becuase of the clear disparity in our situations. It just seems so symbolic of my entire life. Thanks world, but i didnt need that harsh of a reminder that this sucks...especially not today.