wow lots to tell
yea i have alot to tell you guys!!
This past Thursday I was suppose to go to Dannielles house for the night. Well let me tell you that DID NOT HAPPEN!!!! First of all I spent about 3 hours at Dannielles house and then my mom calls ! O yes guess whats coming now! She says I have to come home from there.. Of coase I was confused and sad... And a little angry cause I had NOOO idea what I did or what she thought I did... She said I knew and to stop lying and to get my things ready so I could get picked up! Dannielle had softball practice before her game and she was at the fields... But somehow Danni's Mom got my mom to allow her to take me home after the game. So I was happy about that but I still didnt understand what was wrong.
My mom mentioned ciggarettes on the phone for some reason... Well of coarse you all know I tried some a while back and REALLLLLLY regret it! Well when I got home my mom sat me down and said some were missing!(And of coarse she was drunk like she always is), but I said HONESTLY!! THAT I DIDNT KNOW WHERE THEY WERE!!! And well she didnt believe me of coarse and said I was lying , Theb I started to get mad and upset cause no matter how much i told her that I didnt she WOULD NOT belive me!! I mean I was balling my eyes out and begging for her to, and she wouldnt!
So This whole weeekend has been a living HELL! I cried so much that when I was crying no tears would come out because I had none left! I was sooo hurt in my heart that my own mother wouldnt believe me that I could feel it in my body!
So today right she left to go to Arizona for a trip to her best friends house, and before she was leaving I started to cry.... And you know what she said to me ? She said "What are you crying about that Im leaving? Or are you crying about your grounded again?" I was so fucking pissed I swear to god I could have screamed my head off! So I marched into my room and right before she left she made me come out and say good bye .. Well you know what happened.. We got into a fight of coarse.. And she was all "I love you Jasmine BYE!!" And I said "WHATEVER HAVE A NICE TRIP!!"
And that was the end of it. She is going to be gone for 5 days. Or 7 I dont know. Well you know what got me pissed off the most? It was that she mentioned me being grounded!
I DONT CARE ABOUT THE FUCKING GROUNDED THING !! OMG I WOULDNT CARE IF SHEGROUNDED ME FOR LIFE !! AS LONG AS IT WAS SOMETHING I DID!I DIDNT DO THIS !!! AND SHE STILL WONT FUCKING BELIEVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I dont have a dad I can run to for comfort right now, I used to have a sister untill she became OBSESSED with her boyfriend, and my brother lives in Panama City and works! So I'm up shit creek without a paddle. You know your house is supposed to be your comfort place .. A place where you can escape from all of your troubles. WELL RIGHT NOW IT'S HELL!! AND MY MOTHER IS SATIN!!!!!! I really shouldnt have an attitude with my mom..... but she should belive me when I tell her the truth ! And she has an attitude with me so I really dont fucking care anymore!
Ok well I care but It's not fair that everytime I screw up its such a big thing and she never forgets it, but whenever SHE screws up its nothing and I always forgive and forget! I dont think thats fair do you?? Well it's getting late and I have school tomorrow! AAAAAA I'm so emotionally drained right now I dont even know what to do wth my life!!! Some people just have it so easy. LUCKY ASSES!! lol
Night night ya'll I'm sorry I dont post as much as I should but I'm busy.... But anymore news with my mom and I'll be sure to tell you guys ;)
*-Jasmine-*