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I have a few things to get off my chest..
Ok well I've made my decision about being a high school cheerleader, Im not going to be.. Its not that I dont LOVE doing cheerleading. But in high school I want my good friends and dont want to have deal with fake people. Not saying anything against the cheerleaders at our high school cause alot of them are the sweetest people ever.. But I dont want to be popular anymore either..
I know its kind of bad to say "hey I'm popular" but it just happened to me. Like from the begining. I liked it so far, but I feel like its not me anymore. I hate fake people! People that cant even be goofy or crazy and not worry if others are looking.
I mean I just dont care anymore. Like so be it if it happens to me, but its not like I'm going to try. I will with my close friends. Not with people I truely dont like though.. Its just not worth the pain and frustration and time.
Im happy with my close friends and never want to loose them. I love you guys!!
I have more respect for myself now.. I dont go out with every gy that asks, believe me tons ask. And I dont want to do anything more than whats suitable for my age with guys. And I hate dressing with really tight clothes on now. I just dont feel comfortable not being me. I have my weird voices and crazy faces that you know everyone has.
Im not saying that the cheerleaders are like that either, sometimes though people will like you for the wrong reasons. Not that you're fun to be around or a good person but because you're a cheerleader. Or because you're popular. I hate it! Its like ok so you're using me so people will like you? WTF!! I cant stand people like that.. Leeches is what they are! But its so stupid cause I dont even try anymore! Im just myself and people like me better this way..
I still have the people that will be like "Jasmine lets hang out sometimes.. And invited so and so too, and him and her too" That was just an example. But Im not trying to be mean.. And I'd so rather have my good friends and that would be fine with me.. I dont have to have extra attention for me to feel special. Because I know Im a good person and thats good enough for me.
Believe me Ive thought about this for a while.. I think its time I become mature and relize that its just not for me anymore..
Tomorrow I'll get Michelle to fix my layout, I want it done so freakin bad.
Ok well just had to post Im so sorry if it was rude to anyone and I apologize!
Jasmine-