god help me but i had to blog it out.....
I’m a little confused! I am seeing a guy. I know we are good friends, I know I care about him a lot! He is a very speshl guy. We have been having a wird time this year. (I have herd that every ones having a really wired time right now because the planits and the closnes of the moon) at the first of the year HE brout up us being closer. That’s awsom! I’m glad he is intorested I have been for a while. But then we had a talk about things we needed to know, that’s where the ball started down the hill…….. I’m glad we were honist with each other….. what he told me was hard for me because of what were are tought is the world but I know his lies, he is taruble at lieing he gives all the same sighns as my mom, but even more notisubl! But I disided that I had to tell him about my past so, I would know with out a dout that he was telling me the truth. I know he is not lieing now! But I have told him some thing I didn’t want him to know about me…… I still feel closed off to him right now……. I hope I can bring my self out of this and get over my bull shit to make this good agen I know its worth saving………. I think he wants to say the L word im to scared for that still I asked him to wate. I just feel a little lost. I ternd off my feelings otere then my disier to abolish the face of some bitch that I have never met….. but I know that every thing will be beter soon…. Right?