one day at a time.
so this weekend was soo restful. i didnt do any work whatsoever. my friend greisy turned 21 and we went to the bars on friday and she got soo drunk it was hilarious. she only had 4 drinks and she was gone. its funny... i was exactly like that before. now im old and an expert.. ha. i was really upset that my boyfriend couldnt come this weekend. it wouldve been perfect. no work, cape verdean night... so many things fit. but it wasnt meant to be i guess.
i hope i did well on my epidemiology exam. praying actually. and i heard thursdays class, the class i missed since i was taking the making up exam, was really difficult my friends told me. chance, bias, confounding.... sigh. i just hope its not too bad. its cool though. i'll just have a meeting with my professor.
i had the greatest dream last night. that i actually got into medical school. i know, its funny, but a girl can dream, right? i just wish sooo much i got certain concepts, learned fast instead of going through things over and over again. i hate my learning disability. arghhh. i dont use it as a crutch or excuse, but..i just never try to acknowledge it since it just slows me down when i do. sometimes it gets to me. i mean, a few of my teachers from grade school and hs never thought i would make it into college, never mind being a health professional. i remember during one of my LD meetings, they asked me what i wanted to major in "if" i went to college, and laughed and said they hoped it wasnt pre-med or anything health related. now im taking grad courses that doctors are in. most of the time im very proud of myself. but certain psychological abuse from the past is still with me. i'm 21 and things that teachers told me when i was 10 still makes me think maybe im not good enough. i know thats definitely not the case. i could do it. i'd just have to work my ass off like i always do. one day at a time is how i have to take it.
so i applied to the department of public health in boston, and when the job opening for cambridge hospital is up, im going to apply to that too. my parents friend is a nurse there, and my aunt works at mdph, so i have a couple connections, which is what i need since my gpa is not at its best right now. keeping my fingers crossed. well, since my arm is hurting and i took my meds, im gonna watch some tv in bed and get some rest. my headaches are gone, and all i have left from my crazy last weekend is a sore eye. im going home next weekend since its easter, so things should be slowing down a bit for the rest of the semester. i got a 100 on my comm health 630 AIDS exam, which really made my week. so we'll see what i got on my epi exam on tuesday.
nite.
i hope i did well on my epidemiology exam. praying actually. and i heard thursdays class, the class i missed since i was taking the making up exam, was really difficult my friends told me. chance, bias, confounding.... sigh. i just hope its not too bad. its cool though. i'll just have a meeting with my professor.
i had the greatest dream last night. that i actually got into medical school. i know, its funny, but a girl can dream, right? i just wish sooo much i got certain concepts, learned fast instead of going through things over and over again. i hate my learning disability. arghhh. i dont use it as a crutch or excuse, but..i just never try to acknowledge it since it just slows me down when i do. sometimes it gets to me. i mean, a few of my teachers from grade school and hs never thought i would make it into college, never mind being a health professional. i remember during one of my LD meetings, they asked me what i wanted to major in "if" i went to college, and laughed and said they hoped it wasnt pre-med or anything health related. now im taking grad courses that doctors are in. most of the time im very proud of myself. but certain psychological abuse from the past is still with me. i'm 21 and things that teachers told me when i was 10 still makes me think maybe im not good enough. i know thats definitely not the case. i could do it. i'd just have to work my ass off like i always do. one day at a time is how i have to take it.
so i applied to the department of public health in boston, and when the job opening for cambridge hospital is up, im going to apply to that too. my parents friend is a nurse there, and my aunt works at mdph, so i have a couple connections, which is what i need since my gpa is not at its best right now. keeping my fingers crossed. well, since my arm is hurting and i took my meds, im gonna watch some tv in bed and get some rest. my headaches are gone, and all i have left from my crazy last weekend is a sore eye. im going home next weekend since its easter, so things should be slowing down a bit for the rest of the semester. i got a 100 on my comm health 630 AIDS exam, which really made my week. so we'll see what i got on my epi exam on tuesday.
nite.