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I don't know why I'm writing in this, possibly to save myself from boredom.
Graduation, yay? I don't know. I feel like a part of me is going away and never coming back. I almost feel like I'm going to be forgotten by the friends I've made. I'm moving back to New York, and I should be happy about this because I really am not a big fan of this area but, I feel like I shouldn't be leaving. I know change is a part of everyone's life, but it always seems to happen for me at the worst possible moments. I moved from NY to PA and lost a lot of friends. I kept a few, but I lost a lot more than I kept. I made like 5 friends in high school, none of which I talk to very often. Then I got to college and I've made so many friends here. And every summer I'd be upset that school was over for 3 months because I'd be away from them. Now it feels like summer is never going to end. I'm sick of losing friends. It doesn't seem fair to me that as my life progresses I have to leave people behind. And I don't want to end up like my parents who barely ever see their friends. And I know that there is more to life than hanging out with friends and partying and having fun, but why can't there be a balance? Why can't I spend equal amounts of time working and playing and keep all my friends? And I know I'm being stupid. I mean I know I'll see some of my friends that are still here when I come to visit, but not all of them because usually I only got to see them during the plays. I don't know. I think I miss them already and that's why I'm writing this. But what can you do? Life has to go on. And it all comes down to money in the end. People lose touch with friends because they are slaves to their employers. This is one of the reasons I have a desire to be rich. Because then I can do what I want. I don't know. I'm complaining, and I don't really want to, so I'm gonna end this now.
Graduation, yay? I don't know. I feel like a part of me is going away and never coming back. I almost feel like I'm going to be forgotten by the friends I've made. I'm moving back to New York, and I should be happy about this because I really am not a big fan of this area but, I feel like I shouldn't be leaving. I know change is a part of everyone's life, but it always seems to happen for me at the worst possible moments. I moved from NY to PA and lost a lot of friends. I kept a few, but I lost a lot more than I kept. I made like 5 friends in high school, none of which I talk to very often. Then I got to college and I've made so many friends here. And every summer I'd be upset that school was over for 3 months because I'd be away from them. Now it feels like summer is never going to end. I'm sick of losing friends. It doesn't seem fair to me that as my life progresses I have to leave people behind. And I don't want to end up like my parents who barely ever see their friends. And I know that there is more to life than hanging out with friends and partying and having fun, but why can't there be a balance? Why can't I spend equal amounts of time working and playing and keep all my friends? And I know I'm being stupid. I mean I know I'll see some of my friends that are still here when I come to visit, but not all of them because usually I only got to see them during the plays. I don't know. I think I miss them already and that's why I'm writing this. But what can you do? Life has to go on. And it all comes down to money in the end. People lose touch with friends because they are slaves to their employers. This is one of the reasons I have a desire to be rich. Because then I can do what I want. I don't know. I'm complaining, and I don't really want to, so I'm gonna end this now.