I was on the side of the road..and the tumbleweed laughed at me
I miss hanging out with my friends but none of them ever ask me to hang out, that's my fault I guess. Anyway that's not important the party is Sunday and deep down inside I don't think it's going to turn out. People have lives...they don't have time for a dumb party...I can't do anything right. :*: sigh:*: I'm still looking for a job...it's really depressing. I've got the blues!!! Brandon is going out of town the day after my birthday...you know the day we planned on spending together!! I think that's why I am really depressed. I really am a normally happy person...I mean I'm no Richard Simmons but I'm still happy. I'm trying not to let little things let me down.
A friend of mine is getting married and they want me to sing. I hate weddings...it's only cause I can't have one. What's the point of have a soulmate if you can't marry them? I love Brandon and everyone and there bother knows that..if they don't they are a fool. I will be 18 soon and I'm ready to go on to that next stage in life....whatever that might be. Brandon asked me to marry him in Decmeber...his mom didn't find out till March. Brandon and I started sleeping together in Novermber...no one knew that. I'm not he has to shout out our buisness to the world but it would be nice if he didn't act like I was some dark secert he had to keep.
I'm sleeping walking again...and it's getting bad. I have to put chairs by my door to keep me in my room. The other I walked out into the middle of the street...it was the hand of God that my dad was the car that came upon me. My parnets want me to "see someone" about this...they think I'm crazy. My dad said..."first her eating, then the cuting....now she's fucked up her sleeping...that child can't do anything right. Why can't she be more like Nicee? That girl is so needy...I mean she can't even date someone her own age. Something tells me this Brandon guy is going to come to his senses and dump Meca and then we're going to be stuck with her!" Of course he thought I was still out running but I heard...I heard it all.
A friend of mine is getting married and they want me to sing. I hate weddings...it's only cause I can't have one. What's the point of have a soulmate if you can't marry them? I love Brandon and everyone and there bother knows that..if they don't they are a fool. I will be 18 soon and I'm ready to go on to that next stage in life....whatever that might be. Brandon asked me to marry him in Decmeber...his mom didn't find out till March. Brandon and I started sleeping together in Novermber...no one knew that. I'm not he has to shout out our buisness to the world but it would be nice if he didn't act like I was some dark secert he had to keep.
I'm sleeping walking again...and it's getting bad. I have to put chairs by my door to keep me in my room. The other I walked out into the middle of the street...it was the hand of God that my dad was the car that came upon me. My parnets want me to "see someone" about this...they think I'm crazy. My dad said..."first her eating, then the cuting....now she's fucked up her sleeping...that child can't do anything right. Why can't she be more like Nicee? That girl is so needy...I mean she can't even date someone her own age. Something tells me this Brandon guy is going to come to his senses and dump Meca and then we're going to be stuck with her!" Of course he thought I was still out running but I heard...I heard it all.