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Ok so I held it together long enough to go to my Sisters concert. I got my t-shirt. I wasn't even paying for it the next day. Still felt like hell, but the tummy had calmed down. Then I wake up Sunday feeling pretty miserable, but wet to ed and shai's to game anyway. I had a really hard time following anything mentally, but by aroun 7pm the tummy had calmed down. Wake up yesterday feeling even worse.
I spent most of yesterday feeling miserable again and getting very upset and depressed. I'd sent kelly into my job with a note saying I hoped to be well enogh to return to work on wed (yup, tomorrow). Now, I highly doubt that possibility. I now have an appointment with my regular dr in the city on thursday. After talking to my dr I'll make my final descision, but it looks like participation in that fibro study isn't gonna happen. I can't seem to function without my main meds. I can't run the risk of placebo and being like this indefinitely. Its really taking its toll on my mental state too. I often forget that I do indeed need to stay medicated to keep my mental health on track too. I tend to forget how serious depression really can be for me.
Three solid weeks in bed. This is day 21 of feeling like this. This can't be right. You know, if I could at least sit and read for hour at a time it would be dealable, but as it is my brain just won't focus enough to comprehend anything. Fucking sucks.
I spent most of yesterday feeling miserable again and getting very upset and depressed. I'd sent kelly into my job with a note saying I hoped to be well enogh to return to work on wed (yup, tomorrow). Now, I highly doubt that possibility. I now have an appointment with my regular dr in the city on thursday. After talking to my dr I'll make my final descision, but it looks like participation in that fibro study isn't gonna happen. I can't seem to function without my main meds. I can't run the risk of placebo and being like this indefinitely. Its really taking its toll on my mental state too. I often forget that I do indeed need to stay medicated to keep my mental health on track too. I tend to forget how serious depression really can be for me.
Three solid weeks in bed. This is day 21 of feeling like this. This can't be right. You know, if I could at least sit and read for hour at a time it would be dealable, but as it is my brain just won't focus enough to comprehend anything. Fucking sucks.