Things I've learned...
Thanksgiving was so wonderful. We got to do a little celebration of my Great Aunt's 90th birthday (which is next Thursday). She's the last remaining sibling of this bunch... the generation of my grandfather. It was him and four sisters, and there's one left. She's brilliant and still going strong. She's such an amazing woman, I hope I can even be half the person she is. That's one thing I've realized... that I come from really good people. We may not have been famous, but in our hearts, really, my family is so kind and wonderful and compassionate.
Something else... I'd been so upset recently, so legitimately in a life-crisis mode... afraid of being alone. But I realized, really and truly, that so long as I have my family, I'm not going to be alone. It's not the same as romantic attachment, but Gods above, does it make me feel whole and happy and loved.
I also found out... it's so the best thing I've ever heard... My great-grandfather, my dad's paternal grandfather, played the guitar... and would strap it to his back when he went traveling... on his motorcycle! Yep, my great-grandfather, the original rebel. *chuckle* I knew I had to get it from somewhere! *hah*
I walked outside after I got off work and realized how gorgeous the moon was. It was full and rising and against the still-blue sky it just took my breath away. Even now, I'm at my parents house on their computer looking out the window and its just smiling, shining down on me.
And in this moment... I am happy. Cold. But happy.
Something else... I'd been so upset recently, so legitimately in a life-crisis mode... afraid of being alone. But I realized, really and truly, that so long as I have my family, I'm not going to be alone. It's not the same as romantic attachment, but Gods above, does it make me feel whole and happy and loved.
I also found out... it's so the best thing I've ever heard... My great-grandfather, my dad's paternal grandfather, played the guitar... and would strap it to his back when he went traveling... on his motorcycle! Yep, my great-grandfather, the original rebel. *chuckle* I knew I had to get it from somewhere! *hah*
I walked outside after I got off work and realized how gorgeous the moon was. It was full and rising and against the still-blue sky it just took my breath away. Even now, I'm at my parents house on their computer looking out the window and its just smiling, shining down on me.
And in this moment... I am happy. Cold. But happy.