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I seriously want to run away.
because of all this shit I've done to fuck people over.
I want to leave it all and bring like...3 or 4 people with me.
And start over.
I know I'm fucked up.
Tell me again.
I know I lie.
Tell me again.
I know I'm a flawed, fickle human being.
I've heard it all before.
But as selfish as this sounds, I'm happy.
I'm fucking happy.
I know.
It's not right, because others aren't.
And they're not happy because of me.
But I'm just a stupid girl, okay?
I make mistakes and realize them too late.
I hurt people.
Because so far that's all I'm good at.
Because that's what I've experienced.
I lied.
I'm really good at leaving too.
I lied again.
I'm really good at pretending.
Really fucking good.
I know a lot of people hate me now.
I lost some really good friends.
But what can I do?
Should I fight for them and get involved in the drama that I hate?
Or should I sit back and let things happen and hope they turn out for the best?
Today was good.
Freaking good.
I hung out with an amazing boy.
Who makes me happy.
AND EXPECTS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING OF ME
[bout damn time]
And for once.
I'm not pretending.
♥
because of all this shit I've done to fuck people over.
I want to leave it all and bring like...3 or 4 people with me.
And start over.
I know I'm fucked up.
Tell me again.
I know I lie.
Tell me again.
I know I'm a flawed, fickle human being.
I've heard it all before.
But as selfish as this sounds, I'm happy.
I'm fucking happy.
I know.
It's not right, because others aren't.
And they're not happy because of me.
But I'm just a stupid girl, okay?
I make mistakes and realize them too late.
I hurt people.
Because so far that's all I'm good at.
Because that's what I've experienced.
I lied.
I'm really good at leaving too.
I lied again.
I'm really good at pretending.
Really fucking good.
I know a lot of people hate me now.
I lost some really good friends.
But what can I do?
Should I fight for them and get involved in the drama that I hate?
Or should I sit back and let things happen and hope they turn out for the best?
Today was good.
Freaking good.
I hung out with an amazing boy.
Who makes me happy.
AND EXPECTS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING OF ME
[bout damn time]
And for once.
I'm not pretending.
♥