To hold him one more time would mean the world to me.
WARNING: The following content is really quite boring. If you don't wanna read about my past love life LEAVE NOW! warned ya...so don't complain. Haha
Yea so anyway...i'm just usin this entry to vent.
I dunno guys. How long did it take you to get over someone? Its been 7 months since Andrew broke up with me. It NEVER took me this long to get over someone. AND i'm tired of missing someone that can careless if i exist or not. Why am I still puttin my heart on hold for someone like that. I think i know one reason...i'm stuck with the thought that he's the same guy i met. But man has he had an attitude change. Still though...the Andrew i knew wouldn't do the stuff he did. What kind of person would just cut off all contact with someone that you loved? And even worse he doesn't care is he hurts anyone. I'm sure inside he MIGHT feel bad for some shit he does...but watever boosts his ego is fine to him i guess. He says i'm boring yet...he never gave me a chance to take em out...so watever. He did some stuff that I should hate him for but i don't. I mean whats to stop me from fucking with him ya know? I can tell his rents a bunch of shit. I could tell his scouts or w/e. I can do A LOT of nasty shit to that kid and i do mean a lot. And usually i would lol. But i still feel something strong for em and have some bit of respect for him that i thought i would have lost by now. I don't know what happened and i don't know what went through his head to just throw me down to the curb and never talk to me again, but all i know is i need to get over this cause i've had the feeling we aren't even gonna talk again for awhile and its time to accept it. I HATE DWELLING ON THIS SHIT. Its so damn gay. I'm just mad pathetic. Joanna got me goin on that time thing...where you wish every time the clock matches the digits. Like 2:22, 11:11, etc...every time i catch that i wish that he just be happy to talk to me. sad eh?
I dunno guys. I wanna, but don't want to get over him. I want the Andrew i had the best time of my life with so far back again. I would die to hold him one more time, but I don't want the egotistical kid I hear about every once and awhile putting people down to make him feel high and mighty. But no ones that lucky and hopefully he isn't the person people speak of. I just miss em. being friends with him would mean alot to me. I hate thinking about never talking to him again. We shared great times together. ( I do wish i got to know em more, but hopefully later on i can.) I can't even go out with anyone. I met how many guys since then and man...i couldn't stand one of them. Some didn't even know what they wanted so fuck that shit. I don't need pointless sex. I did just meet this kid Pete. haha which is MAD WEIRD. I always used to laugh at the thought of having sex with another Pete...HOW WEIRD! O PETE!! I'M i mean YOUR SO GOOD! hahaha yea anyways. He's nice...attractive (just my type) and all that good stuff. But theres something still there for Andrew and i don't wanna get into a new relationship with feelings for an ex. I'm stuck and have been stuck. The lack of closure didn't really help and neither did the rents but it doesn't matter anymore at all. I should be over this by now and i hate feeling bad for myself. Why bother feeling so strongly for someone that hates you or thinks your "annoying." Well if any of you can help man please...I'm open to any suggestions. For those of you who made it this far don't be to annoyed. I'm happy i wrote that down cause i hate bugging people with that shit. O and thank you too haha. C-ya guys around.
Now hes gone
I don't know why.
And til this day sometimes I cry
He didn't even say good bye he didn't take the time to lie.
Bang Bang
He shot me down
Bang Bang
I hit the ground
Bang Bang
That aweful sound
Bang Bang
My babe shot me down.
Yea so anyway...i'm just usin this entry to vent.
I dunno guys. How long did it take you to get over someone? Its been 7 months since Andrew broke up with me. It NEVER took me this long to get over someone. AND i'm tired of missing someone that can careless if i exist or not. Why am I still puttin my heart on hold for someone like that. I think i know one reason...i'm stuck with the thought that he's the same guy i met. But man has he had an attitude change. Still though...the Andrew i knew wouldn't do the stuff he did. What kind of person would just cut off all contact with someone that you loved? And even worse he doesn't care is he hurts anyone. I'm sure inside he MIGHT feel bad for some shit he does...but watever boosts his ego is fine to him i guess. He says i'm boring yet...he never gave me a chance to take em out...so watever. He did some stuff that I should hate him for but i don't. I mean whats to stop me from fucking with him ya know? I can tell his rents a bunch of shit. I could tell his scouts or w/e. I can do A LOT of nasty shit to that kid and i do mean a lot. And usually i would lol. But i still feel something strong for em and have some bit of respect for him that i thought i would have lost by now. I don't know what happened and i don't know what went through his head to just throw me down to the curb and never talk to me again, but all i know is i need to get over this cause i've had the feeling we aren't even gonna talk again for awhile and its time to accept it. I HATE DWELLING ON THIS SHIT. Its so damn gay. I'm just mad pathetic. Joanna got me goin on that time thing...where you wish every time the clock matches the digits. Like 2:22, 11:11, etc...every time i catch that i wish that he just be happy to talk to me. sad eh?
I dunno guys. I wanna, but don't want to get over him. I want the Andrew i had the best time of my life with so far back again. I would die to hold him one more time, but I don't want the egotistical kid I hear about every once and awhile putting people down to make him feel high and mighty. But no ones that lucky and hopefully he isn't the person people speak of. I just miss em. being friends with him would mean alot to me. I hate thinking about never talking to him again. We shared great times together. ( I do wish i got to know em more, but hopefully later on i can.) I can't even go out with anyone. I met how many guys since then and man...i couldn't stand one of them. Some didn't even know what they wanted so fuck that shit. I don't need pointless sex. I did just meet this kid Pete. haha which is MAD WEIRD. I always used to laugh at the thought of having sex with another Pete...HOW WEIRD! O PETE!! I'M i mean YOUR SO GOOD! hahaha yea anyways. He's nice...attractive (just my type) and all that good stuff. But theres something still there for Andrew and i don't wanna get into a new relationship with feelings for an ex. I'm stuck and have been stuck. The lack of closure didn't really help and neither did the rents but it doesn't matter anymore at all. I should be over this by now and i hate feeling bad for myself. Why bother feeling so strongly for someone that hates you or thinks your "annoying." Well if any of you can help man please...I'm open to any suggestions. For those of you who made it this far don't be to annoyed. I'm happy i wrote that down cause i hate bugging people with that shit. O and thank you too haha. C-ya guys around.
Now hes gone
I don't know why.
And til this day sometimes I cry
He didn't even say good bye he didn't take the time to lie.
Bang Bang
He shot me down
Bang Bang
I hit the ground
Bang Bang
That aweful sound
Bang Bang
My babe shot me down.