Your as fake as the words you read out loud.
Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage
You've dated enough to know what you want.
And that's marriage - with the right person.
You're serious about settling down some time soon.
Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!
What's Your Ideal Relationship?
Why am I not surprised...
It's been some time since I've written on here. There has been so much going on and wish I would of written them down here in my story. Feel kinda guilty because I wish I could of thrown all my thought on here and be able to go back in the future and read this and have all my accounts.
I'm writing in my regular state. You know the one where I'm usually depressed as hell or just not feeling in the right state of mind so I find the need to write. Not to say I haven't been like this since the last time I wrote but finally felt it was worth at least trying like usual to write how I feel.
Feel like I'm doing this because Nikkie wrote an entry about Voids.
The past month I've been trying to have as much fun as possible. I've actually gone a lot to Miami and partied it up with Gardo and his company. Talked lots of shit to women who I felt deserved it. Gotted wasted and enjoyed myself. Listened to endless conversations. Probably the best part of my life lately is this girl that I speak to almost every night. She texts me all the time that she misses me, calls just to hear my voice, and actually gives me a serious challenge. Of course this is someone from my past but at same time its given me the ultimate goal due to know she's cheated before, has more than one guy on the side (more like 3+ usually). Whenever in town is constantly busy and having guys coming over to visit her at night. So I guess I'm one of the most masochistic people I know but hey she makes me happy right?!
Now for my future. There were some serious plans on moving back to Miami. I've told lots of people I was leaving back home but after much thought I've decided that I'll just finish up here in Tampa. I'm not going to lie the idea of living back home in Miami with my aunt in Bal Harbor is still floating in my head but don't see it happening anymore. Most likely it will for the month of August. Not exactly sure how I'm going to pull this one off while working but I will.
The reason my sudden shift in confidence in Tampa is because of one reason alone. The company I will be in the Fall. I will be moving into a three bedroom three bath with Paul and Dan. The two guys I wanted to move in with before. Now that Nikkie is dating Dan I'll be able to see my best friend all the time and hang out with her without much hassle. Went to party with Dan and after just sat on the sofa and talked crap for a good while. Made me feel real at home and comfortable. Have yet to really talk to Paul but he's been busy having fun and doing school work but sure it'll work out great with him.
Had a blast this past week-end. Had a party for Beca since she left back to California for good yesterday. I'm not going to lie that girl kept me sane. She'd always be over and totally had a thing for her but doubt it would of worked since we became such close friends really. It always turns out like that lately. I'm going to miss that hoe usually spent most of my nights with her just talking till super late at night. Not to mention she'd always keep me company at work when we worked together or whenever we had days off. Party on Friday was pretty sweet we had a blast. She of course can't remember how she whored herself around. It was also Homeboy Jeremy's 21st so he was over with Lee. They are always great company not to mention Lee whoring herself around the whole night also chasing Beca around. The best part of the week-end was Zuli finally came up to visit me here in Tampa. There was some drama but LOVED the fact that she actually did come to hang out and party even though unexpected things happened.
Saturday Zuli and the girls went to the beach with us and we had fun chillen laying around and going in the water while drinking. Ended up just getting back and passing out for the rest of the day pretty much. Sunday was one of those random days where Nikkie was like want to go to Busch Gardens with Me, Dan, and Nikkie Ole. Sounded like a plan so we hit that up like nobodies businesses. Can't wait to live with Dan and have Nikkie around. It was just fun being around them and couldn't help but have a good time and smile.
That's my week-end. I have Thurs till Sunday off so going home. Hope to see my little wifey even though she probably won't be let out of her house for months after what she pulled today but ohh well. Hopefully I'll be able to spend some time with Zuli even though I feel the same way about her and this other girl. They seem like the ultimate challenge. I'd kill to be with Zuli but there seems to be some force that keeps trying to keep us apart when we both know it'd be amazing if we ever did connect again.
Right now though I'm home alone after work and taking my first test. Steve is off visiting school since he is leaving in the fall. Kevin is at work of course and even when he does get home I probably won't say much. My wife called before she was to get killed at home and has yet to call back. Should probably get some food in me. Told myself I'd try to eat at least twice a day now. I'm quite miserable right now being alone. I think I'd fall apart if I had this much time alone. I've read a bit earlier but was kinda tired after all I did kinda study for my test today. Started watching a French movie called "Sex is Comedy" but started falling asleep and want to be able to fully enjoy it when I'm awake. Found this time best to finally get on here and spill some of my guts. So much to look forward too but at this time being I'm quite down. Not exactly sure what might cheer me up. Maybe some T Bell or 5 Star? Possibly Maybe...
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit
Jay-eM
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||| 16% Stability |||||||||| 33% Orderliness |||||||||||| 43% Accommodation |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Interdependence |||||||||||| 43% Intellectual |||||||||||||||||| 76% Mystical |||||||||||||||||| 76% Artistic |||||| 30% Religious |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Hedonism |||||||||||||| 56% Materialism |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Narcissism |||||||||||| 50% Adventurousness |||||||||||| 43% Work ethic |||||||||||| 50% Self absorbed |||||||||||| 50% Conflict seeking |||||||||||||||||| 76% Need to dominate |||||||||||| 50% Romantic |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Avoidant |||||||||||| 43% Anti-authority |||||||||| 36% Wealth |||||||||||||||| 63% Dependency |||||||||| 36% Change averse |||||||||||||| 56% Cautiousness |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Individuality |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Sexuality |||||||||||| 43% Peter pan complex |||||||||||| 43% Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Physical Fitness |||||||||||| 50% Histrionic || 10% Paranoia |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Vanity |||||||||||| 50% Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 76% Female cliche |||||| 30% Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
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trait snapshot:
introverted, irritable, feels invisible, observer, depressed, does not enjoy leadership, reveals little about self, dislikes large parties, feels undesirable, does not like to stand out, submissive, suspicious, emotionally sensitive, not a thrill seeker, solitude loving, likes silence, fragile, second guesses self, negative, unadventurous, fearful, weird, focuses on people's hidden motives, paranoid, phobic, dependent, cautious, avoidant, intellectual
Maybe the fact that i'm uber depressed right now has had an impact on this... i wonder. DUH!
You've dated enough to know what you want.
And that's marriage - with the right person.
You're serious about settling down some time soon.
Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!
What's Your Ideal Relationship?
Why am I not surprised...
It's been some time since I've written on here. There has been so much going on and wish I would of written them down here in my story. Feel kinda guilty because I wish I could of thrown all my thought on here and be able to go back in the future and read this and have all my accounts.
I'm writing in my regular state. You know the one where I'm usually depressed as hell or just not feeling in the right state of mind so I find the need to write. Not to say I haven't been like this since the last time I wrote but finally felt it was worth at least trying like usual to write how I feel.
Feel like I'm doing this because Nikkie wrote an entry about Voids.
The past month I've been trying to have as much fun as possible. I've actually gone a lot to Miami and partied it up with Gardo and his company. Talked lots of shit to women who I felt deserved it. Gotted wasted and enjoyed myself. Listened to endless conversations. Probably the best part of my life lately is this girl that I speak to almost every night. She texts me all the time that she misses me, calls just to hear my voice, and actually gives me a serious challenge. Of course this is someone from my past but at same time its given me the ultimate goal due to know she's cheated before, has more than one guy on the side (more like 3+ usually). Whenever in town is constantly busy and having guys coming over to visit her at night. So I guess I'm one of the most masochistic people I know but hey she makes me happy right?!
Now for my future. There were some serious plans on moving back to Miami. I've told lots of people I was leaving back home but after much thought I've decided that I'll just finish up here in Tampa. I'm not going to lie the idea of living back home in Miami with my aunt in Bal Harbor is still floating in my head but don't see it happening anymore. Most likely it will for the month of August. Not exactly sure how I'm going to pull this one off while working but I will.
The reason my sudden shift in confidence in Tampa is because of one reason alone. The company I will be in the Fall. I will be moving into a three bedroom three bath with Paul and Dan. The two guys I wanted to move in with before. Now that Nikkie is dating Dan I'll be able to see my best friend all the time and hang out with her without much hassle. Went to party with Dan and after just sat on the sofa and talked crap for a good while. Made me feel real at home and comfortable. Have yet to really talk to Paul but he's been busy having fun and doing school work but sure it'll work out great with him.
Had a blast this past week-end. Had a party for Beca since she left back to California for good yesterday. I'm not going to lie that girl kept me sane. She'd always be over and totally had a thing for her but doubt it would of worked since we became such close friends really. It always turns out like that lately. I'm going to miss that hoe usually spent most of my nights with her just talking till super late at night. Not to mention she'd always keep me company at work when we worked together or whenever we had days off. Party on Friday was pretty sweet we had a blast. She of course can't remember how she whored herself around. It was also Homeboy Jeremy's 21st so he was over with Lee. They are always great company not to mention Lee whoring herself around the whole night also chasing Beca around. The best part of the week-end was Zuli finally came up to visit me here in Tampa. There was some drama but LOVED the fact that she actually did come to hang out and party even though unexpected things happened.
Saturday Zuli and the girls went to the beach with us and we had fun chillen laying around and going in the water while drinking. Ended up just getting back and passing out for the rest of the day pretty much. Sunday was one of those random days where Nikkie was like want to go to Busch Gardens with Me, Dan, and Nikkie Ole. Sounded like a plan so we hit that up like nobodies businesses. Can't wait to live with Dan and have Nikkie around. It was just fun being around them and couldn't help but have a good time and smile.
That's my week-end. I have Thurs till Sunday off so going home. Hope to see my little wifey even though she probably won't be let out of her house for months after what she pulled today but ohh well. Hopefully I'll be able to spend some time with Zuli even though I feel the same way about her and this other girl. They seem like the ultimate challenge. I'd kill to be with Zuli but there seems to be some force that keeps trying to keep us apart when we both know it'd be amazing if we ever did connect again.
Right now though I'm home alone after work and taking my first test. Steve is off visiting school since he is leaving in the fall. Kevin is at work of course and even when he does get home I probably won't say much. My wife called before she was to get killed at home and has yet to call back. Should probably get some food in me. Told myself I'd try to eat at least twice a day now. I'm quite miserable right now being alone. I think I'd fall apart if I had this much time alone. I've read a bit earlier but was kinda tired after all I did kinda study for my test today. Started watching a French movie called "Sex is Comedy" but started falling asleep and want to be able to fully enjoy it when I'm awake. Found this time best to finally get on here and spill some of my guts. So much to look forward too but at this time being I'm quite down. Not exactly sure what might cheer me up. Maybe some T Bell or 5 Star? Possibly Maybe...
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit
Jay-eM
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||| 16% Stability |||||||||| 33% Orderliness |||||||||||| 43% Accommodation |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Interdependence |||||||||||| 43% Intellectual |||||||||||||||||| 76% Mystical |||||||||||||||||| 76% Artistic |||||| 30% Religious |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Hedonism |||||||||||||| 56% Materialism |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Narcissism |||||||||||| 50% Adventurousness |||||||||||| 43% Work ethic |||||||||||| 50% Self absorbed |||||||||||| 50% Conflict seeking |||||||||||||||||| 76% Need to dominate |||||||||||| 50% Romantic |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Avoidant |||||||||||| 43% Anti-authority |||||||||| 36% Wealth |||||||||||||||| 63% Dependency |||||||||| 36% Change averse |||||||||||||| 56% Cautiousness |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Individuality |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Sexuality |||||||||||| 43% Peter pan complex |||||||||||| 43% Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Physical Fitness |||||||||||| 50% Histrionic || 10% Paranoia |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Vanity |||||||||||| 50% Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 76% Female cliche |||||| 30% Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
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trait snapshot:
introverted, irritable, feels invisible, observer, depressed, does not enjoy leadership, reveals little about self, dislikes large parties, feels undesirable, does not like to stand out, submissive, suspicious, emotionally sensitive, not a thrill seeker, solitude loving, likes silence, fragile, second guesses self, negative, unadventurous, fearful, weird, focuses on people's hidden motives, paranoid, phobic, dependent, cautious, avoidant, intellectual
Maybe the fact that i'm uber depressed right now has had an impact on this... i wonder. DUH!