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[jaythomas313198]

Wow, life seems to be just cruisin by. It seems like just yesterday was my birthday, and that was 3 months ago. Money has been the main priority lately. I don't really do much but work. But all of that is finally paying off. I leave for austin friday morning for 6 days. I made my car reservation today, more money spent. Knowing that i'm only gonna be here for 3 more months or something close to that gets me a little nervous. I'm excited, and scared, but it's something that i want. At least for now. I can't believe its all actually happening. Whether it be for an escape, or for something greater, i'm not really sure. This year has been kinda crazy. So many new things, experiences and such. My mom fianlly is talking to her ex again, which is good. He is a great guy for her. But she's not the easiest person to get along with, god knows i know this. She tests his patience, and he remains calm mostly. I've spent more time with my grandparents in the past few months than over the past couple of years. I guess part of me knows that once i leave, it may be the last time i see one of them. It's hard to say it, but their health isn't getting any better. But if i keep putting this off for other reasons where will that leave me? Wondering; that's where. I've been trying to experience things that i really haven't paid much attention to before. Things such as, different bars, or restraunts. I've met some really cool people. Which brings me to another question. Knowing that i AM leaving what is the sense in getting close to anyone? Is it ok to date as long as the guy knows that it's not gonna go very far? I don't think so. Which is why i guess i really haven't. But why deny myself the potential to experience the time that they are willing to give. I don't know. It's a all a bit of a day to day kinda thing. Mobie has been the greatest sense of a true friend in my life. The power that woman holds inside her is just amazing. And as hard as it is for her to tell me that i should move, she tells me i should. I know that distance won't end our connection. YaDaYaDa.......... Just so much goin on. I hope all of you are doing great and wonderful things with your days.

"TTFN Ta Ta for now" - Tigger