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Well it cost me $150, but it was worth it to see mysister so happy. Tonight was her prom. And she looked amazing. it's finally winding down the past 10+ years since my dad left, and maybe now i'll be able to fully breathe again. The youngest of the three of us graduates in two weeks. I've taken alot of responsibility on myself to help my family over the past years. My brother may be moving to tennesse, me to texas, and my mom is ready to move too for her job. It was kind of sad today, talking about all the changes that are going to take place in the next year or so with my family. Everyone kinda splitting off to do their own things. My sister wants to come with me, and that leaves my mom alone. I'm not sure how to deal with that. The woman that i've spent my life making sure will be ok, will have to make sure she's ok herself. I told her today though, that part of the reason for me leaving was that i can't play the father figure anymore. I'm ready to begin heading my own household. It's been a weird time these past few years, knowing my responsibilities to my family, and still battling the desire for my own childhood. It's something i regret having to go through, but wouldn't change it for anything. It's made me who i am. And i like this person, and i'm begining to trust him more everyday. I can see the husband, father, and man that i'm going to be. And i'm not worried. I've been blessed with so much care and love in my heart, that those close to me will never doubt my love. I've become this way part by force and part by willingness. I think it's a perfect combination. So now, it's off to bed, with great dreams ahead. All of which i deserve.