Chapter 65

[jaystorm]

Damm, its the year 2005, and it feels like last year. Same shit, different year. LOL, Nah, I'm just playin. But I can truely say I'm much happyer then last year, cuz now I'm working, and I'm doing something then laying around doing nothing. Like most people I know that go to CF. I'm more happy going back to the wrestling gym and practice again, so I can do wrestling shows again. But soo much happen last year. Ever since I got my LapTop back from Zen, I haven't talk, or called her in a while. Cuz what I found on the LapTop is what making me not talk to her. Peter and Anthony knows about it, and I doubt they are going to tell ya. Plus I'm talking to someone, her name is Jessica. Nice, and sexy girl. She doesn't like the way her legs look, but they look sexy, Oh My God. Legs you can munch on for days, No lie. Anyways, I met her on online (So what?? At least I'm talking to girls outside of CF...YEAH!! AND WHAT?? LOL.) I like everything about her, but she told me she never had a serious relationship before. So it got me thinking alot, not bad, but just thinking. Stuff like I'm not the only guy, I'm the first guy with all the other guys shes going meeting in the future. Meaning I scared to start something serious, then find out later she wants space or wants to see other people. I know it would happen, cuz it always happens in first relationships, or if that person never knows on how to live their life and be alone for a while. I know, cuz I done it before with my last g/f. So I scared to start anything serious with her. Plus she starting college soon, and I know a person can be really busy when they start college. I told her "When you start college, lets see what happens after." She agreed, but I don't know if its a good idea to start anything serious, but I don't want to just mess with her, cuz I don't want that either (I wouldn't mind it.) but it wouldn't be right on my part. Cuz I mean on what I said, I'm not after her just for sex. I think I'll feel differently if she been in a relationship before, cuz she'll know what she wants. Right now, I know she doesn't know what she wants. Cuz I felt the same way before, I didn't know what I wanted either. I think to much. (~_~) Only time will tell. I told her don't wait for me. And I'm still talking to other people (And if your reading this, I know this is stuff you heard before, so its nothing new) I can't wait for the next Hidden Shadows, cuz I'll be having money. AND DESMOND!!! I DON'T CARE IF ITS THIS PARTY, OR A RAVE PARTY, I'M ROLLIN. DAMMIT!!! LOL. Its time to be one of the God once and for all, but one drug at a time, remember, I'm still a newbe. I'm just glad that I'm more happyer then before, but I'm yet to be complete. Soon though, I hope.

Only 10 Dayz until...
====Hidden Shadows====
~NIGHTMARES~
January 15, 2005

But only 23 Dayz Until...
====Jay Storms Birthday====
~ReBORN AGAIN!~
January 28, 2005