Whats Goin On?....Happy Valentines Day For What Its Worth..
Ok....Kmow Its been a minute, but Im trying to get back on track tho...the music's goin ok, but I got some bad news this morning....My mother was diagnosed with ovarian cancer....( yeah , I know )..when she told me I just froze ....I didnt know how to take it...Im not sure its sunken in fully yet...I guess only because I know that this is 1 of the most dangerous types of cancer....Thats the only thing thats on my mind....she's not really in a lot of pain but her stomach is kind of bloated....She seems in good spirits tho, but you already know whats goin thru my mind...the fuk can i do but ne there for her & support her thru this journey...you know what I mean? do you remember yourself as a child when you were sick or something was wrong , you went to your moms crying cuz you had a stomach ache, or you fell...or you just plain wasnt feelin well ...you went to your moms...& she made the day ...came thre ...then afterwards you felt way better.....now here I am grown ...my moms comes to me & says she's sick & I cant do a goddamn thing to make it go away? I feel so helpless...All I could do is hope & pray that at the end of the day that everything will turnout fine.....playing the waiting game....
I didnt feel soo helpless that I couldnt go online & find out exactly what ovarian cancer was & how it effects the body & what not...so of course I googled ovarian cancer hard...just so I could overstand exactly what I was dealing with....Its not pretty @ all....I also came across this type of herbal tea that a few people had remission resultd with...but i dont wanna jump the gun...I definitely printed out all the info i found on the net so i could go thru with my moms when I see her...Its gonna be a hard road but ...i must travel upon it...My moms was always there for me...its only right that return that 10 times fold....
This is gonna be hard for me tho....i lost grandfather to cancer ...he died on my birthday in 87....& that was hard cuz dude practically raised me to be the man I am today...my pops was never around when i was a lil dude...We talk from time to time, but hes not a father figure to me.....im not gone be hard on myself cuz I know that my moms is gone need me to be stronger than Ive ever been...she's a strong woman...so I know that in my heart she'll overcome....my only thing is that life has a funny way of dealin me a shitty hand....all I could hope is that this time is that the shitty hand get dealt to someone else other than to me...Or more iportantly not to my moms....She's the sweetest kindest woman I've ever known in life...she gave her all so I could be.......I'll keep you posted ....
I didnt feel soo helpless that I couldnt go online & find out exactly what ovarian cancer was & how it effects the body & what not...so of course I googled ovarian cancer hard...just so I could overstand exactly what I was dealing with....Its not pretty @ all....I also came across this type of herbal tea that a few people had remission resultd with...but i dont wanna jump the gun...I definitely printed out all the info i found on the net so i could go thru with my moms when I see her...Its gonna be a hard road but ...i must travel upon it...My moms was always there for me...its only right that return that 10 times fold....
This is gonna be hard for me tho....i lost grandfather to cancer ...he died on my birthday in 87....& that was hard cuz dude practically raised me to be the man I am today...my pops was never around when i was a lil dude...We talk from time to time, but hes not a father figure to me.....im not gone be hard on myself cuz I know that my moms is gone need me to be stronger than Ive ever been...she's a strong woman...so I know that in my heart she'll overcome....my only thing is that life has a funny way of dealin me a shitty hand....all I could hope is that this time is that the shitty hand get dealt to someone else other than to me...Or more iportantly not to my moms....She's the sweetest kindest woman I've ever known in life...she gave her all so I could be.......I'll keep you posted ....