Recovery
Can't seem to find Simon for check-up so I left a note for him. I just wanna know that I'm gonna get better. Worried about long-term damage of what Early did to me.
Andy's been takin' this all really well. I really need him right now. Never really needed anyone before. I just...don't wanna be alone. Not durin' this. Simon's workin' on findin' Killian. Once she's back, everythin' will be better.
I know Andy's needin' more now and I want to give it to him, but..I'm scared. I don't wanna hurt him. I know I never have, but...I'm worried I'll flashback to what Early was doin' and not know I'm with Andy. I still want to be with him...top, bottom...it doesn't matter. I love him and I want this to last. I wish he'd tell me what to do to be comfortable again. Holdin' him last night was good...but I need more. I don't even know if I'm ready to have sex yet. My body still aches, but it's my mind I'm most concerned about. How can I get past what that bastard did to me?
Andy's been takin' this all really well. I really need him right now. Never really needed anyone before. I just...don't wanna be alone. Not durin' this. Simon's workin' on findin' Killian. Once she's back, everythin' will be better.
I know Andy's needin' more now and I want to give it to him, but..I'm scared. I don't wanna hurt him. I know I never have, but...I'm worried I'll flashback to what Early was doin' and not know I'm with Andy. I still want to be with him...top, bottom...it doesn't matter. I love him and I want this to last. I wish he'd tell me what to do to be comfortable again. Holdin' him last night was good...but I need more. I don't even know if I'm ready to have sex yet. My body still aches, but it's my mind I'm most concerned about. How can I get past what that bastard did to me?