It is now official
5 day shy of seven years´together, My lovely Cat and I have desided we both need a break. Seeing as there was some key elements missing from our relationship anyway, Honestly nothing has changed, Only thing different is instead of ignoring the problem and trying to force it down each others throats, we talked last night for 45 minutes and admitted to each other that if we continued on this course it might very well destroy the one thing we both dont wanna loose, The amazing loving friendship we have. There were no tears, more like relief, im so ok with this its scary. A lot of things were said i was surprised, i mean i know her and couldn't believe that's the last week of us not talking didnt hurt, found out it did but anyway yea she and i are kewl we ended the convo like we´ve ended it for the past seven years and it actually felt better then it has in a long time.
I dont know what the future holds , if we will ever be together together again, but im really happy that what ever happens that the one thing most important to both of us , our friendship is as strong as ever.
Shes my best friend and i love her and i always will.
Ironically, a couple hours after our conversation i was in the gig watching eisbrecher and turned around and lost my mind. by the doorway was a woman... looking alot like AFP. Instread of just going wow and tring not to stare to much i said fuck it... walked over and just asked her if she liked the Dolls.. she smiled and blushed and said yes and i spent the rest of the night talked to her and he very nice friends ( all rivet heads btw). Nice thing about being with the band is you come pre-fitted with perfect excuse to see someone again its called "The Guestlist" for the next gig.... Funny how some people will forgo sleep to be on it. (evil grin). so yea im smitten and will see her monday in Bochum... nice thing about her too is besides having kewl style and a nice smile and being nice and seemingly liking the funny stand up Jaymo, she dont live to far away from me.which is a plus..fookn hell im dating again... weird, kewl and fun but weird.
Greetings from Hamburg
Calm and relaxed
Jaymo
( P.S. to all my friends whos shoulder ive soaked in the last week i just wanna say thanks, I love you, i have the best fucking friends ever!!!!!!!!)
Now playing
B.R.M.C - Aint no easy way out