The LAST Tumor update
So here it is for a while anyway the last bit. went to talk to my surgeon yesterday, it was for the most part as i thought it would go as i had the controlling MRT a while ago, but there is always a bit of stress with these meetings as feeling good dosent always equal being ok but.... Im very happy to tell you that everything in not ok...its fucking great!!!!! they were all VERY happy to the way thing turned out and for the first time they actually showed how happy they are with how it went. I guess due to drugs, my own positive thinking (hard to believe i know) or me just not getting it on how serious this all was. i found out things that were said during that time tht i didnt get... like the fact that after the surgerys they were just hoping i made it through the night, how much tumor they got out was irelevent. when i woke up i always concerned only about the tumor, i never knew just waking up was all they really wanted hahahahaha
so yesterday kinda brought all this into perspective, i knew it was serious but i never knew it was the way it was. Im thankful for these people, i mean they took half my brain out and put it back in and I for the most part am the same way i was before. Im amazed and greatful for these people all the doctors and nurses there that were doing there jobs but at the same time made hell almost enjoyable almost =0) . even thought i may have to do all this again, i dont have to have another MRT till the end of the year =0) now i just have to deal with the hormone thing and keep an eye on my vision
again i have to say this, the doctors did a great job but i still believe it was the all the love i got from my friends that pulled me through this, Cat who was always there for me, Doris and Nadja who had full days everyday but still took time to come see me and smile, my bros Fez and Frank and Lucus who showed up at exactly the right time. Sami and Timo sorry i was always out but thanks for coming ! Samineh mutti , papa and meike David, Mel and fiona and everyone else that came, sent messages of love and support either calling, sms or e mail it all literally saved my life and i have all of you to thank. So thanks everyone, its nice to me loved
love and lights
Jay(mo)